Balancing Act 6.4

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Wow, Snowflake said. That wasn’t strange or suspicious at all. Really.

 

Wasn’t exactly reassuring, I agreed.

 

You trust her? she asked, sounding genuinely interested in the answer.

 

Oh hell no, I replied immediately. Cousin or not, Alexis is a stranger. I never trust strangers. And the way she left was freaking weird. Besides, why is she so suddenly spooky, when a few years ago I’d have sworn up one side and down the other the whole family was as human as they come? No, there’s definitely something she isn’t telling us.

 

Good, Snowflake said, sounding relieved. I was scared, since she was your cousin and all, the abandonment issues would kick in and your brains would run out your ears.

 

Nah, I said confidently. I’ve never had that much difficulty with it. You and Aiko are family, then Edward, and Conn and his brood after that. Just because Alexis and I have some genes in common doesn’t make her one of mine. I stood up and left, although at a somewhat slower pace. So where to now?

 

Well, she drawled, I reckon first of all we might oughta see what this here note under your windshield wiper says.

 

Did you see who left it? And why are you trying to sound like a hillbilly?

 

There was the mental equivalent of a shrug. It seemed like the right accent for it. And no, I didn’t see who left it, because I was busy watching the window to assuage your ridiculously excessive, compulsive paranoia.

 

Right. Sorry.

 

The note, which was written on standard nine-by-eleven paper, was neatly folded and tucked under the wiper. It didn’t explode when I unfolded it, either, which was a great comfort; I wouldn’t have been surprised if this were another in my ongoing string of assassination attempts.

 

The note itself was almost too simple to justify the name. The first mark was a simple, stylized snowflake,. Then, in simple block handwriting, the message Dawn, the fire we started. It concluded with a simple pictorial signature, just three rectangles. One of them was stacked atop the other two.

 

So. If you assumed the snowflake was an emblematic representation of my first name, and you assumed the second picture was a way to say Brick without saying as much, this was telling me where and when to go for a meeting. It was rather clever, really; even if it had fallen into the wrong hands, next to nobody would know who the sender and recipient were. Almost certainly no one else would be able to figure out where to go.

 

I’d helped the Inquisition out a few times, which necessarily involved working with Brick—he was, after all, by far the most experienced and knowledgeable of the lot, even if most of them didn’t realize it. Surprisingly, though, we’d only started one serious fire, the very first time we worked together. It had actually been Loki’s doing, although I didn’t recognize that at the time, and it got to be a decently sized wildfire before they got it out. Brick knew I wasn’t likely to forget something so significant as that, which meant it was somewhere we could both find. Moreover, it was a ways away from my usual stomping grounds and he’d had time to check it out, so I wouldn’t have the advantage—but it was far enough out into the woods to be my sort of place, making it a stupid place to arrange a hit on me.

 

As meeting places go, this one was excellent.

 

Almost too much so, in fact. Anytime something seems as unlikely to be a setup as that, I immediately start wondering whether that’s exactly what they want me to think. I mean, you know what they say about things too good to be true, right?

 

Snowflake says I’m excessively paranoid. I’d say she’s right, except usually I turn out not to be entirely wrong, which means that I’m clearly not being excessive.

 

I shrugged, folded the note up, carefully ripped it to shreds, and threw it away. I hadn’t smelled any magic on it, but that doesn’t necessarily mean anything when you’re dealing with somebody skilled. Besides which, while tracking spells and the like were far from a specialty of mine, I knew just enough about them to know that even something completely inert, magically speaking, could be used to target them. Whether or not Brick was actually the person who’d given me this note, I’d be an idiot not to take that possibility into account. It was hardly like I was going to forget what it said.

 

Okay, I said as Snowflake ambled over, slinking under and around various cars. So now where to?

 

Well, she said slowly, Frishberg’s corpses were probably some kind of magic, and they were almost certainly killed by magical means, right?

 

Right.

 

So they were more than likely killed as a part of this supernatural turf war, then. And it’s possible that the split between Brick and Jimmy was the same thing.

 

I nodded, getting in the car. Sounds reasonable. So the first thing to do is find out more about what’s going on there.

 

Snowflake jumped in the passenger door, and I shut it after her. Best thing I can think of to do.

 

I frowned thoughtfully. There were a lot of sources I could conceivably consult for that information, but most of my usual contacts weren’t very good for this sort of thing. Legion was, in his strange and alien way, quite brilliant, but his knowledge of politics was a few hundred years out of date. Things tend to change more slowly in the supernatural realms than for normal humans, but they do change, and it was probable that his information would have some major gaps in it. Alexander was more up-to-date, but he was also utterly disinterested in political dealings of any stripe. He wouldn’t be involved in anything of this sort, and he wouldn’t take it well if I tried to involve him. Conn would probably know—given that he’s pretty much the biggest, baddest, most influential werewolf in the world, there aren’t many people more into politics than the Khan. But he had a protective streak a mile wide, and he’d probably want to come help me out. At the very least he’d want to send someone to do it for him.

 

On the surface that sounded like a good thing, but I was pretty sure it wasn’t. Conn was big news—old, strong, enormously powerful. Conn was the sort of person who, if you were to ask him “you and what army?”, could just lean back, grin, and point at himself. What was more, if you managed to overcome his one-man army—and that would take a lot of doing—he had another hundred thousand or so people backing him up, most of them werewolves. You crossed the Khan at your own extreme peril.

 

He was too much power, is what I’m getting at. Calling the Khan of werewolves into a local power struggle was the equivalent of using nuclear weapons in a minor border skirmish. It was excessive, stupid—and likely to make the other side break out their own persons of mass destruction. The resulting crossfire, aside from leveling the city and likely killing me, could conceivably kick off a round of violence that would make WWII look like a pillow fight.

 

Granted, that was an absolute worst-case scenario. It was a lot more likely that they would simply give up on the territory, or even that Conn would be satisfied just giving me the information I needed. But it wasn’t something I wanted to risk lightly—especially when, given that there weren’t any actual werewolves in the struggle, he didn’t have an official stake in the matter. The same went for his family, although only Dolph was big enough into political scheming to help much. Conn and his children might seem omniscient at times, but they weren’t. There wasn’t a lot of reason for them to know the specifics of a territory struggle in a relatively insignificant city where none of them had a personal stake, or any minions to speak of. They were very much focused on their own people. No, it was better to find someone else.

 

I thought for a while. Then, grinning, I put the car into gear. I had a pretty good idea who I needed to talk to next.


 

I read the invitation, and the letter it had come with. Then I reread them. Then, just in case I’d gotten lucky and something was different, I reread them again. I did not get lucky.

 

I looked up at Aiko, who was currently drinking antifreeze—excuse me, I mean fruit soda—out of a bottle approximately as large as a five-gallon bucket and eating a plate of brownies. How she could stand to do those things at the same time (or drink the soda at all, but that’s an entirely different mystery) was beyond me, but she seemed to enjoy it, and had yet to show signs of illness as a result, suggesting that she had a metabolism in approximately the same range as the average hummingbird. Assuming the average hummingbird was on speed. “So these things just showed up?” I asked.

 

Aiko shrugged. “Beats me. I walked into the bedroom a few hours ago and bam, there they were.”

 

“God damn it,” I muttered, going back to glaring at the paper. “Why is it that everybody can just waltz in and out of this house? I thought this place was supposed to be secure.” Snowflake and Aiko both snorted. I read the invitation again. It stubbornly persisted on saying:

 

You are invited

 

To a Gathering and

 

Masquerade of the

 

Seelie and Unseelie Courts

 

of the Sidhe

 

To be held Tomorrow, All Hallows’ Eve,

 

From Dusk until Dawn,

 

In the Palace of

 

Utgard

 

And to bring with you

 

One Escort of your choice.

 

The invitation looked, all things considered, almost exactly like the last one I’d received, except that some of the wording was different, and the watermark was a pine tree rather than a dragon. That would have been more reassuring, except that the last invitation I’d received had actually been a forgery, courtesy of Loki and his ceaseless quest to frustrate, irritate, and generally screw with me.

 

There was, in all fairness, also one other, critical difference. Namely, this invitation was signed. I couldn’t hope to read it—the rest of the card was in impeccable, almost disturbingly perfect handwriting, but the signature stood out so greatly it was obvious it hadn’t been written by the same person. It wasn’t a question of puzzling out the name. Hell, if I hadn’t seen the context, it would have taken a while to guess that it was supposed to be language.

 

The accompanying letter was, in some respects, almost worse. The paper was of a slightly lower quality—which still made it the most expensive I’d seen in weeks. It opened with Master Winter and retained the same bizarre medley of casual and formal throughout, which was a little off-putting.

 

Master Winter,

 

It has occurred to me that, as you have been sadly unable to participate in such events for the span of some years, it might interest you to learn that the Sidhe will be hosting another party not entirely unlike the one at which we met. Naturally, recalling as I do the unfortunate circumstances surrounding that particular event, I am aware that one might expect for you to regard this invitation to attend such a gathering in a somewhat suspect light. As such, I felt that you might prefer a certain guarantee as to the genuineness of this offer. With that in mind, I have taken the liberty of approaching our host regarding this matter; he looks forward to making your acquaintance with great excitement, and has personally affirmed that you are, indeed, permitted to attend. This is, as I believe the invitation mentions, a masquerade ball; however, as you do not hail from the Courts, you needn’t bother going to any great lengths regarding costume, as you will not be expected to compete in such matters.

 

As always, I remain your friend and great admirer; Sincerely,

 

Blaise

 

Pstscrpt.

 

Please be so kind as to bring the esteemed Mistress Miyake Aiko with you, if you should come. Circumstances tragically interrupted before we were able to speak, on your last visit to our realm, and I greatly desire that I should be able to converse with her, as I must imagine does our host, who has always held both your works and hers in the highest esteem.

 

Great. Just fucking great. The letter could only be from one person, a Twilight Prince I’d had dealings with on my last, ill-fated venture into the world of high Sidhe society. He’d called himself Blaze—or, as it turned out, Blaise; I hadn’t seen it in writing or anything like that, after all—but I’d heard him called a few other things, too. Apparently his moniker within the Twilight Court was the Son of Wolves, and he was one of the scariest people in the Courts. I hadn’t been able to find much info on him in the years since, because nobody but nobody wanted to talk about him. About all that I’d learned was that he was creepy, powerful, and associated in some nebulous way with the werewolves, all of which I could have guessed from our brief interaction anyway. The only really valuable thing that I’d learned was that, while he was Sidhe through and through, he disdained the intrigues and machinations of the Daylight and Midnight Courts, holding himself as a neutral party for the most part.

 

There are very few Sidhe strong enough to make a statement like that and make it stick. Very few.

 

At the time, I’d thought I’d gotten a lucky deal, trading useless trivia for a very prompt location on somebody I’d badly needed to talk with. Shortly afterwards, I’d realized that he had as much of a stake in my success as I did, if not more, and as a result he actually got both a bit of knowledge and some cheap muscle for very little work. Since then, I’ve come to the conclusion that the reality was that he was moving me around like a pawn on the chessboard, and doing it so smoothly that it took me months to recognize it. He got influence and recognition among his fellows in the Twilight out of the deal. I mostly got hurt, and the events surrounding that bargain led, circuitously but surely, to Enrico’s suicide.

 

I was not feeling particularly eager to make another deal with the Sidhe. Considering how badly I got burned the last time, I wasn’t eager at all to attend another of their parties. I explained this to Aiko, possibly using slightly stronger language.

 

She rolled her eyes at me. “Oh, come on. It wasn’t that bad.”

 

“It was exactly that bad.”

 

She paused. “Well, okay, it was,” she admitted. “But you gotta admit, the food was top-notch.”

 

I stared at her. “There’s some sort of schism within the ranks of the Inquisition, who are psycho vigilante mages with a collective hard-on for killing monsters—a group which they could easily include all three of us in,” I said, ticking it off on my finger. “Someone, almost certainly one of those mages, sent a construct to kill me the other night. A serious turf war is about to break out over this city. I agreed to help the local freak squad figure out how a number of bizarre murders, which may have been part of that same turf war, were committed. A skinwalker just told me to get the hell out of Dodge, and threatened to kill me if I didn’t. My cousin, who appears to be involved in some sort of shady dealing or other, is in town and apparently developing some portion of the same bizarre heritage I have, which is going to take a lot of thought to get used to.” I was on to my second hand by now, and that was counting pretty conservatively. “Don’t you think my plate sounds full enough already?”

 

It sounds like you could use a break, Snowflake told me—she was currently half-asleep and hadn’t been participating in the conversation, but that didn’t mean she wasn’t listening. Maybe you should take a day off, go to a party or something.

 

I switched my glare from the kitsune to the husky. “Yeah, like this party’s going to be very restful. Right.”

 

Aiko sighed. “Look, Winter. I know how you feel, but you can’t seriously imagine that you’re going to ignore this one. We’re talking about a personal invitation from a Twilight fucking Prince, and that isn’t something you turn down. Not to mention whoever owns this Utgard place.” She paused. “Actually, who does own this Utgard place?”

 

I grunted. “Beats me, but that’s jotun country. Deep in Jotunheim.”

 

“You sure?”

 

I nodded grimly. “Absolutely. It’s a named location in the Poetic Edda. Apparently Thor and Loki took a trip to the area and got utterly duped by the guy that owned it back then. Given how seldom people that powerful die, odds are good he’s still the boss.”

 

Aiko was quiet for a moment as she took that in. “Damn. You think it’s an accurate story?”

 

I shrugged. “Who could say? I’ve never had a chat with the Æsir to fact-check it, and with luck I never will. But Loki implied that the Edda isn’t entirely full of shit, so it’s probably safe to assume that at least the essentials are decently grounded.”

 

“Well then,” she said brightly. “Looks like we’ll get to meet some giants. Should be a good time.”

 

I tried to maintain my glower, and for a few seconds thought I was going to pull it off. Then I cracked, and settled for a rueful chuckle instead. “Yeah, looks like.” I shook my head. “A Hallowe’en masquerade with the Sidhe. That oughta be good.”

 

“Yeah,” she said, sounding almost wistful. “I did a few masquerade balls with the Courts when I was younger. They can put on a show, I’ll give ’em that.” She ate the last few crumbs, drained the bottle of soda, and tossed the detritus over her shoulder into the trash. “You got any ideas for your costume?”

 

“Nah, I’ll think about that later. For now, I was wondering whether you feel up for a trip to Italy.”

 

Aiko yawned and wandered over toward Snowflake. “Sure, why not. You wanna talk to Jacques or something?”

 

“No,” I said sourly. “I want few things less than anything to do with that foul, perpetually inebriated pile of refuse trying and failing to pass for a human being. But an information broker ought to know something about the upcoming internecine violence, and he still owes me a favor.”

 

Not bad, Snowflake acknowledged, standing up and shaking herself awake. But I don’t think most people will know what “perpetually inebriated pile of refuse” is referring to. And how many people know what internecine means? Really?


 

Our trip through the Otherside was, thankfully, uneventful. Granted it was still marked by several intervals of violent illness, complete with vomiting and miserable inarticulate noises, but that was more or less par for the course. There’re reasons I don’t travel by Otherside unless I’m going at least a few thousand miles, and while most of them involve the technical difficulties and risks associated, the sheer unpleasantness of it isn’t a minor factor, either.

 

Snowflake and I left Aiko at the last portal—she still wasn’t allowed out of the Otherside, even briefly. Thanks to the challenges intrinsic to coordinating timing between the “real” world and the Otherside, Aiko wasn’t going to be picking us up—in fact, she should already be gone, en route home. It was risky to travel the Otherside alone, but she was a native, and I was entirely aware that she could take care of herself. Besides, I knew that she would be sticking to the safer areas, given that she didn’t have her thugs along for this trip.

 

So the pang of worry I felt at leaving her alone there was mostly unjustified.

 

Snowflake and I, once we’d gotten over the moment of shared misery, took off down the Milanese alley where Aiko had dropped us off. We’d lost around three hours in transit, mostly to an Otherside domain where time passed at a slightly wonky rate relative to what I was accustomed to, and between that and the fact that Italy is in a slightly different time zone than Colorado it was now the middle of the night. From my perspective it hadn’t been an hour since we’d left, which had been early afternoon, but you get used to that kind of thing.

 

It’s amazing, actually, the kinds of thing you can get used to, if you pummel your brain hard enough. When you’re dealing with things freakish and terrifying and powerful beyond mortal ken on a daily basis, it doesn’t take all that long before you find yourself joking around next to something that would make a normal person run away gibbering. It’s almost scary when you look around and realize how casually you’re treating something like that. As any good demolitions person knows, the easiest way to get yourself killed by dynamite is to go treating it lightly.

 

But, even if I could do something about it, and even if I should do something about it—neither of which was certain—this was certainly not the time. So I shook off such thoughts, and focused on what to do in the here and now.

 

I knew a few curses in Italian, but that was about it. Snowflake knew a little more, but she obviously couldn’t actually speak it. I suppose that she could have prompted me with what to say, but that’s a surefire bet to make people think you’re the Terminator, which would be a bit awkward.

 

So, no taking a cab for us. Not a problem. I’d spent enough years walking everywhere I went in the city not to worry overmuch about a little more. Snowflake and I walked along, in that infamous wolfish lope that eats miles almost as fast as jogging, but which looks much more deceptively relaxed, and which you can keep up for hours and hours if you’re fit.

 

We were fit—more so, in fact, than any normal human could aspire to. I’m not as strong as some werewolves, thanks to a quirk of the magic, but I’m pretty quick when I need to be, and when it comes to endurance I’m pretty superb. And Snowflake was, well, a husky. If there’s an animal more perfectly designed for running, and running, and running, for hours on end, than a Siberian husky, I don’t know what it is. It wouldn’t take that long to get where we were going.

 

I’d only been to Jacques’s apartment once before, on our only other trip to Milan, but I have a pretty good sense of direction most of the time. On the two occasions I did take a wrong turn Snowflake was more than happy to correct me, while also informing me that I was a Dummkopf, Blotkopf, and Mistkopf, as well as various other amusing German imprecations. It only took us around forty minutes to travel a few miles, find the right building, and bypass the security. It was pretty decent—this was an expensive apartment building, unless they were actually condos—but it had been designed with certain things in mind. Given how far I was outside that intent, I don’t think they’re really to blame for my getting in. It wasn’t their fault that I had abilities they thought were impossible, and as such could walk through their security measures like they weren’t even there.

 

Jacques’s place was on the fifteenth floor, which bothered me a little. I don’t mind heights, but I get twitchy when a quick, subtle exit is difficult. I could probably get Snowflake and myself safely to the ground if we had to jump—I can’t fly, but I can prevent the splattery sort of landing when I fall. But there were enough things that could go wrong with that plan to make it not my first choice, and there weren’t any other options for a quick getaway.

 

I’d thought I might have a bit of trouble finding the right apartment. I didn’t. While it was true that I didn’t remember which one was his, I didn’t need to. All I had to do was follow my nose. When I got to the door that smelled absolutely rancid, I knew I was in the right place.

 

Suddenly, Snowflake said, I remember why we don’t come here more often. Was für einen verdammten ätzenden Scheißdreck.

 

I know, I sighed in response to her singularly suitable complaint, and rapped on the door. I was trying to be quiet about it, but there wasn’t any response, and I wound up having to pound fit to wake the dead before Jacques stirred from his alcohol-induced stupor. In the stillness of the sleeping building (thankfully, he’d woken up before the neighbors; I hadn’t been sure which way it would go), I could clearly hear him shamble over to the door. I could also hear him undoing seven locks and three door chains before opening it.

 

Jacques looked worse than the last time I’d seen him, which I would have sworn was impossible. His beady eyes were so bloodshot they looked more red than pink, and it went downhill from there. He was barefoot and wearing nothing but a stained, filthy bathrobe, exposing a lack of grooming that would embarrass a komodo dragon. He glared at me, swaying slightly on his feet. “You know what time it is?” he demanded belligerently.

 

“No rest for the wicked,” I chirped, causing Snowflake to chuckle appreciatively. “Come on, I’m not going to talk business in the hallway.” I pushed past him, Snowflake tight on my heels and practically mincing, she was trying so hard to avoid contact with the floor. In all fairness, I would not want to contact Jacques’s floor with my bare skin, either. Heck, even wearing boots I didn’t want to know what I was stepping in. Especially not the squishy bits.

 

Jacques took his time locking up, fastening the door securely before he came to join us in his pigsty of a living room. He’d at least taken the time to turn on a lamp, allowing us to pick our way through the piles of dirty laundry, old food, empty bottles of booze, and similar refuse which took up the majority of his floor space.

 

All things considered, I’m not entirely sure I wouldn’t prefer the dark.

 

I didn’t sit on the couch, because it looked like I really wanted a Hazmat suit before I got within five feet of the thing. I don’t even want to think about some of the things that had accumulated in the depths of that couch. The last time we were here, Jacques had literally pulled a sizable handgun out of it, and it looked like there was enough room for another dozen where it had come from.

 

Of course, you’d have to disinfect thoroughly after you fired one, even if you survived long enough to find it.

 

Jacques wandered past, grabbing a glass jug seemingly at random off of one of the piles and shaking it. It sloshed. He opened it and poured some down his throat. I winced, and so did Snowflake. He sat down on the couch, which both creaked and squelched, and glowered at me. “What do you want, Shrike?” he asked, drinking some more.

 

Jacques knew who I was, of course. It was quite simply not possible that he didn’t. He was primarily an information broker, making it quite literally his business to know everything and everybody. I was becoming moderately infamous, and had been entirely too high on entirely too many radars recently. Given my distinctive appearance and the fact that Snowflake was following me around, I’d be shocked if he didn’t know me on sight. But he’d never use any name except the pseudonym Aiko had stuck me with the first time I came here. It wouldn’t be professional.

 

“Information,” I said crisply. As far as I was concerned, the sooner I got to leave this place the better. “I’ve been informed that a supernatural territory war is about to take off in Colorado Springs. I want to know everything you’ve got on it.”

 

“Expensive,” he noted, taking another drink. The bottle came up empty this time, and he tossed it aside to shatter on the ground (fortunately, it landed in a pile of filthy clothing), fumbling blindly after another in the heap of rubbish next to the couch.

 

“You owe me,” I reminded him. “Speaking of which…this time? Don’t tell anyone I was here. I mean it.”

 

He treated me to a ninety-proof snort and a fetid chuckle. “Don’t you worry, Shrike. Your secret’s safe with me. So whaddaya know already?”

 

“I know it’s going on. I know it’s about to pick up, a lot. I’m pretty sure it doesn’t involve a werewolf pack.”

 

“Well shit, man,” Jacques said, sniggering slightly. “You don’t fucking know much, do you?”

 

I’m going to need a long bath after this, Snowflake informed me. I mean, for a second there I was agreeing with this sleazebag. I feel dirty.

 

“Well, then,” I said, ignoring Snowflake’s comment (I’m pretty good at that, by now). “Maybe you better start talking. Who’s playing?”

 

He shrugged, picked something out of his nasty teeth with an even nastier fingernail, and spat on the floor. On his own floor, I might note. “Dunno,” he said. “My stuff’s a little old for that one. But I know there’s a few factions. Council’s got a vamp there, but I think there’s some rakshasas or some shit like that trying to move in too. Rumor says there’s a mage clan might want a piece of the action, but that shit’s just gossip, don’t know how serious you want to treat it. Daylight elves are making moves in the area, but I can’t say whether they’re for real or just want to fuck with people’s heads. Elves are big on that shit, right? Then there’s a bunch of yokai that want to take over the joint, too.”

 

I frowned. “Yokai as in kitsune?”

 

“Yeah, a few of those,” Jacques said, grinning knowingly. “But mostly I hear it’s the tengu want your mountain, think you’re mistreating its holy places or some such shit, crazy birdbrains. There’s a few kappa and tanuki with ’em, too, and where those four go the little yokai follow, right?”

 

“Wonderful,” I groaned. “Heard anything about a skinwalker in the mix?”

 

Jacques frowned slightly and drank some more. “Skinwalker? No, haven’t heard a thing. He can’t have Pack approval, or I’d have heard about it. That’ll change the betting.”

 

“Who’s your money on?” I asked curiously.

 

The black marketeer smiled the sort of thin, sharp smile baby crocodiles aspire to have when they grow up. “I am not a gambling man, Shrike. Was there anything else?”

 

“Yeah,” I said. “Who’s running operations for these people? Where can I find them?”

 

He shrugged. “I’ve no idea. That’s the sort of thing they’ll be keeping under tight wraps. Otherwise people will start thinking of assassination and suchlike. Obviously. Try talking to people on the scene locally be my suggestion.”

 

“Great,” I muttered, turning to leave. “Thanks, Jacques. That’ll come in handy.”

 

“Oh, naturally, Shrike,” he murmured, just on the threshold of werewolf hearing—it would have been inaudible to a normal human. “I always fill the order.”


 

By the time we got back out to the street, the sky—what little of it was visible between the buildings, at any rate—was starting to brighten with the promise of dawn. Traffic was starting to pick up a little in anticipation of rush hour, and we even passed a few people out jogging, most of whom were careful not to attract our attention. A handful nodded and said incomprehensible things presumably meant as pleasant greetings, to which I nodded and remained silent. I felt no particular desire to expose my lack of fluency in the local vernacular.

 

God, I hate that man, Snowflake muttered, pacing along at my side. She was looking around tensely, hackles raised, almost growling. I keep thinking he’s going to send assassins after us or something.

 

Maybe he did, I replied lightly. Do you smell anything odd?

 

Not yet, she grumbled. But let’s get the hell out of Italy before he can.

 

No argument. That alley up there looks like it should work. Snowflake assented, not bothering with such niceties as language, and we ducked into it as we passed. It was an unassuming sort of alley, far enough from the nice neighborhood around Jacques’s place that it smelled of garbage and urine, but not enough that there were bums sleeping in it. Or maybe they’d just gotten up already, who knows.

 

I stood facing the back door of a sporting goods store not yet open for the day’s business, my back to an old department store, while Snowflake kept watch. I took a deep breath and flexed my fingers, preparing for the effort I was about to lay out, and then started gathering power.

 

It was hard, this far into the depths of the city. I am not made for urban environments. That’s a big part of why I wound up in Colorado Springs, actually; it has enough population to blend into easily, but if you stick to the edges you don’t run into the densely populated, metropolitan areas that make up so much of the bigger cities, and you don’t have to travel very far to get to relative wilderness. This was exactly that sort of place that I try to avoid, where the earth is walled away by concrete and plastic, where the rhythms of nature have been all but entirely subsumed into those of the city, where even the foxes are half-domesticated. It was punishingly difficult to gather a substantial amount of magic to myself in such a place.

 

I managed, eventually—or perhaps it would be fairer to say that, eventually, I gave up on the task. It would have to be enough. I let out the breath I’d been unconsciously holding and began to spin it out into a careful, precisely ordered shape.

 

It was hard. This was a high level magic, after all, and I was far from the expert Aiko was at this sort of thing. She was a native, raised on magic; she’d taken in the mysteries of the Otherside with her mother’s milk, and that power was as much a part of her as blood and bone. I, on the other hand, had been able to safely work this particular magic for slightly less than four months. It was far from my comfort zone. Even under ideal circumstances, manipulating pure energy in this way wasn’t exactly my forte.

 

We were lucky that it was so early in the morning. It took me almost twenty minutes of snarling and muttering to myself before I had the shape of the spell outlined, during which time Snowflake had to warn away several people.

 

They went. Posthaste. I’ve found that when Snowflake warns a person away, they usually don’t argue very much.

 

Once I had the outline finished, I let out a sudden rush of power, filling the structure I’d outlined, putting flesh onto the metaphorical bones of the spell. I called out to Snowflake mentally and opened my eyes, blinking a little at the light after so long with my eyes closed.

 

The air in front of me, just over the door, was filled with blackness. Actually, no; that isn’t an accurate description. Blackness implies color—a color defined by the absence of light, but still a color, still something you can see. This was more like a void, a gap in the world where my eyes simply refused to focus. It wasn’t as neat as Aiko could make; where her portals were perfect, smoothly edged circles, this was more like a wavery and elongated oval. It was almost seven feet tall, barely three feet wide, and the borders of the gate were uncertain, flickering back and forth unsteadily. Snowflake, fearless as ever, leapt through the hole in reality almost before it finished forming, and was gone. I followed her, albeit at a somewhat lesser pace.

 

It was hard. Imagine dedicating one portion of your mind to holding, at one time, the entirety of the Iliad in a language you don’t know, while simultaneously performing a gymnastic routine and playing a game of chess against yourself, with both sides earnestly trying to win. That’s probably harder than what I was doing—I don’t really know, given that I’ve never actually tried it—but it’s a decent starting point.

 

But I had been practicing. So, while I staggered a bit, and the bounds of my gate maybe wavered a little more once I started moving, I did move. And, while I all but fell through the portal itself, I did get through.

 

Gates to the Otherside (or, if you want to get technical, the kind of gate that the likes of Aiko and I could make; the major players do it very differently) are never pleasant. I had been somewhat astonished to discover that it’s actually a great deal worse to use your own gate than someone else’s. Not because it’s logically inconsistent—it makes perfect sense. I just hadn’t realized it could get a great deal worse.

 

There’re actually a great many factors determining just how horrific any given gate is, though. It gets worse the more “distance,” measured in a few different ways, there is between your entrance and exit terminals. It gets worse the less stable the gate itself is. It gets worse the more involvement you have with the magic.

 

It should thus be unsurprising that, even relative to other cheap-and-dirty portals, this one sucked. A lot. There was a moment, between stepping in and falling out, in which everything felt bizarrely both stretched and compacted. It wasn’t even a matter of pain—pain and I were practically old buddies, and it takes a heck of a lot of it to really upset me very much. It was more the way I imagined it felt for a fish on dry land—not the suffocation, but the feeling of utter and overwhelming wrongness. It felt like I was intruding somewhere I was not welcome, in a place which was not only inhospitable for but outright inimical to my kind. It didn’t even feel hostile. It was quite simply that I had come to an alien place, a place so foreign to my experience and to my natural habitat that it couldn’t even be accurately described as “place.” It transcended such base notions as space and time.

 

It was only natural that it was an unpleasant experience. It is also only natural that the description of it is beyond the task of simple words. If it had fit into the boundaries of human thought, it wouldn’t have been half so bad.

 

It lasted only an instant, an interval of time almost too small to define—but during that instant time itself seemed to contract to a single point, losing all meaning, until afterward it seemed both to have passed too swiftly to take in and to have taken several eternities.

 

There’re reasons I don’t travel by Otherside without a good reason.

 

As always, I lost time on the other end of the portal. The experience of traveling is simply so horrid, so mind-numbingly wrong that my brain has to shut down and reboot afterward. The next thing I knew, I was lying on the ground, moaning incoherently to myself with my eyes tightly shut, while next to me Snowflake vomited noisily and whimpered in my head.

 

I hate that, she muttered a few moments later, once she’d got her head together enough to string words end to end. I don’t suppose I could convince you to shoot me now and get this over with?

 

Sorry, I said. I’m trying to avoid moving that much. Ask me again in a few minutes, I might feel better. I became aware that I was panting, making little pained sounds on every exhale. The thought had no particular emotional context; it was simply an observation, no more personally important than recognizing that a stranger looked tired. It was, without a doubt, the lingering effect of the magic I’d done to get here. Magic taking more than a second or two of concentration always messed with my head, altering my perception of time and disrupting my emotional reactions.

 

After a couple minutes of pure misery, I felt well enough to open my eyes tentatively. Squinting against the light, I glanced around and saw a few trees and a patch of sky, which was a blue so intense it was almost painful to look upon.

 

I sighed and shoved myself upright. The motion triggered a wave of nausea severe enough that I thought I would join Snowflake in the puking, but I choked it back down after a moment. How do you feel? I asked, standing up. I only swayed on my feet for a few moments.

 

Like shit, but I don’t want you to shoot me. Glass half-full, right?

 

Right, I said firmly, taking advantage of my newly ambulatory position to look around more thoroughly. It was a beautiful day as usual, here in the land of Faerie, and as usual it was subtly, unsettlingly off. Faerie isn’t utterly inhospitable to humans, the way some Otherside domains are—it’s entirely possible to live there for years on end, although there are relatively few people capable of doing so without getting themselves killed horribly, and I don’t think anyone could do it without going utterly batshit insane. It generally obeys the same basic laws as my world, which made it a potentially deadly surprise when it decides not to.

 

I don’t like Faerie. I don’t like anything in the Otherside, but I really don’t like Faerie. It makes me twitchy.

 

Unfortunately for me, it was also huge. Dedicated explorers who spent their whole lives trying to chart it only ever encountered the tiniest fraction. I’ve read a lot of contradictory information about the subject, but the general consensus is that the portion of Faerie known to have been encountered by human mages—and we don’t know what proportion has been kept hidden from us, either—is about as large as the Earth. And yes, I mean the entire Earth.

 

Now remind yourself that, while Faerie is a serious contender for the Largest Otherside Domain title, it’s not alone in that competition. Then remind yourself that it’s one of a literally innumerable quantity of domains—thousands, at the least, but there were likely millions more that were known only to a handful of people, such as the one that held my mansion.

 

That might give you some idea of how big the Otherside is.

 

Anyway, the salient thing here is that Faerie is huge, and relatively “close” to mundane reality, making it easy to get to and from. Because of those reasons, and because it’s relatively harmless, it always tops the list of domains used for traveling. Aiko once took me somewhere that got so many people passing through that it looked like an airport, with people bustling every which way as they hurried by on their way to somewhere else for something which was doubtless terribly important.

 

I didn’t enjoy that field trip, so I went for something a bit more secluded. The particular spot I’d chosen as my connection point was a tiny clearing, well-screened from prying eyes, so far from the beaten path that you’d have to commute to get to the middle of nowhere. I’d never yet run into someone else there.

 

I stretched and looked at Snowflake, who was standing up and shaking herself. You about ready to move on? I asked.

 

She shook herself one more time and then trotted a few feet to my side. Yeah. Where next?

 

I frowned. Well, would you rather do one really miserable trip or two slightly easier ones?

 

One, she said firmly. Let’s get this over with quickly.

 

Agreed, I replied, turning to the border between trees and grass. The magic of opening a door from Here to There is easier, for complicated reasons as much to do with psychology and mental perceptions as actual magic, in liminal areas, places where one thing becomes another. I took a deep breath and started gathering power to myself again. It was a lot easier here. It was more my sort of place, for one thing, as far from metropolitan as a place can be. It was always daybreak here, for another, and I’m stronger in times of dawn and dusk—like many predators, werewolves are crepuscular by preference, although they’re mostly too integrated with modern society to act on that preference.

 

And it was the Otherside. Magic is always easier there.

 

Of course, that didn’t make the working itself any less demanding. So, while I didn’t have to work as hard, it still took another fifteen or so minutes to get the shape just right—it wasn’t the kind of thing you wanted to cut corners on. Eventually I managed it, and another oval of nothingness manifested itself in the air in front of me, as I tore a hole in the fabric of reality. This one led to an alley not far from Val’s shop—a rather different location from where we were leaving, which would make this gate almost as unpleasant as the last one.

 

There was nothing for it but to get it done quickly, though. So we stepped through quickly, endured the momentary hammer blow of existential horror, and started the recovery process. This time it was my turn to hurl. I wasn’t conscious for most of it, at least; that was something. Snowflake, who recovered more quickly than me this time around, stood guard while I got myself together, and then we took off down the street together. We’d taken long enough traveling that it was now verging on sunset. I was starting to feel pretty exhausted, and I was really looking forward to a hot shower and a good night’s rest before my early-morning meeting with Brick.

 

We went a little out of our way to pick up some Chinese takeout and a take-and-bake pizza, because I really didn’t feel like cooking and it seemed unfair to ask Aiko to, given that she’d opened more portals than I had today. It smelled pretty good for instant food, and my mouth was watering pretty well by the time we made it to the front door.

 

Which is why it is entirely natural that my cell phone rang just as I started to turn the doorknob.

 

I really, really wanted to ignore it. I was tired, hungry, and really wanted to call it a day. But that is not a responsible attitude, and while I might be irresponsible by preference, at the moment there were more lives depending on my actions than just mine. So I sighed in a long-suffering manner and answered the thing. “Hello?”

 

“Winter,” Alexis said, an unmistakable note of relief in her voice. “Where are you?”

 

“What’s up?” I asked, not answering her question.

 

She didn’t seem to notice. “I just saw…well, I know this sounds crazy, but I think somebody’s trying to kill me.”

 

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As it turned out, road construction meant that I had to drive faster than was entirely safe on the latter half of the journey to get there on time. Snowflake, of course, loved it, hanging her head out the window and urging me to speed up.

 

But we made it without incident, and pulled into the parking lot with ninety-one seconds to spare. The restaurant, a fancy Italian place in the vicinity of the Broadmoor, was just opening for lunch, and the lot was almost empty. My car still stood out pretty starkly against the sports cars and luxury vehicles more common in the area. I only saw one automobile older than mine, and it was a beautiful vintage car from the 1950’s.

 

I’m sure not all the people going to that restaurant drive nice cars—if nothing else, they had to have a dishwasher, and I doubt he made much more money than I used to as a woodworker. But he apparently had to park somewhere else.

 

I walked through the heavy double doors and was immediately enveloped by the smells of money, class, and olive oil. This wasn’t exactly my normal sort of venue. The lighting was subdued, classical music played quietly in the background, and there were red tablecloths and napkins on all the tables.

 

Fabric tablecloths. For lunch. Sheesh.

 

The host, unless maybe I was supposed to call him a maitre d’—since, you know, classy and everything—took one look at my ensemble and looked like he couldn’t decide whether I was allowed inside or not. I looked just suspicious enough that he wanted to throw me out on principle, but I was just ostentatious enough about my relative wealth that he wasn’t sure he was allowed to.

 

Snowflake was waiting outside with the car. We weren’t even going to try to convince them to let a dog in here.

 

I relied on my usual tactic for such things. I nodded at the host (because seriously, I couldn’t say maitre d’ without cracking up) politely and walked in like I owned the place. I’ve often been amazed at the places a confident stride can get you, and this was no exception. The man wilted in the face of my evident assurance and didn’t challenge me, although his reservations with that were clearly apparent.

 

It wasn’t hard to find the person Anna had called me about. It wasn’t like the place was crowded. Plus he waved me over the second I hit the dining room. That helped a lot.

 

I made my cautious way over. His table was against the wall, and he was sitting alone with his back to the window. He couldn’t see the door, either. That made him an arrogant and careless man.

 

Unless, of course, he was simply so powerful that he didn’t have to worry about such things. I was afraid that might be the case.

 

The large empty space around his table might have been coincidence, I suppose. But I didn’t think so. There was something about him, some indefinable quality, that made me want to stay away from him, and I suspected that everyone else felt the same thing. Oh, they wouldn’t acknowledge it—in my experience, people are very good at coming up with excuses to cover the real reason for their behavior, when they don’t want to face it. It would still influence their actions.

 

But the first rule of dealing with supernatural nasties is that you never, ever let them see you flinch. At best, it tells them that they can walk all over you. At worst, well, there’s a certain amount of truth to what they say about predators smelling fear and attacking weakness. Telling a supernatural predator that you’re weak and scared is tantamount to telling it you’re delicious and nutritious, and that’s a great way to wind up dead.

 

So I swaggered right over and sat down across from him. He didn’t say anything for several moments, giving me plenty of time to examine him. It did very little to reassure me.

 

On the surface, there seemed little reason for the reaction he caused in people. He was impeccably dressed in an extremely expensive suit. The fur-lined coat seemed excessive for the weather, but not ridiculously so. Given that he looked so very Native American you would expect dark eyes to match the hair, but his were yellow.

 

I don’t mean a sort of brown. I don’t even mean amber, like my eyes, or gold, such as Fenris usually sported. His eyes were yellow, vivid yellow like no human eyes are supposed to be, making me think of a reptile. I expect most people thought they were contact lenses. I suspected otherwise.

 

You’d think that would spook me somewhat, and you would be right. But what really got me going was his scent. He smelled of magic, strong enough to make my nostrils burn and my throat itch, and he smelled wrong. His magic reeked of death and decay, rotting flesh and soured milk, like a charnel house or a landfill on a hot day.

 

People whose magic smells unpleasant to me tend to be dangerous, nasty, and just generally unpleasant people to be around. Given that this man—if it was a man; I got nothing of the usual, disinfectant-like tone of human magic—smelled worse than any magic I’d ever encountered before, and stronger than most, I didn’t think I wanted anything to do with him.

 

I had no doubt, at this point, that people were avoiding him for a reason. That aura was so strong that anyone, even an ordinary human being that hadn’t believed in magic for ninety years, would pick up on it, and so unpleasant that I couldn’t imagine anyone wanting to be around it. The amazing thing wasn’t that the tables around him were conspicuously empty. It was that there were still people in the same frigging building.

 

In the interest of getting away from this thing as fast as possible, I decided to speak first. “What do you want?” I said. Well. Growled, really, but the words were intelligible. That’s what matters, right?

 

He leaned back and laughed. It didn’t sound nearly as evil or cackle-like as it seemed like it ought to. He took a sip of water, which was the only thing on the table, shook his head, and laughed some more.

 

I waited for a moment. “Okay,” I said finally. “Glad to have that over. Goodbye, don’t call, don’t visit.” I started to stand.

 

He waved one hand, somehow conveying apology in the gesture. “My apologies,” he said. His voice was surprisingly deep, and although it sounded perfectly normal there was still some quality about it that made me want to shudder. “It’s only that, for a moment, you sounded very much like your mother.”

 

Now I did shudder. “Oh great,” I said. “Don’t tell me how you knew her, I don’t want to know. Please.”

 

He chuckled again. “Don’t worry,” he said in what was probably meant to be a reassuring tone. Actually, it probably was a reassuring tone; it was just that my perception of his magic was twisting my opinion of him. Not that I had any intention of discounting that perception. “I’ve no desire to share that particular story with you. No, I simply thought that we should talk.”

 

I glared at him, being careful not to meet those unwholesome yellow eyes—there are too many things that can do too much to you that way, given the chance. “Then talk. And make it fast; I’ve got things to do.”

 

He smiled, showing very white and even teeth. “As you will. Have you considered leaving town for a time? Take a vacation, perhaps?”

 

“No,” I said flatly.

 

“You should,” he said earnestly.

 

“Why?”

 

“The war is heating up,” he told me, sounding calm and sincere. “I expect that this will be a rather violent location for some while. It would be safer for you to relocate for a time.”

 

“Wait, what war? What are you talking about?”

 

He made an impatient sound. “It isn’t complicated, Wolf. Until recently the werewolves owned this territory. There were others here, but everyone knew that the wolves were dominant, the strongest force present. But now they’re gone, and given that this is quite a desirable territory it will be no simple matter for another to establish himself in their place.”

 

“You’re saying there’s a supernatural turf war going on in the city.”

 

“Crude, but not without accuracy.”

 

I thought for a moment. I didn’t know a lot about the larger political scene, because mostly I try to keep out of politics. That’s a good way to get killed posthaste. But what he said seemed reasonable, which immediately presented another question. “Why tell me about it?”

 

He shrugged. “Your mother impressed me somewhat, which is rare. It seemed no great difficulty. And I try to stay on the Khan’s good side, in any case.”

 

I’m not sure why, but it wasn’t until he mentioned Conn that I realized what this man had to be. “Considering that you’re a skinwalker,” I murmured, “you’ll have to forgive me if I have a certain amount of doubt regarding your goodwill and kindly nature.”

 

He smiled broadly, and didn’t deny it. “Think on what I’ve said, Mr. Wolf. That’s all I ask.” He stood up and left without another word.

 

A few moments after he left (I didn’t hear a car start outside, which meant very little if I was right about what he was) Anna came out of the kitchen and sat down. She probably wasn’t supposed to, but given that she was the head chef, or kitchenmeister, or whatever you’re supposed to call it at a fancy restaurant, she could get away with a lot. She used a different chair than he had, but that one might have been coincidence. “Was it a werewolf?” she asked me, quietly enough not to be heard.

 

“No,” I muttered back. “Something worse.” I glowered vaguely at nothing in particular. “Much worse.”

 

She nodded, as though unsurprised. “I kind of thought so. Werewolves don’t put my back up like that. Do you want something to eat, since you’re here anyway? My treat.”

 

I glanced at the time and sighed. “I’d love to, but I can’t. I have another meeting to get to.” Hopefully this one would be more pleasant. Surely Alexis couldn’t be worse than a skinwalker, right? Right? Anybody?

 

It is, perhaps, a sign of how distracted I was that it didn’t occur to me until Snowflake and I were halfway to the next destination to wonder: since when had Anna spent enough time around enough werewolves to know what they felt like? The way she’d said it sure made it sound like she’d known more than just me and Enrico.

 

Another thing to look into when I had a moment. Considering how short the list was this time yesterday, it seemed entirely unfair that it was now enormous.


 

It was a near thing, but I managed to be early to lunch with Alexis. I ambled inside, once again leaving Snowflake at the door, and started looking for the ambush. It was already pretty crowded here, and you’d be insane to try something in such a public location, but people have done crazy things before. The fact that all sorts of people would come down hard on the assassin would be of little comfort to my corpse.

 

Fortunately for me, I’d chosen this venue with just that in mind. It was the sort of place where you ordered and paid when you walked in, chose a table, and picked up your own food when it was ready. There were always people moving around—going to get food, ordering drinks, hitting the salad bar—and when the lunch rush hit it was crowded enough that one guy could easily blend in.

 

It took me a few minutes, but I eventually found where she was sitting, a corner booth on the upper level. It had been five years since I’d seen my cousin last, but you don’t necessarily look very much different from sixteen to twenty-one. Alexis didn’t; I was easily able to recognize her long raven’s-wing black hair, dark eyes, and serious expression. She was dressed in a long-sleeved shirt and jeans, both black. She used to have a fondness for cheap, dangly jewelry, but she wasn’t wearing any now. No visible scars or tattoos, which wasn’t saying much considering how little visible skin there was. She didn’t seem to be carrying any weapons, and I didn’t see any obvious thugs with her. That didn’t mean much, of course; a decent professional killer can blend in better than I can, even without the aid of magic. But it was at least slightly reassuring.

 

I’m pretty sure she didn’t notice me while I examined her. I was standing in a shadowy corner most of the way across the room, and my cloak is very good at blending into the shadows. It ought to be, considering they’re what I made it out of. It wasn’t invisibility, but it was pretty close.

 

Even after doing that, and making a fairly thorough sweep of the restaurant checking for obvious threats or strong magical signatures, I was only a minute or two late for lunch. Impolite, perhaps, but not unforgivably so. I slipped back to the entrance, pulled my hood back (I’m pretty sure nobody noticed that it melted back into the coat afterward), and walked back in.

 

I made a show of looking around even before I was in the right area, just in case Alexis had some way of keeping the restaurant under observation or somebody else was watching. Once I was closer, I waited for her to wave me over before sauntering in that direction. I sat down in the hard-backed chair across from her rather than in the booth, just in case I needed to move quickly, and conveyed to Snowflake where we were. A few moments later I saw a flash of white fur in the parking lot just outside the window I was looking out, and knew she was ready to back me up if necessary. I could bash the window out quite quickly, and once it was out of the way she could be inside in seconds. And yes, that meant she could jump through a second-story window from the ground. She’s good like that.

 

“Hey, Winter,” Alexis said, her voice surprisingly warm. “You look…good.” By which, I suppose, she meant that I looked younger than her, and she wasn’t sure how.

 

“Hello, Alexis,” I replied. “What brings you to Colorado?”

 

She paused, apparently taken aback at how abrupt I was being. It probably would have been more polite to take some time for niceties and meaningless small talk, but I was busy. Besides, I’ve just never been that inclined to small talk. I mean, what’s the point?

 

“Well,” she said finally, “actually, I came to talk to you.”

 

Of course she had.

 

“I sort of have a problem.”

 

Of course she did. Because clearly I didn’t have enough to do already.

 

“Why me?” I asked, making an effort not to sound accusatory or complaining. “Oregon to Colorado’s a pretty long drive just to talk.”

 

There was another long pause, and when Alexis did speak she sounded oddly hesitant, as though now that she were here she wasn’t sure she should have come either. “I remember,” she said slowly, “that mom always told us not to trust you—she said you were crazy, that you might believe what you were saying but it was all just craziness. But you never seemed that crazy to me. And some of the things I’ve seen you do…well, I can’t explain it.”

 

Realization dawned. “And you think there’s something like that going on in your life? Something you can’t explain?”

 

She opened her mouth as though to answer, then paused. “Let me go get drinks,” she said instead, standing. “You still like iced tea, right?” I nodded, and she walked off.

 

A few minutes later she came back, carrying a tray with a sort of casual grace that made me think she might have spent some time doing it professionally. As she got closer I saw that there were actually three glasses on it—one of iced tea, one of soda (probably root beer, unless her tastes had changed dramatically), and one large glass full of crushed ice and nothing else.

 

“What’s with the ice?” I asked, as she set the tea in front of me and took the other two. I took a sip—only a small one, in case it was poisoned. Werewolves are resistant enough to poison that if she wanted to kill me with that small of a drink she’d have to use enough to alter the taste, so I should be safe. If I didn’t feel any different in a few minutes I could chance drinking some more.

 

Rather than answer me directly, she took a small drink of root beer (that was what it was, too, I could smell it). Then she shoved her hand into the other glass and withdrew a handful of ice. The cold didn’t seem to bother her.

 

I don’t mean that she was masking the discomfort. It quite simply didn’t look uncomfortable. After a few moments, she opened her hand to show me the ice.

 

It wasn’t melting. Not even a little.

 

Now, that was fairly unusual. If you grab a chunk of ice, the heat of your body is enough to start it melting. It was conceivable, I suppose, that the ice was simply so cold that it wouldn’t—but not very likely, and if it were that cold you couldn’t grab it like that without some discomfort.

 

It was at about that time I noticed something else. My nose, inundated as it was with the smells of Italian cooking, wasn’t working at quite optimum levels—but, however I perceived it, detecting magic wasn’t actually related to my sense of smell at all. As such, I could quite clearly smell the magic of everyone nearby. Everyone in the restaurant had smelled to me of disinfectant, and not terribly strongly, which was what I associated with an entirely normal human being. Alexis was no exception.

 

Now that I thought to look for it, though, there was something else there. It was a delicate smell, soft and subtle as the sound of snowfall on cedars. It flickered and danced at the very edge of perception like windblown leaves tumbling down the road. It was cold and sharp and delicate, and while I realize that this isn’t a very good description it is, nevertheless, the best I can do.

 

It’s no wonder I didn’t notice it before. This scent belonged to a magic of smooth snow and glittering ice. It wasn’t meant to be noticeable.

 

It was also, if you were to squint your metaphorical eyes and look at it through a warped pane of glass upside-down, very familiar. It ought to be. It was the same as my magic smelled—and it was in no way human. Not at all.

 

Alexis dumped the ice back into the cup and looked at me expectantly. I inhaled sharply, and nodded as I let it out. “Yeah,” I said. “I think I understand.”

 

“So what now?”

 

“Now,” I said, feeling rather tired although it was still fairly early in the day, “we get some food. I’m starving.”

 

Several minutes later, a large bowl of salad and a very large pizza arranged on the table, the conversation resumed. “So do you know what’s going on?” my cousin asked me, sounding eager. I couldn’t really blame her; it tends to be rather upsetting when something you didn’t think existed starts intruding on your life.

 

“Maybe,” I said, “but I’m still struggling to wrap my head around it.” I took a large bite of pepperoni-and-mushroom goodness and spent a moment chewing. “How long’s this been going on?”

 

“Almost a year. At first I thought I was just imagining it, but, well.” She shrugged eloquently. “What’s it mean?”

 

I frowned. “I dunno. I’m pretty sure it means you inherited something weird.”

 

“Do you know what?” she pressed.

 

My frown deepened. “I have a few guesses, but they’re all based on my father being whom I got it from. If it actually came from my mother’s side, that changes things.

 

“Wait, you mean you can do this?”

 

I snorted and dipped one finger into my tea. I reached for the part of my mind that I associated with that cold, quietly savage magic, and twisted a small amount of power into the appropriate shape as I dragged my finger across the table. It left a trail of frost behind it, where the water in the tea had frozen at my will.

 

“Oh.”

 

“If you didn’t know that,” I asked, wiping away the frost, “why come here?”

 

She flushed—only slightly, but her skin was pale enough to show it all the same. “I always just assumed you were a werewolf.” She paused. “Wait, this doesn’t mean that I’m a werewolf, does it?”

 

I snorted again. “Yes, I am, and no, you’re not.” A werewolf’s magic is very distinctive and very recognizable, and I have a ton of practice at recognizing it. Alexis definitely didn’t have any tones of werewolf in her scent. “I’m not entirely sure what you are. But given that it would have to be at least two generations back for both of our mothers to get it, I’d wager you’re three-quarters human.”

 

“Oh.” She thought about that for a moment. “What’s it mean?”

 

I shrugged. “Dunno. I mean, I’m such a mongrel we can’t really use me as a baseline.” I frowned. “If I had to guess, I’d say it mostly means that you’ll have an affinity for cold. It’ll take a lot of it to hurt you. The area around you will probably get cold when you’re stressed.” I shrugged again. “It might also make you stronger, or let you live forever. I really don’t know.”

 

Realization dawned in her eyes. “That’s why you look so young.”

 

I cleared my throat. “Actually, that probably has more to do with the werewolf part.”

 

“Oh. So…why doesn’t my mother have any of this going on?”

 

“Dunno.”

 

“You don’t know much, do you?” she said sharply.

 

“And you do?”

 

“Fair point,” she said after a moment.

 

“So what’ll you do now?” I asked.

 

Alexis shrugged. “I’m not sure. This seems like something I ought to know more about.”

 

“Probably,” I agreed. “You might have a hard time finding things out, though. I’ll be looking into it, and I’d be happy to share anything I happen to find with you.”

 

There was a very long pause. I didn’t object, because it gave me time to stuff my face. “This stuff,” she said after a moment. “It’s dangerous, isn’t it?”

 

I didn’t see much point in lying. “It could be. Your blood could make you some pretty scary enemies, especially now that you’ve started…I don’t know, waking it up or whatever. Not to mention that there are people who’d be happy to kill you just because you’re my cousin.”

 

“Wait, what? Why would somebody kill me for being your cousin?”

 

I sighed. “Because I have a talent for stumbling into hornet nests and my sense of self-preservation is less functional than my appendix. I’ve pissed off a number of unpleasantly powerful people, and some of them would love to take a hit at someone because they know me. We’ve never been that close, Alexis, so it hasn’t been worth their while, but if they think that’s changing it could be pretty bad for you.”

 

She laughed. “Oh, come on, Winter. You sound like the private eye in a bad gangster movie.”

 

I frowned. “Actually, I’m on good terms with the only gangster I know. But other than that you’re not all that far off, honestly. These things are cliché for a reason. And we’re talking about, like, the original bad guys, here.”

 

She was silent for a moment, studying my face. Apparently whatever she saw there convinced her that I was serious, because she went pale and looked away. “You mean people like us, don’t you? People who are….” She trailed off, clearly not sure how to finish the thought.

 

“Supernatural?” I suggested. “Unnatural? Preternatural? Otherworldly? Spooky?”

 

“Let’s stick with spooky,” she said dryly.

 

I chuckled, as did Snowflake (absent doesn’t have to mean ignorant, when you share a mental connection). “Fair enough. And yes, I am.” I thought of Frishberg, who most definitely wasn’t my friend however chummy she could act, and frowned. “Although, in all fairness, that sort of thing isn’t below your standard-issue human either. There are all sorts of bad people out there.”

 

There was another moment of quiet. “It seems to me,” Alexis said, slowly and quietly, “that I don’t have a lot of choice about belonging to that world.”

 

I shrugged. “Maybe. Maybe not. Like I said, I don’t really know what you—we—inherited along those lines. But yeah, if it’s much like any of the other supernatural influences I’ve encountered it’ll make it pretty hard for you to blend in with ordinary society. Most people with a weird ability like that wind up migrating to the community over time, if only so they have someone to talk to that doesn’t think they’re insane.”

 

“What do you mean ‘the community?'”

 

I shrugged. “It’s…I don’t know, the community. You get some loner werewolves, some mages. A handful of changelings, a few people like you with weird blood in their family tree. I once met a guy who’s descended from Zeus, around fifty generations back. Then there are a couple people who’re totally normal but happen to be involved for some reason.” I shrugged again. “We aren’t friends, generally speaking, but…well, we have to look out for each other, don’t we? Nobody else will.”

 

“Huh,” she said thoughtfully. A moment later, “If I’m going to be involved in this stuff regardless, seems like I oughta know something about this. Like, know who I’m dealing with and stuff, right?”

 

“That’s your choice,” I said calmly. “But sure, sounds pretty reasonable. I can show you around some right now if you want, introduce you to a few people.”

 

She opened her mouth, then paused and glanced around. When she did speak, her tone was almost embarrassed, and she was holding her shoulders stiffly, almost as though she were anticipating a blow. “I’m sorry, I can’t. Maybe tomorrow?”

 

Nothing unusual in that request, particularly—but her posture made it suspicious. “What’s so pressing?” I asked, voice carefully light and casual, as though I couldn’t care less what the answer was. “You meeting your boyfriend for coffee or something?”

 

She flushed again, and refused to meet my eyes. “No, it’s not that, it’s just that I’ve…got something I have to do.” She looked at her phone. “Oh, shit, I’m late. I shouldn’t have stayed here so long. I’m sorry, Winter, I have to go.” She stood up and all but bolted for the door.

 

Well, that was fun.

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A reasonably short time later, I walked in the door to our…house, I suppose.

 

It’s a big house. Too big, in some ways; there were times I felt like a pebble rattling around in a container meant for a boulder. The place was just so big, so expensive, so luxurious…it was too much of too much. Houses like that weren’t made for the likes of me.

 

In spite of that, there was no difficulty guessing where Aiko was. I just had to follow the noise.

 

Currently, she was in the kitchen. The crashing of pots and pans didn’t quite cover up the sound of a German children’s song about a baby crocodile biting everything in sight, in infuriatingly high pitches and simple words.

 

I’m not sure which is worse—that Aiko listens to that, or that it was actually one of the top songs in Germany for a long while. And, for that matter, most of Europe. Including countries that don’t even speak German.

 

Snowflake and I walked straight through the throne room that was also the domain’s only hardwired connection to the outside world. Towards the back of the room, tucked unobtrusively away, was a simple door. It was made of walnut and covered in subtle, intricate carving, and the ornate handle was solid brass—but then, every door in this house looked more or less like that. It wasn’t like it was especially fancy or anything.

 

I opened the door, causing the music to become significantly louder, and Snowflake and I slipped quietly inside. Aiko knew we were there, of course—the music might cover any sounds we made, but a kitsune would certainly smell us—but she didn’t give any sign of recognition as we walked in and sat at the long hardwood table along the back wall. Well, I sat, anyway; Snowflake promptly flopped down across my feet. Urged on by her mental prodding, I leaned over and undid her collar, setting it and her eyepatch du jour on the table.

 

A moment later, “Das kleine Krokodil” segued into the next song. She must have been on something of a German kick, because it was a medieval-metal band—In Extremo, I thought, although it might have been Cultus Ferox, or maybe even Subway to Sally. I didn’t know enough German to understand any of them, so I had a hard time telling them apart.

 

She placed what looked like a tray of brownies into the oven with, perhaps, a little more force than was strictly required, slammed the door shut, and turned to face us with a broad smile. I found that somewhat unsettling—Aiko smiling and food preparation are a potentially dangerous combination, after all—which was probably the point. “Hey,” she said. “Anybody try to kill you?”

 

“Yeah, actually, but they did a piss-poor job. You poisoned those, didn’t you?”

 

“Now, Winter,” she said disingenuously. “Would I do a thing like that to you?”

 

I thought for a moment. “Yes,” I concluded, “given that you’ve tried to poison or drug me fifteen times this month, I think you might.”

 

She sniffed. “Please. You forgot the one with the sumac extract in your sock drawer.”

 

“Oh, you’re right. Sorry, sixteen times.”

 

And that was Aiko in a nutshell.


 

I thought that I might want to be prepared for something bad to happen the next day.

 

I mean, gosh, right? What an incredible display of acumen and foresight.

 

I’d explained last night the situation as it stood, and Aiko wasn’t surprised that my first stop the next morning was the armory. She was pissed as hell that she had to stay at home (she had some choice words about that the first time, in four languages and involving a number of obscene gestures as well), but she knew as well as anyone that leaving the Otherside was an exceedingly unwise thing for her to do.

 

Her fellow kitsune considered that a fairly lenient penalty for the time she gave me a hand with a dangerous situation she really shouldn’t have. If she violated the terms of that pseudo-house arrest, they might not be so inclined to go easy on her. And, while I didn’t know that much about how kitsune did it—Aiko never talked about her people, literally—most of the time justice in the supernatural world is both very quick and very final.

 

It was a shame, too, because I would have really liked to have her with me. She was young—less than sixty years old, which was barely adolescent for her kind—but she was also clever, dangerous, and easy to underestimate. I’ve gone into a number of scary places with her, and having seen her in action I would most definitely rather have her on my side than the other guy’s. Aside from Snowflake there’s no one I would rather have watching my back.

 

As that wasn’t an option, I went with heavy armament instead. My shotgun and pistol both fit under the cloak without showing anything suspicious, while the pockets were filled with stored spells and a couple grenades, plus extra ammo. Tyrfing would come when I called, regardless of distance, but I went ahead and grabbed a few sharp implements, just in case. A smattering of things that might be useful in various magical endeavors—chalk and ink, sand and ash, string, a bag of salt and a bag of stones, a small vial of pure rainwater, that sort of thing—rounded out my personal arsenal.

 

Snowflake, who was planning on coming with me, was also armed to the teeth, although she didn’t look it quite so obviously. Her gear was in the closet, too, rather than the armory. So mostly she just sat and watched while I grabbed all this stuff, and then glanced in the mirror to make sure nothing overtly illegal was showing.

 

I forget, sometimes, just how frigging scary we look. I mean, I look like a juvenile delinquent at the best of times, but this was something else. The long grey-black coat was one thing, but you could clearly see a pair of very expensive black jeans under it, and my black leather boots were custom-tailored. Between that and the half-dozen rings, I looked a lot more wealthy than the average delinquent, and that wealth was a lot more understated. So the overall effect was probably more gangster.

 

The closets came full-packed when we got the house, of course. At least I wasn’t wearing any silk or velvet.

 

In spite of that, Snowflake was a long ways my better. It’s hard to look terrifying when you’re a husky—the blue eyes, white-and-black fur, and general dogginess are a bit too cute—but she pulled it off. The eyepatch she’d chosen for the day was simple black leather marked with the fishhook-esque shape of an eihwaz rune—representative of a long e sound, or a yew tree. Given that yew was an excellent wood for weapons, and also somewhat poisonous, it was a…rather ominous emblem, to say the least.

 

Most people wouldn’t recognize that, of course. But her ears were pierced in a dozen or so places, with metal rings or bits of wood, and a leather cord woven through several of the holes. Her collar was similarly imposing, a heavy band of leather set with a bunch of heavy spikes and bits of bone. It didn’t take a genius to get the message there.

 

People get nervous when they see us coming, these days. Sometimes they even get scared. A number of people cross themselves at the sight of me, and even in Pryce’s when I walk in some folks walk out.

 

That bothers me a little, some days. But, in all fairness, not having to deal with petty troublemakers is well worth it. Plus, nobody crowds us!

 

I sighed, gave up on cheering myself, and walked into the next room over.

 

The laboratory was, oddly, a less friendly and pleasant room than the armory. The armory was as much for show as use, and as a result was designed to look good. The weapon racks were all polished ebony, with bronze fittings. The knives nestled into thick green velvet, and there were a handful of actual glass display cases. The lighting, cast by some sort of enchanted ceiling panel, was a warm orange.

 

The lab wasn’t nearly as welcoming. Rather than wood paneling, the room was essentially a marble cube, complete with drains in the floor. The lighting was classic fluorescent-blue, casting everything into sharp relief—no soft shadows here. The furniture, although also made of fine hardwood and marble, was much more angular, more functional. The armory was a place of comfort, but the lab was very much a place of function. It brooked no nonsense.

 

The effect was somewhat spoiled by the crepe paper and tinsel Aiko had draped around, trying to cheer the place up—but only somewhat. You really had to hand it to the lab—it takes a special sort of room to feel grim and brooding when it looks like Christmas came early.

 

Alexander’s lab, although a little smaller, was still better stocked. But I’d gotten a fairly impressive stash of reagents and components together, enough to perform a really quite remarkable array of enchantments, rituals, and invocations. That was why I was here now.

 

I grabbed a few things off the shelves, while Snowflake sat and waited near the door. She doesn’t much like ritual magic. I can’t blame her, because I don’t either—it’s exacting, requiring intense concentration and extreme precision, and it also tends to be rather dangerous. Mess up while performing quick-and-dirty magic like I’d used on the construct, or even most enchantments, and the spell fizzles. Mess up a prolonged ritual and it explodes.

 

In all fairness, though, this was actually an extremely safe ritual to perform. I hesitate to call it a ritual at all, really; I used a ritual setup, because I wanted to be sure and this wasn’t something I was very practiced at, but someone with a talent for this sort of magic could have achieved the same effect with little more than a word and a gesture.

 

I wasn’t one of those people, though. So instead I took my double handful of components over to the summoning circle inlaid in the floor.

 

There are all kinds of summoning circle out there. Some people use a half-dozen layers of runes and sigils, each a perfect and concentric circle, complete with candles, incense, jewels—the works. Other people, who don’t feel the need to show off or just don’t have the cash, pour out some sand or salt in a vaguely circular way. For most purposes, it doesn’t make nearly the difference newbies usually think it does.

 

Mine was on the simple end of things, a ring of pure steel perhaps eight or nine feet across—I did not feel any great desire to go summoning things that couldn’t fit inside that circle. The space inside it was pristine white marble, unmarked in any way.

 

At the four points of the compass (there was no magnetic or geographic north in the Otherside, so I’d just settled on one of the walls of the laboratory as “north” and gone from there), I set out the foci I was using for this summoning. Inside of the circle I placed simple things with a clear association to the entity I was trying to call—a hawk’s feather, a small windchime, a painted fan, and a bit of dandelion fluff. Outside, evenly spaced between those, I placed four small white candles, and lit them—with a match, rather than magic. I’m really not good at fire magic. Then I sat down a few feet away and started working.

 

The first step was pouring a small jar of sand out in a circle around myself, exerting a slight effort of will as I did to charge it with magic. This was a delicate task, at least for me, and I didn’t want a stray current of energy interfering with what I was doing at a critical moment.

 

Once that was done, and both circles were humming with just the littlest bit of magic, I got to the real work. I closed my eyes, sat very still, and started concentrating—not on words, or numbers, but on a certain feeling.

 

Imagine the delicate brush of a spring breeze through the branches. Picture, in exquisite detail, the rush of the wind through your fur. Visualize the patterns autumn leaves make blowing down the streets. Conceptualize the feeling of running free, all bonds broken and fetters burst. Wrap all those images up into a single whole, remove the words until all that’s left is a feeling, and you will have started to touch on the shape of my summoning, the bare bones waiting for something to fill them.

 

There were no words. There couldn’t be. The being I was trying to contact had no understanding, no concept of words. It had to be all feeling, instinct, impulse; logic, reason, those things would get in the way.

 

It was hard. I mean, as much as this might surprise some people, I tend to be a pretty careful guy, right? I might tend to the rash occasionally, or not reck as much as perhaps I should to danger, but I’m not careless or, typically, impulsive. This type of thinking was far out of my scope. Between that and my lack of skill with summoning in general, it probably took the better part of twenty minutes for me to shape the magic just right. I’m not quite sure, because any exercise in magic skews your perspective and dislocates your sense of time, but it was a while.

 

Finally, when I felt that I had the idea as close to perfect as I could, I let the circle around myself drop and let the magic out with a breath. No name—beings such as this don’t understand even the basic idea of names—just my breath slipping out, brushing over the sand before passing out into the world.

 

Nine of my heartbeats later, there was a presence in the summoning circle—invisible, intangible, but definitely there all the same. I immediately pushed more power into the circle, making it into a barrier. It wouldn’t stop the creature from escaping—very little could do that—but it would prevent it from doing so unconsciously. I reached out, crossing the circle easily, and gently touched the magic of the newcomer.

 

It smelled like early morning air and brushed across my skin like a gentle breeze fresh off the sea. It spoke, directly into my mind, saying recognition, greeting, acknowledgment, query.

 

There were no words. There couldn’t be.

 

I replied in the same manner, all basic concepts, emotions and images. I concentrated on my image of Brick, much as I had on the air spirit itself, the look of him, the exact way his magic smelled. I enquired, very delicately, as to whether it might find him for me, and tell him that I wanted to talk. There was a moment of hesitation, then another burst of recognition, then agreement. Something that was just a little bit more than a passing breeze brushed against my cloak, having slipped through the circle without even realizing it was there, and then the lab was empty again.

 

It was even odds whether it would do so, of course. I was on good terms with the air spirits—mostly because I was on good terms with Aiko, and she makes a point of maintaining friendly relations with them—but, well, they were still air spirits. That meant flighty, forgetful, inattentive, and careless. There was a very good possibility that it would forget where it was going. On the other hand, it could slip between the Otherside and the real world without any more thought than it had given to my circle, it could pass through practically any magical defenses, and there was no wall ever made that could keep out a determined air spirit.

 

As spies go, their poor memory and inattentiveness are too critical of weaknesses to be worth it. As messengers, well, I’ve seen worse.

 

I could have just called Jimmy, of course. But we’ve never gotten along all that great, because he’s an arrogant asshole and a coward to boot, and I have a crippling inability to refrain from pointing it out when he acts like it. Brick and I weren’t too great of friends either—he was too reserved, and I knew too much of his history—but I’d much, much rather get the story from him than Jimmy. Brick I might believe.

 

Even better, he just might tell me the truth.

 

I had other ways available to me of finding a person, ways which were more difficult to confound. But, by and large, they were difficult, expensive, or incredibly rude. I could progress to those if I had too, but I thought I’d give this a try first. If I didn’t get a response of some sort, I could always move on to the harder-core efforts later.

 

It would probably take the air spirit at least a few hours to find Brick, though, and once it did it might take him a while to get back to me. So I figured I had plenty of time to go try other avenues of finding out just what the heck was up among the Inquisition. I hadn’t forgotten the construct, and it didn’t seem nearly as amusing now as it had last night. I mocked them, behind their backs, but the truth is that the Inquisition scared me a little. I mean, they were magic-wielding fanatics, most of whom had dark secrets, all of whom had abilities I couldn’t readily counter. I’d have to be a moron not to be a little bit scared by that.

 

Especially now that, from everything I’d heard, the bonds holding them together were coming apart like old newspaper in a monsoon. Given how impressive I’d arranged for most of them to think I was, if they started going at each other both sides would make a priority of recruiting me, and a secondary objective of killing me so the other team couldn’t recruit me.

 

I didn’t think I had to worry about an attack at home, at least. I might not be comfortable living in an Otherside mansion granted by the Fenris Wolf, but it did have one upside over my old cabin—nobody who was less than a god was likely to be able to launch a serious offensive on it.

 

And if somebody tried, well….good luck. I take my paranoia seriously, and Aiko’s sense of humor is somewhat sadistic. If you attack my house, the biggest problem the police are going to have will most likely be finding enough of you to identify the body.

 

I figured I’d better take advantage of that peace and quiet while I could, so I took my time cleaning up after the summoning ritual. One of the things Alexander had drilled into my head over and over and over again was that, no matter how busy you were, you kept the lab neat. When you’re working with some of the stuff I kept in my lab, even a small mistake is lethal.

 

Besides. You never know when you’re going to need a circle on short notice. I’d be a fool not to keep mine ready to go, and that meant keeping it clean.

 

Snowflake sat patiently by the door while I swept up the sand and threw it out, returning the various props I’d used to their various cabinets and cupboards. She continued to watch patiently while I made sure that everything was secure and not likely to come crashing down the moment I turned my back, went over the floor with a wet rag to make sure I hadn’t missed any sand, and was finally forced to acknowledge that I was just delaying the moment I would have to leave my safe position.


 

Snowflake and I, in the five-months odd that we’ve been living in the Otherside, have worked out a certain morning routine. We wake up shortly before sunrise—earlier, today, to make time for the summoning—and slip out of bed without waking Aiko, who’s much more of a night-owl type.

 

We get our gear together—not usually this much, but always some, because I’m paranoid—and go for a walk. While we’re walking the sun comes up, because I like watching the sunrise almost as much as the sunset. Once that’s done and we both feel awake enough to deal with the day, I check my phone for messages.

 

Once that little ritual is taken care of, we go out for breakfast. Because Aiko is almost as bad at cooking as I am, that usually entails bringing something back for her too—she can’t, of course, come eat with us. After that the three of us can figure out what to do that day. Usually it involves a lot of reading and time in the laboratory. Not always, though, because Aiko’s really bad at being a stay-at-home anything. Frequent excursions and getting into trouble are essential to her wellbeing, and she usually brings us along.

 

If nothing else, the extra muscle is not infrequently useful for getting out of a dangerous scene. Aiko takes her getting into trouble seriously. By which I mean that—just counting the ones I’ve personally participated in—she’s started eighteen bar fights, four large-scale altercations between shopkeepers, two schisms within a major thieves’ guild (that sort of thing still exists in the Otherside, apparently), a riot, and a religion (don’t ask) in the time I’ve known her.

 

I strongly suspect that her idea of fun will be the death of all three of us, one of these days. Given how many people want me dead, though, I can’t exactly point fingers on that particular topic.

 

Things started out pretty much the same today. We were just in time to catch the tail end of the sunrise. It was almost November, and that meant it was late enough that the streets were pretty busy. We passed a number of joggers and dog walkers once we’d left the cesspit of a neighborhood where Fenris’s permanent connection to the Otherside opened. And then things became a lot less normal, when I started checking my messages.

 

Usually, that was boring, a ritual I conducted mostly out of habit. Oh, I might have missed a casual call from a friend, or various forms of advertisement, but nothing important. I seldom got more than one or two calls a day.

 

Today, I had a text message from Kris reiterating her request that I find out where Brick had gone. I had a text from Kyra saying hello, asking how I was doing, and inviting me to Wyoming for Thanksgiving. I had a voice message from Edward saying howdy, asking how things were going, and telling me I was welcome to come to Wyoming for Thanksgiving. I had a message from Sergeant Frishberg of the Colorado Springs police saying that somebody had died in a really bizarre way—a noteworthy statement, from the unofficial head of the freak squad—and she was willing to pay me to come have a look at it. And I had a message from my cousin Alexis saying she was in town and would like to see me.

 

That last one was, of course, the most worrying to me. I mean, murder, mayhem, generalized and massive chaos and destruction, check, right up my alley. Family? Not so much. Alexis was the oldest of my aunt Hilary’s three children, but my mother had been a lot older than her sister. Even Alexis was about a decade younger than me, and between that and my own freakishness, inhumanity, and magic, there was always a sizeable gap between us.

 

In the dozen years I’d lived in Colorado, not one of my family had come to visit. Not my aunt. Not her husband, who traveled frequently for his work. Not any of my cousins. Not once. I got maybe half a dozen phone calls from them yearly, combined.

 

So why the hell was Alexis here now? I had a definite feeling I wasn’t going to like the answer to that one.

 

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to convince even myself that I would get to dodge the issue indefinitely. My life doesn’t work like that. So, rather than struggle against it, I called her back first.

 

The ensuing conversation was awkward, stilted, and full of uncomfortable silences—par for the course, essentially. She didn’t mention why she was in Colorado, and I didn’t ask. I gave her directions to a pizza place, and arranged to meet her there for a lunch. I hung up and gave the phone the sort of look I normally reserve for venomous snakes.

 

I thought about getting breakfast. I really did. But I had a little time left before I could expect to hear from Brick, and I figured that as long as I was being responsible I might as well go all the way. So I called Frishberg back instead.

 

And that is how I became embroiled in the second hideously dangerous mess.


 

I’d never been to the morgue before.

 

I found, to my total lack of surprise, that I hadn’t been missing much. It was better than the hospital, at least. The patients here wouldn’t recover, but that was more than eclipsed by the fact that they were beyond feeling pain.

 

Better than a hospital—but not by much.

 

Sergeant Frishberg, whose vaguely Hispanic features belied her Germanic name, met me at the door. She was mildly subdued, wearing formal clothing although not police uniform, and seemed more than a little glad to see me. I immediately discounted that. When I first met her I thought Frishberg was a little clumsy at faking reactions and blending in, but I was starting to suspect that it was all an act to cover the cunning, shrewd, and somewhat brutal mind behind it. I didn’t for a moment believe that a few dead bodies would shake her composure.

 

“Winter,” she said, nodding slightly. The gesture carried more than a touch of respect. I’d helped the freak squad deal with a couple of the freakier things they’d been called upon to do in the months since I’d met Frishberg, and she’d seen me in action. Apparently it left something of an impression.

 

I mean, not serious action or anything. But she saw me kill a few things. And this one time I kind of set a building on fire. And there was this one incident involving a rogue vampire and a lot of blueberries. But mostly nothing that serious.

 

“Sergeant,” I replied, nodding back. “What new and exciting bundle of horrors do you have for me today?”

 

Her lips quirked slightly. “Nothing too exciting, actually. Right this way.” She ushered me through the back halls of the morgue. Everything was very, very quiet, and the smell of disinfectant and embalming fluid was thick, but otherwise the place was unremarkable. It could have been an office, albeit one with a fondness for stark hallways and a real aversion to anything identifying them. The place was a maze.

 

Eventually she went through another door, into a room with an occupied autopsy table. It looked just like a medical table, except that the patient wasn’t breathing, and no effort had been made to make it comfortable and homey.

 

I’ve seen a significant number of corpses, and made more than a handful. I have seen the effects of werewolf attacks, close-range shotgun blasts, explosions, serious fires, a couple different kinds of poison, and decapitation on a body. Thus, it is with a certain expertise that I say that this particular body was, bar none, the least offensive and disturbing I’d ever seen. It looked like the man—a middle-aged fellow with Asian features who was a touch overweight—had just gone to sleep for a while. Aside from the autopsy marks, there was nothing whatsoever wrong with him.

 

I examined the body for a while. “Okay,” I said finally. “What killed him?”

 

“Well,” she drawled, “that’s sort of the problem. As far as they can tell, nothing did.”

 

“Correct me if I’m wrong,” I said dryly, “but he seems pretty dead from where I’m standing.”

 

“Yep,” she agreed. “Guy’s in perfect health, though. Nothing wrong with him at all. No tissue damage, no poison, disease, nothing. Found him in his house like this.”

 

I grunted. “How’s that your problem?” I asked. “Chalk it up as one of life’s little mysteries and move on.”

 

“Normally, I’d agree with you. The problem is, he’s the fourth one this week. Just poof, dead.”

 

“Oh.” I thought about it for a minute. “You know, on second thought, I can maybe see where that might upset some people. I take it they dumped this on you because it’s weird and they can’t actually call it homicide without a cause of death.”

 

“That,” Frishberg agreed, “and they’re too busy.” She frowned vaguely, not looking directly at either me or the corpse. “Things are bad out there, Winter. I’ve never seen it like this.”

 

“Bad how? You mean like increased crime rates or something?”

 

“Through the roof,” she said dryly. “We’ve had more than thirty murders in the past month. Almost two hundred assaults. A hundred and fifty reported arsons.”

 

“I take it that’s unusual?”

 

She eyed me flatly. “We normally see less than thirty murders a year.”

 

“Oh. So pretty unusual, then.”

 

The sergeant rolled her eyes. “Bite me. The department’s working its ass off, which means fewer people get sent to the freaks, which means I have to do everything myself, and they dump a shitload more work on my head. And now this shit starts happening.”

 

Something remarkable happened then. Frishberg shook her head once, briskly, reminding me of Snowflake shedding water, and all the anger and frustration that had built up around her over the past few sentences just…evaporated. A moment before she’d looked ready to bite someone’s head off, and not too picky about whose it might be. Now, she had returned to the carefree, almost placid personality she’d shown up with.

 

Now that, Snowflake said, approaching awe, is a nice trick. You should learn to do that.

 

“So,” the sergeant said, quite calmly. “What happened here, and how much will it cost me to find out?”

 

I grinned at her. “Oh, no charge for you, sergeant. I’m happy to help out my friendly neighborhood police force. Us freaks have to stick together, right?”

 

Frishberg looked at me in a gimlet manner. “You,” she informed me sourly, “are not nearly as amusing as you think you are.”

 

True dat, Snowflake sighed. And you only have to listen to him occasionally.

 

Seems like a bit of a waste, I told her, given that she can’t hear you. Snowflake huffed and laughed at the same time, while I walked over to take a closer look at the mysterious dead guy. “You have any information on who these people were? Like, is there some kind of connection between them or something?”

 

“Maybe, but I want your take on it first.”

 

I sighed. Of course she did. Up close, the body looked pretty much exactly like it had from farther away. There was something odd about the smell, though, something funny. Not physically—he smelled pretty much the way you would expect of a dead guy in a morgue, in that respect. No, this was a magic smell,

 

It took me several moments to place it, and when I did it was more confusing than anything. He smelled like a lacking, a void in the background. I’m not sure how to explain it, beyond that. Magic doesn’t leave a trace of itself the way physical scents do, and it fades in hours, so I wouldn’t have expected to smell anything meaningful on him. The problem was that this particular void didn’t feel like the absence of smell. It was more like the smell of absence, like something that should have been present wasn’t. I’d have never noticed it unless I was looking for it, but once I did it was hard not to smell it.

 

So. Assuming he hadn’t just been a bizarre magical creature I hadn’t previously encountered which smelled like a void—which, given how relatively little of the supernatural world I’d encountered, was entirely possible—it was safe to assume that whatever killed him also caused him to smell like this.

 

I supposed that something could have ripped his magic away, leaving a hole where it had been. That didn’t fit, though, because every way I knew of to do that to a human being would have left some evidence on the body. Besides, I’d encountered something of the sort before. It didn’t produce this sort of lacuna.

 

On the other hand, neither did anything else that I knew of. And it seemed logical that, in order to so profoundly alter a person’s magical scent, you would have to alter their magic on an equally basic level. So. Maybe it was a way of taking magic that I didn’t know about.

 

Working on that assumption, I asked whether it would be possible for me to look at the other bodies. It turned out that it was—I suspect it was illegal, but the freak squad was sorta supposed to do that sort of thing, as I understood it—and it was quickly arranged. All of them appeared more or less the same. I didn’t pay too much attention to that, though, because the important trend was in the scent of their respective magics.

 

The most recent corpse was the one I’d already seen. The second newest smelled the same, but weaker—if I hadn’t known exactly what to sniff for, I wouldn’t have caught it. The third was so faint I couldn’t be sure it wasn’t my imagination. The fourth smelled perfectly normal.

 

That supported my guess that this was an effect of the method of killing. Finding one corpse smelling bizarre and unlike anything I’d ever encountered was one thing. Finding four identical ones, in one city, in one week, having all been killed in the same way, seemed…a bit far-fetched.

 

“All right,” Frishberg said, glaring at me and Snowflake in turn. “What can you tell me?”

 

“Well,” I said, “not a lot. Assuming I’m right, which I’m pretty sure I am, this is murder. It’s murder with a really unconventional weapon, but still basically murder, which means you can investigate it like any other murder. There’s a limited number of people who could pull this off, and I sorta think anyone who could do this could probably also cover their tracks pretty well, so you probably won’t find them that way. But you can at least figure out the motive.”

 

She smiled, thin and sharp as a well-honed knife, something of the hard, cold mind under the mask showing through. “Way ahead of you.”

 

It was my turn to roll my eyes. “I should hope so. Are you ready to tell me what that connection is?”

 

She glanced first one way, then another, in an exaggerated display of caution, and leaned closer. “They don’t actually exist.”

 

“No, seriously.”

 

“Well,” she amended, “officially, at least. No ID. No records of who the bastards were. No fingerprints.”

 

“You mean the prints aren’t on file?”

 

“Right. Except for the second one; he actually doesn’t have fingerprints. Never seen shit like it.”

 

I paused. “Wait a second. I thought you said the last one was in his house. How does that happen without some sort of paper trail?”

 

She grimaced. “It was a rental. Apparently he paid cash up front, and the owner didn’t ask too many questions.”

 

“Cash he didn’t have tax records for,” I noted.

 

“Bingo.”

 

“So,” I said slowly. “You’re telling me there are four unidentified people, dead of inexplicable causes, who were involved in shady financial dealings, within one week.”

 

“You’re catching on. Although, technically, I don’t think you can call it shady when you make a living dealing heroin.”

 

I stared. “You’re kidding me. How’d you find that out?”

 

“Corpse number one had a shitload of the stuff,” she said dryly. “Apparently someone matching the description’s wanted in two or three states out east. They were pretty upset when he turned up dead all the way out in Colorado, let me tell you.”

 

I stared some more. I was starting to see why the freak squad wound up with this. The whole mess sounded too confused, tangled, and generally screwy for anyone to want to deal with it, and that meant it got shoveled to the freaks. “I don’t know if I can help you with that,” I said. “I mean, it sounds to me like some sort of vigilante, but beyond that I have no freaking clue what’s going on.”

 

“Wonderful,” she said sourly. “Just wonderful. I don’t have time for this.”

 

“I’ll keep an eye out, then. Somebody’s running around doing this sort of thing, I’ll probably be seeing them before too long.”

 

She looked at me oddly. “You think they might try and take you out?”

 

“With my luck?” I sighed. “No might about it. Don’t worry, though, I’ll pass along your regards when they do.”

 

“You do that,” she said. Her eyes gleamed with some emotion I couldn’t quite place, and her voice had steel in it. And then the moment passed, and once again the mask flowed over her features, hiding the real Frishberg behind a veil of incompetence and corruption.

 

She was, I reflected, one of the more interesting humans I’d met. One of these days I was going to have to find out what she was hiding behind that mask.


 

Back outside, I made it all of three steps before being interrupted. Again. Surprisingly, it wasn’t an assassination attempt this time. I might have preferred an assassination attempt, but I didn’t get one.

 

What I got instead was a phone call. From Anna Rossi, possibly the only true, not even slightly preternatural human friend I still had. I debated ignoring it, but eventually sighed and answered. I expected an outpouring of concern, as she’d been expressing on a regular basis ever since her brother killed himself because of me. Somehow, she got the idea that that was messing with my head a bit. I can’t imagine how.

 

Instead, she said, “Hey, Winter. Whatcha doin’?” Her tone, terse and almost afraid, belied the casual words, and immediately made me tense up and start checking my weapons, more out of habit than anything. I mean, I didn’t exactly need to worry that they’d gone missing.

 

“Not a whole lot,” I said cautiously. “Why?”

 

“Well,” she said, “there’s a guy here asking about you. By name, I mean. He says he wants to talk to you, and it’s really important.” She paused. “He makes me a little nervous. I think he might be a werewolf.”

 

“I’ll be there in ten minutes,” I said grimly, and hung up. I cursed under my breath as I stalked over to my car. Anna might not have realized it—or, judging from her tone, she might have—but this guy was threatening her. Or, more accurately, threatening me with her—saying, basically, that if I didn’t come talk to him she’d suffer for it. It was a very veiled, polite threat, but definitely still there.

 

I don’t take kindly to threats. I take less kindly to people threatening my friends as a way to get to me. Given that this werewolf had done both, I thought we might have a very interesting chat.

 

And that is how I became embroiled in hideously dangerous mess the third. God, I hate my life some days.

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People seldom have sufficient respect for the power a thing can exert by being absent.

 

That’s my experience, anyway. It’s easy to look at something and say, “It’s doing this and this and this, so these must be the important parts of what it does.” It’s easy, but it isn’t always accurate.

 

A lot of the time, the really important stuff is what doesn’t happen, just because it’s there. Just look at the keystone of an arch; you might think it’s ridiculously unimportant, right up ’til you take it away.

 

The same thing tends to happen, I’ve found, with people. It’s easy to look at someone and only see what they do, which isn’t much. But then, once they’re gone, all manner of other things happen that don’t have any obvious relation to that person, but which wouldn’t have happened if they were still there.

 

Case in point: Erica Reilly. In life she’d been a vapid, greedy twit, approximately as self-centered as a gyroscope and with approximately the same intelligence as a lobotomized pigeon, who’d managed to irritate or infuriate practically everyone she met. Eventually one of them decided he’d had just about enough of that and flayed her alive.

 

Literally. I was there. It was not fun.

 

Anyway, as I was now discovering, Erica was having more influence after death than she ever could have alive—an irritation stronger than death, if you will. This was not exactly a welcome revelation, given that I’d had more than enough of her while she was alive.

 

Which is, in essence, why I was currently staring at my former employee Kris Lake across a small table in the corner of Pryce’s bar. “What do you mean Jimmy’s upset that you’re working with Val?” I asked, sipping iced tea.

 

“Sounds like you heard me,” Kris said acerbically. Snowflake, currently curled around my feet, chuckled faintly in the back of my head.

 

“Well, yes, but…what the hell? I mean, seriously, what’s the man thinking?” Jimmy Frazier was a sorcerer specializing in fire magics with less than a decade of experience. Dvalin Kovac was a fae powerful enough to ignore the literally cutthroat world of fae politics. I was pretty suspicious that he’d also been the Dvalin who forged Tyrfing, which would make him one of the most skilled magical craftsmen alive. It also meant he had to be at least a couple thousand years old.

 

That is not a recipe for a fair fight. If I had to guess, in fact, I would say Jimmy was roughly as strong relative to Val as a poodle to a werewolf. For him to pick a fight with the fae was…unwise.

 

“Hell if I know,” Kris muttered darkly, taking a long drink of some sort of cheap beer. “We’re falling apart, Winter. Ever since Erica died, it’s all just falling apart.”

 

Given that this was the sixth time she’d said that, I was guessing that this wasn’t Kris’s first beer of the night. Given that it was just past sunset, that was somewhat concerning. “You wanted to talk to me about something?” I asked, hoping to redirect the conversation into a less depressing topic.

 

She nodded with the peculiar exuberance of the moderately intoxicated. “Yeah. Yeah, I was getting to that. Jimmy got into a fight with Brick a couple days ago—he won’t tell me what it was about, but it was pretty bad. Yeah. Brick kicked his ass, but nobody’s seen him since. I was hoping you could, you know, find him or something?”

 

I sighed. The problem with helping someone out of a couple of seriously unpleasant situations was that they started thinking you could do anything, when the reality was that I had less chance of finding Brick if he didn’t want to be found than she did. Besides which, getting involved in this would put me smack in the middle of a feud between the various mages of the Inquisition, and that was as sure to get me embroiled in a hideously dangerous mess as anything I’d ever seen.

 

The bigger problem, of course, is that once someone starts to look at you like you’re a hero, you start wanting to help them. Especially someone like Kris, who was both fairly pathetic and one of the few people I considered a friend. Which is why, rather than explain why what she was asking was probably impossible, I said, “I’ll see what I can do.”

 

She nodded some more, said “Thanks,” a few more times than was strictly necessary, and wandered off towards the bar itself.

 

You owe me five bucks, Snowflake said smugly.

 

Cheater, I muttered. Someone told you about this already, didn’t they? She’d bet me yesterday that Brick would be the first person to cause a schism within the Inquisition’s ranks; I’d guessed Matthew.

 

Come on, Winter. Would I really conceal a potentially dangerous situation from you for a measly five bucks?

 

Given that I wasn’t willing to bet fifty? Absolutely. I scratched the husky’s ears idly, causing her to twitch a little—it was an astonishingly good impression of sleep, really. I don’t suppose they told you where he’s hiding out, did they?

 

Nope.

 

Great. I’ll add it to the list of things to look into. Fortunately, it was a pretty short list at the moment. We’d had a few slow months now—a welcome reprieve, after the tumult of the spring.

 

In the meantime, I had business to conduct.

 

I’ve always liked making things. There’s a…satisfaction, I suppose, to be had from it, which you can’t quite replicate anywhere else. I mean, it can be intensely frustrating work, but the feeling you get when you look at something beautiful and know that it was your hands and mind that shaped it…well, there’s just nothing quite like it, and there’s nothing I can say to tell you what it’s like. You either feel it, or you don’t. There isn’t much ground in between.

 

Over time, though, the things I make have changed. I spent a sizable portion of my life working with Val, mostly making furniture, and that was good—but making things with magic is better. It adds a whole new layer of artistry, of intricacy in the crafting. I’m not that good at it—my gifts are in other areas, and it’s rare to be talented with multiple types of magic. But I’d put in a few hundred hours practicing, and I’d gotten to the point where I could make things that I was genuinely proud of.

 

I also had some practical reasons for the switch, of course. Namely, you can make really good money in magical items, if you’re clever and you can do something people will pay for.

 

I, generally speaking, am not renowned for my cleverness. So, naturally, it took me a couple years to come up with something good, and when I did it was Aiko’s idea. But it didn’t take me long to put it into practice, and for a few months now I’d been making and selling jewelry. Between spinning shadows and moonbeams into something almost solid and producing ice with a melting point in the vicinity of gold, I could make things you weren’t likely to find anywhere else.

 

Which, in turn, meant that someone might be willing to pay an absolutely ridiculous sum for one of those rings—on the level of a hundred to a hundred and fifty bucks a pop.

 

The cost of materials is nonexistent. I spend somewhere in the vicinity of an hour on the work. That translates into an obscene amount of cash for what is, really, very little work. I mean, I did the math a while ago, and we’re talking more than two hundred grand a year if I were to do that work full time. I don’t, but it’s still a pretty decent income.

 

More than that, though, is that I just don’t have any real expenses. I don’t have to pay rent, or a mortgage—Fenris gave me my house outright. Likewise, I don’t pay property tax, because I don’t officially own the dilapidated house that the Otherside mansion connects to, and the land where my now-burned cabin once sat is long since sold. I don’t pay income tax either, because all of my income is of the shady sort to say the least—in cash, for the most part, and with the sort of customer who thinks you’re insane if you say the word “receipt.”

 

So what’s that leave? Groceries? Eh, not so much—Fenris’s deal also included a steady supply of food, and while I occasionally bought something to supplement it, there was absolutely no chance that we’d be going hungry. I still had my Jeep, but it had been in long-term parking outside Pryce’s for months now, and I drove it once or twice a week at most. Not exactly spending a fortune on gas.

 

I understand a lot better, now, how someone like Aiko can have a family fortune and not even think it’s noteworthy enough to talk about. What good does having money do, when there’s nothing worth spending it on?

 

Oh, don’t get me wrong. I’ve been spending money. I buy books, some of which are quite rare and expensive. Laboratory equipment and reagents, too, are not cheap—the two pounds of silver sitting in a lead-lined box alone cost me more than a thousand dollars. I have several thousand more stashed in various locations around town—none of which is a bank, because my accounts have been closed for a while now—and in other places where I can get to it if I need to. And I still had a hard time figuring out what to do with the money.

 

Which is why, when I sat down at one of Pryce’s corner tables to start bartering, it wasn’t for the money. It was mostly for something to do, and partially to continue building my network of contacts for the next time something goes disastrously wrong and I need a favor.

 

I would rather that didn’t happen, of course. But, speaking from experience here, that isn’t a realistic hope. Better to prepare for it, so that when the inevitable happened I had some chance of surviving it.

 

And the third reason was that sometimes, you find something much better than money. You find something interesting.


 

I did a brisk trade, over the next two hours or so. I’d been stopping at Pryce’s to sell stuff one evening a week for several months now, which meant that people knew where to find me.

 

It didn’t even occur to me to go anywhere else. I mean, why should it? I was catering to the supernatural crowd, and when it comes to the supernatural in Colorado Springs, everyone goes to Pryce’s sooner or later.

 

This evening followed the same pattern as usual. First, once Kris had gone on her way, Snowflake and I ate a leisurely dinner. Then, pleasantly full, I pulled out the small black backpack that had been concealed beneath my cloak, and Snowflake went to sleep.

 

The first person to approach me at my table was a jittery young man who’d been watching me eat for the past twenty minutes. My bag had hardly hit the table when he was standing on the other side of it. He bought a narrow, glittering band of ice for his mother, in an extremely rushed manner. I knew it was for his mother, because he insisted on telling me so five times, with the slightly panicky tones of someone who’s lying and knows he’s lying and knows he’s lying badly but can’t think of anything else to do.

 

I didn’t care why he wanted the thing, but I don’t take kindly to being lied to. And his smell was unpleasant—too much cologne, not enough washing. So I charged him two hundred, thinking perhaps it would make him just go away.

 

Instead, somewhat to my surprise, he paid asking price in used twenties, seeming positively grateful for the chance to do so. Then he stood back up, jittered a little more, seemed for a moment as though he would say something, and left.

 

That was not a particularly unusual customer interaction. Dealing with unaffiliated members of the supernatural world has a number of upsides, foremost of which may be a real aversion to any sort of question at all, but nobody’s ever said it came without liabilities.

 

After that, things settled into a routine. Rachel took the time off from her pool-shark career (she actually works as a counselor, I believe, though she’s in Pryce’s so much I’ve no idea how she has the time) to chat for a few minutes. She brought her current boyfriend, too, and within a few minutes had him talked into buying something pretty for her.

 

I would have given it to her for free—money didn’t mean much at the moment, and she was a longstanding acquaintance, almost a friend. But there was a gleam in her eye, and a tenseness to her posture, that told me not to go easy on him. I didn’t gouge him like the last guy, but I got my usual price. She walked off, a patch of shadow touched with moonlight wrapped around her wrist, and proceeded to thrash him mercilessly at pool. From his posture I guessed that she’d been letting him win until now.

 

It’s sort of sad. Rachel’s an empath—a small-scale mage with a natural gift for detecting other people’s emotions. She doesn’t go rooting through your brain unless she doesn’t like you—that sort of thing’s deeply impolite. What she’s really doing, as I understand it, is sampling the energy surrounding you, energy which is naturally influenced by strong feelings. Theoretically any mage could learn to examine that cloud of energy to such a fine degree as to pick up emotions, but Rachel did it as instinctively as examining a person visually.

 

It makes her a great counselor—when you know exactly how a person feels, it does a lot to help you help them. It’s an useful talent, and one of great benefit to society, but not one I’d wish on anyone I like.

 

I know it was hard for her to grow up with that kind of power. Even if I couldn’t guess as much, which I could, the occasional comment or sudden silence made me pretty sure that when she’d first started coming into her power, the sensations it had exposed her too hadn’t been pretty ones. I’ve never asked her about it, of course, just as she never asked why I was so quick to change the subject when werewolves came up. Such things are simply not done, among people like us.

 

But you could see the effects in her behavior. Because she’d been exposed to something bad and she could feel people on such an intimate level, she was only too aware of how vile human beings could be—she knew, from the inside out, how it felt to be a bad person. As a counselor, that helped, because she could sympathize and she knew what people were going through. But it had left her with worse relationship issues than mine and Aiko’s put together, and that’s saying something.

 

I’d lost track, over the years, of how many boyfriends she’s gone through. They’re typically scum-of-the-earth sorts, because she doesn’t want to inflict herself on anyone halfway decent. From that interaction, I was guessing this one had two weeks left, tops.

 

That’s the problem with hanging out with the small fry of the supernatural world. Most people fall into one of three groups. They’re either so pathetic you want to give them a hug, so unsettling and generally spooky you want to back away slowly when you see them coming, or—most commonly—both. Rachel was definitely both.

 

Fortunately, it got less depressing from there on out. Luna, who spent so much time working out of Pryce’s that it was functionally her office, stopped to pick up her order. As she was the center of a small-scale but very active black market and information brokerage, I did a lot of business with her. Not the most ethical work, perhaps, but realistically speaking there’s no point trying to shut her down, even if I wanted to. Someone else would pop up to fill the demand within a week, and they probably wouldn’t be nearly so nice as Luna.

 

After twenty minutes of fierce bargaining, she took away three rings, a necklace, and a pair of earrings. She also took away four stored spells—two would produce a dense localized fog when activated, and one a fairly sizable patch of shadow that wouldn’t be dispelled by any natural light. The last was something she’d ordered special, a piece of slate that, when broken, would cause every dog in a mile to start going crazy at the same time. I wasn’t entirely sure what she wanted it for, but she must have wanted it pretty badly, considering what she paid for the thing.

 

In return, I took half a dozen stored spells, a large uncut ruby, and an envelope describing how the rakshasas were going to vote on the upcoming trade agreement between the Council and the Daylight Court. The information was useless to me, but I might be able to sell it to someone else. That was how the business worked.

 

Other than that, I didn’t sell to anyone I knew, although there were a number of strangers, and even more people I vaguely recognized, who were interested enough to fork over some cash. I chatted briefly with a few other regulars, who didn’t buy anything—if they wanted what I made, they already owned it. A large bearded werewolf I didn’t recognize hastened to assure me he was only visiting for the day from Denver and bought a ring. Then he wouldn’t shut up for five solid minutes about how excellent the workmanship was and how he’d never seen the like, which almost made me want to take it back.

 

I like a compliment as much as the next fellow. But there’s only so much a guy can take.

 

There were also a few more interesting cases. A slender woman wearing what looked like genuine—and well-used—hunting leathers whose magic smelled of gardenias traded an oddly shaped knife for a full bridal set in shadows. A human mage, whom I suspected was actually a Watcher out of uniform, bought one of the ice rings. He also, under cover of that transaction, purchased the envelope from Luna—which, I might add, I hadn’t even opened. In exchange he gave me a long strip of leather which would cling to itself more tightly than any glue, which I was hoping to reverse engineer for my own use. A fiery-smelling man I thought might be a djinn took a bracelet of shadow and my last stored spell for sale, a glass marble that would release a sizable gale if shattered, in exchange for a jar full of some odd black sand that smelled like the same magic as he did and felt warm to the touch.

 

Like I said. Interesting is more valuable than diamonds. I know, because a while ago someone paid me in diamonds, and before the week was out I wound up trading them for a glass dagger, a pouch of seeds taken from Faerie grasses, a pair of ivory dice that could be convinced to roll any number on command, a couple stored spells, a tortoise shell of the sort used in traditional Chinese fortunetelling, a deck of illuminated Tarot cards, and a few jars full of various exotic and possibly illegal substances.

 

It wasn’t just a matter of amusing myself, though. I was trying to build a reputation as someone who could make things happen, and that meant dealing in things that nobody else could arrange. It might be years before I managed to sell any of that crap, but it would be worth it in the end.


 

After that was finished, Snowflake and I stood up to leave. We stretched, walked out the door into the cool autumn night, and traveled almost two blocks before someone tried to kill us.

 

As assassination attempts go, this one was pretty weak. An odd-looking fellow in a dark cloak, conspicuous because there was nobody else moving on this particular side street at this time of night, walked up and tried to tear my guts out. It has the advantage of simplicity, I suppose, and a generous enough person might call it elegant, but…sheesh. When you’ve had your life threatened by old gods and faerie queens, something like that’s almost more an insult than a threat.

 

I saw it coming a mile away, of course. I mean, I size up everyone I see as a threat. It’s such an ingrained habit it’s practically instinctive. When that person is wearing a cloak, I pay attention—with the exception of anachronistic freaks such as myself, nobody wears a cloak these days, and that makes it suspicious. When they’re in an otherwise silent part of town in the middle of the night, I automatically assume they’re there to try and kill me, and act appropriately.

 

I would call it paranoia, except that I tend to be right.

 

The figure covered the last few feet in a blur, one hand coming up in a simple strike at gut-level. What looked like a curved knife gleamed in the light of a waning moon, just bright enough to be silver-plated rather than steel along the cutting edge. It was clearly relying on sheer speed to take me out, rather than any form of technique.

 

That was not so smart. I was accustomed to dealing with preternaturally fast things, and I was ready. Almost before it started moving, I was falling backward, and the blade passed through empty air over me without ever being a threat.

 

Snowflake, moving with the sort of coordinated precision that only comes from long practice together, surged over me as I fell. She took the assassin out at the feet before he had a chance to follow up on my vulnerable position. She also, as she blew by him, seized one leg and, with a quick snap-jerk, tore it off at the knee.

 

Snowflake’s a lot stronger than she looks. Stronger than a husky has any right to be.

 

I, too, had a lot of practice with Snowflake, and excellent reflexes. So, before he could even tilt—before I’d even hit the ground—I forced power through the focus of my leather bracelet. The resulting gust of wind was just strong enough to knock the thing off balance, which was strong enough for my needs.

 

Long story short, it happened as follows. A gust of wind strong enough and sudden enough to make a grown man stumble hit the thing sideways. As it was no longer capable of stumbling to that side, it fell, hitting the ground hard and rolling. A pair of sunglasses fell off in the tumble, and I got a glimpse of intensely yellow eyes.

 

Then, without so much as wincing in reaction to its unplanned amputation, it came up to a low crouch. I’d suspected it wasn’t human, or anything like it, but that clinched it. No human spine or pelvis was that flexible. Then it threw itself at me with its three unwounded limbs.

 

All of this happened in the space of a second or two, before Snowflake could so much as turn around.

 

I’ve been in a lot of sticky situations, and I don’t panic the way I probably should anymore. So I had the presence of mind to notice a number of things. First off, there wasn’t any blood. The thing should have been bleeding like a fountain from the leg, and I would have smelled that. I didn’t. Second, it wasn’t a knife it had come at me with—it was a claw. The creature had three of them on each forelimb, and they were definitely edged with silver. Charged silver, too; I could smell it.

 

That told me a lot about what I was dealing with. It had been a long while since I’d seen a construct, but I have a pretty good memory for these things. I knew the signs to look for.

 

I rolled away as it pounced, and it hit pavement instead of me. Then, rather than get up and start fleeing the way it probably expected, I got one foot under me and threw myself back towards it. It wasn’t prepared for that, and I managed to get a solid grip on the front of its cloak with both hands. Then I planted my feet again, arched my back, and threw it away with the strength of my whole body.

 

There is a certain amount of truth in the stories of a werewolf’s supernatural strength, and that is one of the attributes I do share with a true werewolf. The thing flew almost ten feet and hit the ground hard.

 

Snowflake was waiting—and this thing was too stupid to take its attention off of me, its assigned target. When it hit the ground, she pounced. A moment later, her jaws snapped shut and jerked sideways again. A moment after that, the thing was in two pieces, one of which was a head.

 

When in doubt, you can’t beat decapitation for killing something unnatural. The best part is that, even if your attacker actually is human, well, beheading works on them too.

 

It’s convenient that way.

 

The three-limbed, headless figure staggered upright, and for a moment I thought it would come at me again. Apparently that was too much even for something as resilient as this, though, because a moment later it collapsed again. The disembodied head, lying on the ground a few feet away, continued to stare hatefully at me out of urine-yellow eyes. The pupils were slitted, and the result looked more like a snake than anything.

 

Then the whole thing started melting.

 

I sighed and pushed myself to my feet. The whole thing had happened too fast for thought, and I was just now starting to feel the adrenaline rush. I mean, my hands weren’t shaking or anything—I’m too well accustomed to violence for that—but I could feel that my heart and breathing rates were picking up, and my muscles were tight.

 

Gott, dass schmeckt mir abgefuckt beschissen, Snowflake muttered in my head. Construct, you think?

 

I frowned and walked over to examine the body—well, what was left of it, anyway. It was rapidly turning into a puddle of some sort of thick, translucent fluid, which was in turn evaporating into the air. Matter from the Otherside is naturally inundated with magic, and without that power it can’t maintain a physical structure. Looks like, I muttered grimly. We both stared as the construct finished melting and vanished.

 

All that was left behind was a long black cloak of some cheap fabric and a half-dozen claws, long curved pieces of steel with silver along the cutting edge. Those hadn’t come from the Otherside, but rather been incorporated after the construct itself was made.

 

Are you going to do something with those? Snowflake asked me, keeping careful watch down the street. Sending an obvious assassin was an excellent way to hide the presence of another, subtler one while the target was still busy being relieved at surviving the first attack.

 

I can’t say I want to have them around.

 

You don’t want the cops picking them up either, do you?

 

I sighed. Good point. I picked up the cloak and started bundling the claws into it, being careful not to touch the silver with my bare skin. It still itched having so much charged silver around, but it wouldn’t actually burn me unless I touched it. As I did, I thought about what had just happened.

 

The construct was quite similar to the ones I’d seen when I took down the loony witch called Jon. Actually, scratch that; it wasn’t similar, it was the same, right down to the claws and the yellow eyes.

 

Lots of mages use constructs as cheap muscle. But there’s a lot of kinds of construct, custom designed for specific purposes. Besides that, every mage had a unique style, and you could often tell who designed a thing just by the feel of it, the pattern of the magic that went into making it. The likelihood of an unrelated practitioner creating a fighter-construct exactly like Jon’s style was beyond tiny.

 

Okay. So, I reminded myself, the first thing to do was go through the facts available to me, without making any conclusions at first.

 

Fact the first: I’d just been attacked by a construct clearly based on the same design Jon had used.

 

Fact the second: As Jon was entirely deceased, he could not have been the one to send it.

 

Fact the third: All of the Inquisition spent some time taking lessons from Jon before I met them.

 

Fact the fourth: The first time I encountered the Inquisition they were trying to kill me as part of their monster-slaughtering crusade. We’d since come to be a sort of allies, but they were still pursuing the same goals.

 

Fact the fifth: The ten minor mages making up the Inquisition were no longer a unified group. Even before Kris talked to me about it, I knew that the group was starting to fracture under the tension of Erica’s death and a slowly growing divide in philosophy.

 

All of which led to an inescapable fact the sixth: Finding out what had happened to Brick had just gone from a favor for Kris to a high priority for myself. I could handle constructs like that one all day and part of the night, but…well…there were much worse things they could send at me next.

 

That struck me as a good reason to reorganize the to-do list.

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Three days later, I was meeting Kyra in the city. It was supposed to have happened two days earlier, but as it turns out, you don’t actually get phone reception on the Otherside. When I made it back to the “real” world to stretch my legs and keep from going crazy with cabin fever, I had about a thousand messages. They started out polite, moving on to annoyed after about twelve hours. By the second morning she was actively angry, and then in the late afternoon to worry and depression.

 

I’d left her a message, the first day back, about not being dead, at least. I don’t think I want to know what she’d have thought or done otherwise.

 

Thank God, Snowflake muttered as she trotted down the road at my side. Until this morning, she hadn’t spoken since I got back—that whole Wild Hunt thing hit her pretty hard, and no surprise. She must have been feeling at least a little better now, though; she was not only talking, she’d asked to come with me, and settled on the purple eyepatch with a Day-Glo-green peace sign on it, coupled with a heavy black leather collar set with a double row of steel spikes. (I cannot express to you how hard I laughed when I saw that there were three separate walk-in closets attached to the master bedroom—one for me, one for Aiko, one for Snowflake. They were all about the same size.) I couldn’t take one more day in that abgefuckt beschissen house.

 

I didn’t make a big deal of the fact that she was talking to me again. I mean, come on, I knew her pretty well by now, okay? And I knew nothing would make her retreat faster than that. Can’t argue, I agreed. It wouldn’t be so bad if it just had a few windows. I don’t think I’ve ever gone so long without seeing the sun.

 

Agreed, she said fervently. I love the furniture, but that’s going to get old fast.

 

We were, thankfully, not bound to the same cafe as before. That would have been just spooky. Kyra and I had, after some discussion, settled on a tiny park instead. It was a pretty good walk, but neither of us had any objection to that; after three days stuck in our new house, both Snowflake and I wanted a chance to stretch our legs.

 

Around an hour later, we strolled into the park, looking…well, not like any other person walking a dog, but a reasonably close imitation. I wasn’t even wearing the armor—light and masterfully crafted or not, it’s too bloody uncomfortable for anything short of an emergency. Granted I had a number of knives secreted on my person (I’d forgotten I even had some of those), but they were small enough I wasn’t even wearing my cloak as a long cape or trench coat. A light hoodie, not unreasonably warm for April in Colorado, was quite adequate to conceal them.

 

Kyra was already there waiting for us. She looked…different, somehow, a matter more of bearing and posture than physical appearance. It took me a minute to figure out what it was, although once I did I couldn’t believe I’d overlooked the obvious.

 

She looked like herself. As in, just herself, without the added baggage of the Alpha. Authority changed a person, especially a werewolf, and the difference in how she carried herself after acquiring that role was marked. Now…it was gone, plain and simple. Kyra looked like the reserved, mildly snarky werewolf I’d known for years before that change. She was even slouching a little.

 

I wasn’t at all sure what to make of that. She was still alive, though, so it couldn’t be too bad. That’s the nice thing about werewolves—they tend to be very direct about hating you. You seldom have to wonder whether you pissed a werewolf off; if they haven’t tried to eat your spleen yet, the answer is probably no.

 

“How’s it going?” she asked as I walked up. She didn’t so much as glance in my direction, and she was slumped against a small tree. An Alpha would never act so carelessly, not even with a trusted old friend.

 

“Not too shabby,” I said, sitting down next to her with a sigh. Snowflake flopped across my feet. “Yourself?”

 

She grunted. “Good news. Ryan’s alive.”

 

I blinked. “Really?” We hadn’t heard from him since he disappeared from the shopping mall, and I’d been pretty sure that wasn’t going to change in the near future.

 

“Yep,” she said. “Apparently he saw some sort of something in the crowd and thought he should go investigate. Next thing he knew he was waking up this morning. Called me first chance he got.”

 

“Huh. That’s interesting.” Sounded like a will-o’-the-wisp to me—they were Unseelie beasties, so they could easily have been working with Carraig. I didn’t think a werewolf would resist their lure particularly hard, either; in fact, what with the focus on hunting, they might be more susceptible than a normal human. The only thing that surprised me was that he was still alive.

 

Kyra grinned. “Oh, you haven’t even heard the best part. He woke up stark naked and rather sore in the middle of a cornfield in Kansas—oh, except for a collar. With, and I quote, the worst hangover imaginable, a bottle in his right hand, a set of spurs in his left, and smelling like lemons and burnt toast.”

 

“That is quite possibly the most disturbing mental picture I’ve had all week,” I said after a moment. “Thanks.”

 

Her grin got even wider. “I’m still not done. He has a number written on his hand in something he says is almost but not quite permanent marker. With ‘Call me’ underneath. Oh, and a number of bite marks. I’ll let you guess where.”

 

I closed my eyes for a second or two and tried to banish the images that conveyed. I so did not want to hear any more details about this.

 

I think I need to bleach my brain after that, Snowflake said in agreement after a moment. I thought you got up to some weird stuff on the weekends, but this trumps every story you have put together.

 

“Okay,” I said, eyes still tightly closed. “Now that you’ve scarred us for life, why did you want to talk?”

 

“The pack’s splitting up.”

 

I opened my eyes. “Wait, what?”

 

“You heard me,” she said.

 

“Well, yes, but…what?”

 

She shrugged. “Too much action the past year or two. Between that and all the publicity—we were one of the media-attention packs, you know, and now that that gambit’s over….” She shrugged again. “Plus we’ve lost a bunch of people. Makes more sense to just split things up and assimilate into other packs, rather than try to move.”

 

“Kyra, I…I’m so sorry—”

 

“Oh shut up,” she snapped. “Christ, Winter, I’ve heard the condolences speech from twenty-four werewolves, you really think I need it from you too?”

 

“You could at least have let me finish the sentence,” I said sourly.

 

“You’ll live.”

 

Epic burn, Snowflake laughed. I wonder if you could convince her to wait while I catch a rabbit?

 

Wouldn’t popcorn be more appropriate? I asked her.

 

Well, sure, but seriously, popcorn? Bleck. Who likes popcorn?

 

“Where’re you going?” I said out loud.

 

“Wyoming,” she said decisively. “I’ve already talked to Frodsham about it, and he says he’ll take me. I’m driving up there tomorrow.”

 

I blinked. “Why Wyoming?” I’d always thought of Kyra as more of a city person.

 

She shrugged. “You make him sound like a decent guy.” No surprise, really, considering that Edward was the closest thing to a father figure I’d ever had. He was a decent guy, too, especially for a werewolf. Most of the species is, I’m sorry to say, bad enough that I don’t have to wonder too much about where the scare stories come from.

 

“Good luck,” I said eventually. “I think I’ll be staying here.”

 

She glanced sidelong at me. “You sure?” she asked—just serious enough to let me know it was a serious offer, just joking enough to let me know she wouldn’t object if I declined.

 

“Yeah,” I said. “I’ve got too much going on here. Besides, I’ve lived in Wyoming once already. It hasn’t been nearly enough years for me to want to go back yet.”

 

“Fair enough,” she said. “I’m not sure how long I’ll be staying. I think I might go back to school, finish up my degree. I guess I’ve got time to decide, right?”

 

“I really am sorry,” I said as she stood up.

 

She grinned. “I’m not. I was never really Alpha material anyway.” I couldn’t honestly argue with that one, so I didn’t try. “See you around.” She walked briskly off.

 

Snowflake and I stayed awhile in the park. The sun was warm on my face, and I laid back in the grass for a short nap. The world was still a terrible place, I was still a terrible person, we still sometimes had to do terrible things—but, for just a little while, it was still pretty good. Nobody can be a monster every day, after all.

 

I still had questions to ask, loose ends to tie up, loads and loads of work to do.

 

Work, we decided unanimously and without discussion, could wait a while.

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I woke up slowly the next day. I do mean day, too; I slept until almost noon.

 

I was pretty disoriented, which is why it took me a moment to realize how funky things were. I’d gone to sleep in my armor, in the forest, draped in all manner of weaponry. I woke up sitting in a chair, in the same cafe where I’d met with Kyra and Pellegrini, wearing street clothes.

 

In other words, something was very wrong with the world.

 

To reinforce this impression, as soon as I was awake I heard a voice. More specifically, Loki’s voice, or at least the voice he used most often in my experience. He said, “You’re about to go visible, so try not to jump.”

 

Loki himself was sitting across the table from me. “Good morning, Winter. How do you feel?”

 

“Stiff. Sore. Generally not too great. But alive.”

 

“Very good,” he said enthusiastically. “Most excellent. Oh, your food should be here shortly. I’m sure you’re hungry, after last night.” He motioned toward the large glass of iced tea in front of me.

 

I considered asking whether it was poisoned, but dismissed the notion. I mean, really, what would be the point? If it was, Loki probably wouldn’t tell me. And, in any case, if he ever decided to kill me, there wasn’t a lot I could do about it. He was a god; I was just a mortal with a little bit extra tacked on; ergo, any fight between us could end in only one way. It wasn’t complicated.

 

It occurred to me that it was more than possible today was the day he would make that decision. In which case, hell, I might as well enjoy some breakfast first. The tea was quite good.

 

“So,” Loki said. I noticed he was idly flipping a butter knife around in one hand, and couldn’t help but remember that was the instrument he’d promised to kill me with if I messed up. “I’m assuming that you have some entertainingly complex plan to recover the spear. Or else you’re terribly confused.”

 

I bowed my head slightly—not that I really thought the gesture of submission would count for anything, but I had to try, you know? “Actually, Loki, I wasn’t planning on retrieving it.”

 

“Now, see,” he said, “that’s what I would call ‘terribly confused.’ After all, we did have a deal, didn’t we?”

 

“I have fulfilled the terms of your request,” I said.

 

He raised one dark blond eyebrow. “Oh, this should be good. Do continue, Winter, I’m dying to hear this explanation.”

 

“You asked me to identify the person or persons responsible for three deaths in this city,” I said carefully. “I have done so. Shannon Plumber was killed by Pier of the Daylight Court, Steve Potts by criminals hired by Humberto Escobedo, and Humberto himself by Carraig of the Midnight Court. In a more broad sense, Erica Reilly was responsible for all of these deaths and several others by obtaining, and subsequently selling, the Gáe Bolg.”

 

“Which is all fine and well,” Loki said. “But I rather think you’re forgetting one little part. Namely, that wasn’t all I asked you for. By which I mean that I also asked you to return the stolen goods.”

 

This was where it got tricky, but if it worked I might get out alive. “You asked me to return anything stolen from the victims,” I corrected. “At no point in time did the Gáe Bolg fall under that category. Plumber sold it to Potts before her death, which was a legal transfer of property. It was then confiscated by the police from Potts’s home, which is their legal right and was properly executed. Neither of these were cases of theft.”

 

“And for you to take it from the police? Will you tell me that was legal, as well?”

 

“No,” I said. “That was theft. However, you very clearly stated that only things stolen from the victims of the three murders which had happened when you contacted me were to be returned to you. As I did not steal it from any of those individuals, it does not qualify, and at that point the spear was mine to do with as I would.”

 

Loki considered that for a moment. Then he did the last thing I’d expected.

 

He started to laugh. And kept laughing, until he was leaning on the table for support with tears running freely down his face. “Oh,” he said breathlessly—which was pretty funny in itself, given that I don’t think he actually needs to breathe in order to talk. He was a pretty good actor, when he remembered that he wanted to be. “Oh, man. That’s really good. Nice job, Winter. I have to say, I didn’t expect you to be that good at lawyering.”

 

“So we’re even?” I asked cautiously.

 

He waved one hand carelessly. “Oh, sure, sure. No problem. I mean, I have to reward that kind of twisty thinking somehow, don’t I?”

 

“Do you?” I asked, curious.

 

“Well, I’m reasonably confident I’m supposed to, at any rate. Being god of half-truths and unethical bargaining and all that. Besides, it’s not like I wanted the thing anyway.”

 

Right about then the waiter dropped off my food—and only my food, because apparently Loki wasn’t even pretending to need to eat today. “What do you mean you didn’t want it?” I asked once he’d left.

 

“Of course not,” Loki said patiently, as though speaking to a child. “Why should I? I mean, I’ve no idea what I’d do with such a thing, and then I’d be always wondering where I’d left it. No, thank you. I probably would have just given it back to Scáthach. No big deal.”

 

I stared. “I don’t get it,” I said eventually. “I mean, if you didn’t want it in the first place, why’d you cash in your favor?”

 

“Well, it was funny, wasn’t it?” he asked, as though that explained anything. “Everybody had all these careful plans laid out, I just couldn’t resist interfering. You make a wonderful monkey wrench, by the way.”

 

“Thanks,” I said sourly. “So this whole thing was just to satisfy your twisted sense of humor for a day?”

 

“Pretty much, yeah. Thanks, you were a lot more exciting this time around.”

 

I spent a minute eating and reflected that the universe put way too much effort into hating me.

 

“No, actually,” Loki said as though I’d spoken aloud. “Very common mistake. People find the claim that God hates them to be very comforting, so I suppose it’s only natural.”

 

I snorted. “Comforting? Comforting? In what way is knowing that there are forces vastly more powerful than me which hate me comforting?”

 

“In what way is it anything else?” he countered. “People say they believe in a benevolent and loving God, of course, but that’s a very difficult attitude to maintain in the face of a world which seems determined to disprove any such concept. Often, I find, humans find it much easier and more satisfying to believe in a God which hates them personally.”

 

“I still don’t get how that’s a comforting attitude.”

 

“Think about it,” Loki said, leaning forward earnestly. He was wearing deep blue eyes today, presumably because the real thing would have been inappropriate for such a public venue, and if I hadn’t known better I would have thought him perfectly trustworthy. “If God hates you, then nothing bad that happens to you is ever really your fault. It doesn’t matter what you do, because God will always ensure that nothing goes right. Besides which, you can always tell yourself that you’ve beaten this God with whatever scraps of happiness you do achieve, which must be a significant boost to your ego.”

 

I frowned. “Huh. I guess I never thought about it that way before.”

 

“Of course not. To think about it from a rational perspective would undermine all the psychological benefits of such a worldview. Besides which, that would force you to examine a much more existentially frightening concept.”

 

“Namely?”

 

“The idea that God doesn’t care,” he said, sounding even more earnest. “Think about it, Winter. A God who hates you is, fundamentally, a God who knows that you exist, a God who pays attention to you personally and cares about your life. In a negative sense, perhaps, but all attention is good attention, as they say. Malicious, yes, but it nevertheless says that there is something bigger, that it does know and care who you are, that you’re important to no less a being than God himself.”

 

“Now,” he continued, gesturing grandiosely with his butter knife, “compare that to the alternative—that is, that there is no God, or worse, that God exists but doesn’t care. Now that is a terrifying concept—imagine a God who knows you exist but can’t be bothered to remember, who is so much more than you that you become just a number on the file folder. It’s the difference between a gunshot and cancer, you see?” He shrugged. “I imagine it also places a great deal more moral responsibility on you. If God isn’t responsible for the horrors of the world, after all, there are very few other candidates than yourselves.”

 

I thought about that for a while as I finished up the food—not as much as I might have wanted, but I wasn’t about to complain to Loki. It was an interesting perspective, one I hadn’t ever really considered before. “So which is true?” I asked after a minute or so.

 

He laughed, infinitely more disturbing than Fenris’s. When Fenris laughed, the sound was touched with wolves’ howls and a hunger too deep for words. Loki’s laugh, though, had an edge to it of madness that made mere human insanities seem rather blasé. “In a cosmic sense? Who knows?” Grinning a mad grin, he stood up and offered me his hand. “There’s something I want you to see.”

 

Did I want to see it? No. I didn’t even have to ask to know that I would rather take a silvered grater to my knuckles.

 

It’s never good when the Trickster smiles. Never. Never ever.

 

Of course, I was still holding my life in my hands, quite seriously. Loki might have been amused enough by my exploitation of a technicality (not to mention all the violent antics of the past days, which seemed like something he’d enjoy) not to kill me. But he was still fucking Loki. He didn’t need a reason to kill me. He didn’t even need an excuse. If he wanted to, he could murder me right there in front of a dozen witnesses and I was willing to bet he’d get off scot free. My continued life was dependent on being amusing to him—and, while my life might not be the best available, I wasn’t ready to give it up quite yet.

 

Not as heroic an attitude as I’d managed the previous night, perhaps. But, alas, it was a lot harder to hold on to that sort of dedication and sacrificial attitude in the light of day. It’s one thing to die heroically, but I’ve never been all that great at living heroically.

 

So I shrugged and took Loki’s hand. And, as it had before, the world changed, literally in the blink of an eye.

 

When my eyes opened again, I was standing in the corner of a cramped, cluttered room. I recognized it, too—I’d only seen Erica’s dorm room once, but the sharp division between the mess on her side and the neatness of her roommate was distinctive.

 

Of course, it helped that Erica herself was sitting at the desk. I mean, that sort of thing tends to jog my memory, you know?

 

At around that time, I noticed three things. The first was that Loki wasn’t standing next to me. The second was that Erica hadn’t reacted at all to my sudden appearance. The third, and by far the most disturbing, was that I had no control over my body whatsoever. I couldn’t blink or look away from the tableau. I certainly couldn’t walk. I was still breathing, and my heart was still beating, but other than that I was immobile—and, in spite of the spike of fear that went through me at this realization, my breathing rate and heartbeat remained steady, no change at all.

 

As I watched, Loki moved into the scene. He wasn’t wearing the “normal person” persona now. His clothing, all dull blacks except for a single gold ring, was tailored to make his tall, thin frame even more noticeable, and while his hair was the same dark blond his eyes had gone to orange-and-green chaos. His voice, when he spoke, was deep and rich and had mad laughter dancing under the surface.

 

“You asked me for power, Reilly. Do you remember that?” he asked, moving forward into the center of my field of vision. Erica stood up, obviously taken by surprise, and turned to face him. It seemed like she was moving very slowly. “And I gave it to you! I gave you everything you asked for—power, knowledge, wealth, whatever, not that you had the imagination to ask for much. And all I asked for in return was that you obey one simple rule. Do you remember?”

 

She was afraid. Oh, she tried to hide it, but she wasn’t very good at it. She knew who she was talking to—she’d seen those eyes once before, and I’d told her who they belonged to—and even Erica was smart enough to fear Loki. “What do you want?” she asked, stammering very slightly. Huh. Maybe smarter than I’d thought.

 

“‘Anything unusual is to be reported immediately,'” Loki said, seeming to take a certain amount of relish in the words. “Is there some complexity to the statement that I don’t understand? Did you somehow think what I really meant was, ‘Unusual things can be sold to anyone I feel like?’ Did I perhaps fail, in spite of numerous repetitions and assurances, to make it clear that I was serious?”

 

“You disappeared! How was I supposed to tell you?” Erica protested. She sounded aggrieved, and just slightly too strenuous in her denial. She knew that she’d messed up, even if she wasn’t going to admit it to anyone but herself.

 

“Really,” Loki drawled sarcastically. “I’ve given you a lot of slack, Reilly. I’ve been willing to tolerate your idiotic greed, and it is idiotic, up to this point, because you were of marginal utility to me. As of right now, you are rapidly approaching the point of being a liability instead. Comments?”

 

“I…how could…what was I supposed to do?” Erica said, stammering more heavily now. She tried to retreat from Loki, only to find herself up against the edge of the desk after a mere two steps. “Look, I can make up for it! Just tell me what I have to do!”

 

Loki shook his head slowly. “No, I don’t think so. Your second chance has come and gone, and you failed. Furthermore, you demonstrated either abysmal stupidity or astonishing recklessness in ignoring my rule. I have little patience for either of those things—and none for failure. Goodbye, Reilly.” Without seeming to move at all, he was standing mere inches from her. He reached out and flicked her lightly on the forehead with one finger, then disappeared.

 

Erica sighed in relief, the tension running out of her body visibly. If I could have moved, I would have screamed at her in frustration. It’s never that easy, Loki’s never really finished with a person, she should have known that.

 

But then, Erica was never the sharpest.

 

Of course I couldn’t scream at her. My body was still on lockdown. I couldn’t even move my eyes, or close them.

 

As a result, my view of what happened next was much better than I would have liked. So much.

 

Take a raw tomato. Dip it in boiling water for a few seconds. Pull it out and drop it in a bowl of ice water. Watch the skin pull away, easy as anything, exposing wet red flesh underneath.

 

This was a lot like that. Except nastier. So so so much nastier.

 

I’ve seen some bad things, and I’ve done some bad things, and I generally think I have reason to think of myself as being something of a hard guy. And this made me want to cry, or vomit, or at least avert my eyes—not just because it was awful, but because there was something terribly intrusive about it, like accidentally seeing a stranger naked.

 

I couldn’t do anything of the sort, of course. My body was still firmly under Loki’s control. Oh, I fought it, of course I did, but it didn’t make a difference. A fly had as much chance of getting free of a sundew as I had of resisting Loki’s will made manifest.

 

Erica was dead. I knew that. I mean, anybody with any kind of medical knowledge will tell you that one of the most important things you can learn—and one of the hardest—is that there are things you can fix, and there are things you can’t, and no amount of wishing will make the one into the other. I knew just enough about the subject to know that Erica fell very firmly into the second category. I mean, she’d lost her skin. Her entire skin, at least as far as I could tell.

 

You don’t walk away from that. A healthy young human already in an emergency room wouldn’t live. A werewolf with the full moon and a pack in support wouldn’t survive it. A vampire might survive it, if you could call that survival, but I wasn’t sure even of that. And Erica was none of those things. Short of divine-level magic—which, thanks a lot and all, but I think we’ve got enough of that already—there was nothing I knew of that might save her life at this point.

 

I clarify this so that you understand what I mean when I say that my first impulse after the puking bit was to kill her. I didn’t have a weapon, but that isn’t really a serious impediment to a werewolf, not when the other guy’s half-dead already. It wasn’t that I bore Erica any particular ill will—she wasn’t my favorite person by a long shot, but I didn’t hate her that much. It was just that I don’t like suffering, mine or anyone else’s. Erica didn’t so much as whimper, and she didn’t so much as twitch, but I knew that having your skin ripped off had to hurt, and I knew that at this point a mercy kill was the only thing I could offer.

 

I couldn’t do that either. I was quite literally helpless to do anything but stand there and watch. It may have been the closest I’ve ever been to Hell.

 

My senses were never impaired, though it felt like they should have been. There are times when superhuman senses truly aren’t a gift, and this was one of them—but at least I could tell, a few minutes later, when Erica’s breathing stopped, and didn’t start again. It was the blood loss that did her in, which was a mercy. One-hundred-percent loss of skin was lethal, but if she hadn’t bled out she might well have lingered for days or even weeks before dehydration, infection, or septic shock finished the job.

 

Not a big mercy. Puny, in fact. Picayune. But still. A mercy.

 

So died Erica Reilly. She wasn’t a good person, at least not the way I saw things. She was greedy, shortsighted, and not infrequently almost unbelievably stupid. Had circumstances been slightly different I suspect I might have killed her myself. And yet, for all of that, I didn’t want to see her die, and would have helped her if I could.


 

Almost immediately after Erica’s death, I once again found myself elsewhere. As I had control of my body again, the first thing I did was to puke out the meal I’d just eaten. I took my time about it, and did a fairly thorough job.

 

“Oh, come on,” Loki said in an amused tone after a minute or so. “Don’t you think that’s a little excessive? It’s not as though you liked her.”

 

I looked up and saw the god standing a few feet away leaning on a graffiti-strewn brick wall. On some level I knew it wasn’t the smartest thing to do, but I still glared at him, and when I spoke the venom in my voice surprised me a little. “But I didn’t murder her,” I spat.

 

He looked at me evenly. “You might have, if I hadn’t. It’s not like you haven’t killed people you liked more.”

 

I didn’t have a lot of grounds to argue that one. “At least I would have done it quickly. And painlessly, if I could.”

 

“And?” he said. He sounded honestly confused.

 

I wanted to keep arguing with him—but, on some level, I recognized that it was pointless. Things like mercy and gentleness were quite simply not a part of his nature. He was ancient and inhuman, and to judge him by human standards was a waste of time and effort. Heck, I doubted he could even understand human values. “Never mind. Why did I have to see that?”

 

He grinned. “Well, now you know I don’t dislike you.” The implication was pretty clear; if he did dislike me, that was what I could expect.

 

It was a sobering reminder of what I was dealing with. Even talking with Loki was the equivalent of jumping up and down on an unexploded land mine.

 

He started walking down the alley. I followed him, because what else was I supposed to do? After a few seconds, I recognized it as being directly across from my lab. I could see the building, the familiar door replaced by one without a hole punched through it. “So,” Loki said, halting just before the mouth of the alley. “For entertaining me, you get a reward. Three more of those mage-children have made similar deals with me. I look forward to watching you figure out which ones.” He winked one forest-fire eye at me and disappeared, leaving me behind.

 

I had a lot to think about as I crossed the street.


 

I didn’t have time to think about it, of course. That’s how life goes.

 

Fenris was standing next to my door. He had his civilized human face more firmly in place today, and only my ability to smell magic (and the fact that I recognized his form, which—unlike his father—he never seemed to change) allowed me to recognize him for what he was.

 

He also looked rather smug. I wasn’t as worried about that as I was when Loki did it—Fenris had helped me out several times now, and he actually meant it—but it was still a little unsettling. Especially after seeing the way Pryce reacted to his presence. Forget old legends, that was spooky.

 

“Winter!” he called to me, not moving from his spot next to the door. “You made it!”

 

“Barely,” I agreed with a sigh. “What are you doing here?”

 

His grin spread wider. “Thought I’d give you the tour.”

 

Tour? What tour? I thought for a moment…and then froze as I realized that my lab building smelled of magic.

 

Now, that wasn’t too surprising, in itself. After all, the outside was covered in fae wards, and the inside was covered with my wards. I’d have been seriously worried if it didn’t smell of magic. But this was different, a new tone added to the mix. I wasn’t sure quite what it was—it was woven in very subtly, very smoothly, and I couldn’t pick out enough of a distinct marker to say for sure what it was supposed to do or who had cast it. All I knew was that the delicate blend of energies making up the aroma of “standing outside my laboratory door” was different, and not simply because Fenris was standing there.

 

Fenris, seeing my expression, smiled even more broadly, reached over, and opened the brand-new front door, revealing an impossibility.

 

The building was a small, worn down old house. It was one story tall, with nothing fancy about it whatsoever. The first room inside the door was a foyer, carefully set up to give off the “abandoned” air. I just about literally knew every inch of that room. When I looked through the door, that foyer was what I saw, perfect in every detail.

 

But when I stepped through, I found myself somewhere very different. I froze dead still and looked around in wonder as Fenris followed behind me and shut the door behind himself.

 

I’d never really done the mansion thing. So I don’t know what a typical entrance room—a room dedicated solely to being an entrance, I mean—really looks like. But I know that this one was pretty damned impressive.

 

It was around three stories tall, for one thing, with a great big vaulted ceiling overhead, and long enough that you could have built a small house in it without cramping. To either side of the door was a spiral staircase, elegant and seemingly unsupported, made from finest white marble, leading both up and down. The rest of the furniture was, if not quite as dramatic, equally nice. There were a number of chairs and couches, artfully arranged throughout the hall. I wasn’t sure whether to sigh or laugh when I saw that at the far end of the room was a marble dais with a small but genuine throne on it. There were several doors down both sides of the room.

 

The furniture was nothing short of lovely, all dark woods and bronze fittings. The upholstery was a mix of silk and velvet, all in shades of deep forest green, with a bit of leather (not green, thankfully) thrown in for variety. There were a handful of accents in blue, violet, and white, but for the most part green was clearly the order of the day.

 

It is not often that I am struck speechless. This did it.

 

Fenris laughed at my expression. “You like it?” he asked.

 

My mouth worked. Nothing came out. I eventually managed a “Wow.”

 

He laughed some more. “Come on,” he urged, sounding as excited as a kid with a new toy. He tugged gently at my sleeve, and proceeded to lead on one of the more impressive whirlwind tours of my life.

 

It quickly became apparent that my initial impression of “mansion” wasn’t far off. The entrance hall was the largest room, but there were a lot of them, and none was less than incredible. To the left of the throne room, as I immediately came to think of it, was a literal game room, by which I mean that I couldn’t see any purpose to it but games. The chess set—set into its own table, of course—was more white-and-black marble, flawless, with just enough variation between the pieces to be handmade, but not enough to have been made by anyone short of a master. There were also a number of card tables, billiards, tall glass-fronted cabinets holding more games, the works.

 

Behind the wall where the throne sat was a large indoor garden. The flooring here was dirt, with flagstones forming winding paths throughout. Here and there, marble planters provided a place for anything a person wanted to give special emphasis. Everything was empty—excepting a single long planter that wrapped around the outside wall of the garden, which was filled with a mix of goji and lingonberry, mingled together.

 

I’m sure Fenris had a reason for that. It just hasn’t occurred to me yet. Subtle symbolism is a fine thing, but I occasionally have to wonder whether these people are overdoing it a little bit.

 

I suspect you can guess a lot of the rest. The other side of the empty garden led into a kitchen, more marble, complete with top-quality everything. Even the knives had handmade hardwood handles. The dining room next to that, rounding out the ground floor, could have seated a banquet at the long oak table.

 

“This is incredible,” I said, following Fenris in a daze. He seemed content to just escort me through the place with that same silly grin rather than saying anything. “How’d you do this?”

 

“We’re actually on the Otherside,” he said with—entirely reasonable—pride. “This domain is permanently linked to your old lab, so you don’t have to worry about the time dilation. Don’t worry, though—it’ll only work for you and anyone with you, or people you specifically designate. And they won’t be able to bring anyone else in with them.”

 

Holy cow. I mean, wow. I couldn’t even imagine the complexity involved in that kind of magic. It’s one thing to know that you’re barely more than a child when it comes to magic, and that you’re talking to a literal god—but wow. It is entirely different to have it driven home.

 

Fenris seemed, again, content to give me all the time I wanted to absorb that while he showed me around the place. The basement had a laboratory, larger than the entire building I’d been using up until that point. I recognized most of the supplies there, including Legion’s skeleton, though the room itself was much nicer than my old lab. I mean, seriously, when even the labs get marble counters and hardwood worktables, you know you’re in a classy place.

 

More surprising was the armory right next to it. It was equally huge, and equally impressive. Strangely enough, it was softer and more welcoming than the rest of the mansion—more wood and cloth, less stone, gentler lighting (all of which, by the way, all through the house, was given off by simple stone panels enchanted to glow). One mannequin held my armor, another Aiko’s.

 

In between were scattered all sorts of weapons. There was a sizable gun rack, an equally impressive if rather more scarcely inhabited sword rack, and a long display case lined in green velvet with individual, tailored depressions where shorter blades rested. I also saw, as we walked through, a table covered in magical foci and stored spells, and another with various other small weapons and toys, and a large cabinet filled with ammunition of all types.

 

Granted it was all either my stuff or Aiko’s, but sheesh. I’d never seen it all in one place before. Now that I did, I had to admit it might be a wee bit excessive. I mean, at some point you have to acknowledge that your knife fetish is approaching pathological levels.

 

There was a lot more, but at some point the rooms started blending together in my head. Suffice to say that the second floor—no more marble, thankfully, although the hardwood and velvet were there to stay—was less impersonal than the ground floor. There were guest bedrooms, bathrooms, a library, and more than a few rooms whose purpose I couldn’t even guess. I suppose at some point you can’t think of any more, so you just start throwing in empty areas and hoping the tenant can think of something to do with it. Possibly the most remarkable—and, I must admit, slightly unsettling—section of the second floor was the trophy room.

 

A trophy room. Seriously. A trophy room. It wouldn’t have bothered me so much, except that there were actually trophies in there. Nothing grisly—certainly no animal heads, thank Fenris—but still. I’m not the kind of guy who has trophies. Come on.

 

Anyway, I guess I was getting kind of numb by that point. It was just too much stimulation in too short a time, especially right after waking up. Besides, going from a cot under the lab table to this was a little too much to really accept right away. I’d never in my adult life lived anywhere more extravagant than a cabin. The idea of living in this massive, well-appointed mansion was too much to take in.

 

Which is why I wasn’t expecting much different from the third floor. Well…I was wrong.

 

I’d more than slightly expected the massive bedroom, and I wasn’t far off on the details, either. Thick green carpet, bronze-and-wood furniture, wooden paneling, check, check, check. Granted, the paneling was rosewood instead of more ebony or walnut, which was nice—comfy, rather than impressive. And the bed was a massive four-poster complete with curtains—curtains! on a bed!—which, I have to admit, was more than slightly surprising given that I didn’t think beds like that actually existed. All of which paled when I saw a heap of silver fur at the foot of said bed.

 

I started to walk over and say hello to Snowflake—somehow I was unsurprised she’d adjusted to the new digs faster than I would—but was stopped by Fenris’s outstretched arm. “She needs her rest,” he murmured to me.

 

For a second I was confused. Then I saw another, smaller canine curled up in the exact center of the ridiculously large bed. This one was red, and looked to be so solidly asleep that a decent-sized explosion wouldn’t do much. My heart lurched a little at the sight, to indulge in an overused yet strangely appropriate expression—not an unwelcome surprise, but a very unexpected one.

 

It says a lot about how stunned and overwhelmed I was, that it didn’t occur to me until that point what the ramifications were of living on the Otherside. Aiko was allowed to be here.

 

I allowed Fenris to usher me back downstairs without complaint. “The tomte moves in tomorrow,” he said to me. “Don’t try and spy on him while he works and you shouldn’t have any issues with cleaning or maintenance. And I’ve arranged for grocery deliveries—it might not be the most variety, but I can promise everything will be fresh.”

 

What do you say to something like that? I have no idea. Anything I could come up with seemed inadequate. So I settled on “Thank you,” and hoped that it could convey all the rest.

 

Fenris seemed to understand. He looked at me, and smiled slightly. “Good job, Winter,” he said, opening the front door. It looked out on the same street in the same bad neighborhood as my lab’s door always did. “I’m proud of you.”


 

After that, pretty much all that was left was wrapping up. I didn’t hear from Bryan again. I did get a card from, of all people, Ash Sanguinaria, which I sure as heck didn’t see coming. It was meticulously handwritten in plain black ink, and very serious. The contents weren’t anything too remarkable—she had enjoyed meeting me, she was glad I wasn’t as dead as expected, she hoped to talk to me again, etc.

 

I’m reasonably confident that she didn’t know that someone, presumably a less serious fellow student, included another piece of paper in the envelope. It was written in a much more spontaneous way (by which I mean the handwriting wasn’t that good, and there were a lot of misspellings and crossed out words), and told me not to take Ash’s demeanor too seriously, because it was mostly an act.

 

I don’t know whether that’s true. But it made me smile, and I actually do hope I see her again. That’s unusual—most of the time, after I meet someone new, I wish I believed in God, just so I could pray to never encounter them again. It doesn’t work, of course but it might make me feel better.

 

Just look at Carraig. I mean, sheesh, I’m sure I never want to see him again, and equally sure he’ll stick his nose in again at an inopportune time. He’ll probably have moved on to keelhauling or something by then.

 

But hey! It could be worse. I mean, I’m alive, Snowflake’s alive, Aiko’s alive, everything else you can live with, right? We’ve got a kickass mansion all to ourselves (needless to say I’ve been taking certain measures to ensure that. In fact, I feel rather sorry for anybody unlucky enough to try breaking in, given that Aiko and Snowflake pitched in on the defenses. Those two scare me when they get going, and I frankly think the bit with the dental floss was a bit over the top).

 

As for the rest, well, I’m currently pretending it doesn’t exist. Oh, I know I can’t pull that off forever, but for right now? I think we all deserve a bit of a rest.

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Pier drew his monster of a sword slowly. It shone in the moonlight, and flickered oddly as he spun it lightly in his hands.

 

Fortunately, at least in the weapons department, I wasn’t outclassed. Tyrfing sang as it slipped free of the scabbard, gentle and suffused with the promise of death. Its surface was bright as a mirror, and in the eerie half-light of the moon and the storm it almost seemed that it was reflecting a bit too much light to be just a reflection.

 

There was a moment of silence, much like that which had accompanied the Sidhe lady’s appearance, when I drew my sword. Tyrfing was a mighty sword, and its appearance on any battlefield was the sort of thing that demanded respect—and got it, even from the Wild Hunt.

 

That probably should have scared me more than it did.

 

Pier and I began to slowly circle one another. The mask of storm and shadow still wreathed his body, making it hard to say for sure, but I thought he seemed a lot less angry than I would have anticipated. Resigned, perhaps, would be a better word. Like…he didn’t regret what was about to happen, but he wasn’t going to celebrate it either.

 

After a minute or so of this, with the low growling of the hounds the only soundtrack to the fight, Pier attacked. He closed the distance between us faster than anyone his size should have been able to move, let alone somebody wearing heavy armor, and launched the same diagonal strike he’d used to start the fight with Carraig.

 

Like Carraig before me, I ducked easily away to the rear. I didn’t bother trying to parry; Pier was twice my size, a champion of the Sidhe, and wreathed in the power of the Wild Hunt besides. The only thing matching my strength to his was likely to do was rip my arms off. Better to dodge.

 

He was obviously expecting the move, because he immediately turned the slash into a cross-body thrust at my chest. This blow I could parry—not pitting my strength against his directly, but striking perpendicularly to the direction of his strike while stepping sideways. Like Carraig’s sword, his weapon was apparently immune to Tyrfing’s edge. Shame.

 

“Not bad,” Pier said, falling back out of range of any counterattack. I took several steps back as well—his sword was rather longer than mine, after all.

 

“I don’t get it,” I said, watching him warily. The storm would make it harder to see the telltale cues before he attacked. “You saved my life from Carraig.”

 

“I thought that you’d lead me to the spear,” he said, shifting the sword to a higher guard.

 

“That doesn’t make a lot of sense, you know,” I pointed out. “It was pretty clear that I was looking for it for myself. Why would you want me to find it before you?”

 

I thought for a second that he would answer me. Instead he lunged forward, cutting horizontally at his shoulder height—halfway up my head, in other words. I was a little too slow dodging, and had to interpose Tyrfing between me and the attack. As I’d expected, the force of the huge man’s swing tore it from my hand, but it gave me time to fall back and the sword passed over my head.

 

Pier pressed the attack, stepping forward and bringing his blade back around to stab at me while I was lying on the ground. I had no idea how he could move that monster of a sword around so quickly and effortlessly—his strength had to be almost unimaginable.

 

Fortunately, there’s more than one way to fight. I flung shadow and air at his foot just as it started to move, knocking it sideways behind his other leg. A textbook perfect foot-sweep, executed with magic. He didn’t fall, but he stumbled and the would-be killing stroke fell far short. I had plenty of time to scramble to my feet and recover Tyrfing.

 

“Maybe I didn’t want Carraig killing you,” Pier admitted.

 

“Why not?” I asked, genuinely curious. A failing of mine, perhaps, that I was obsessed with figuring out why things were happening when it would have been smarter to worry about surviving the next five minutes.

 

Pier stepped closer, forcing me to retreat. Much farther and I’d run into the line of hounds. “I loved your mother,” he said, low enough that not even the dogs would hear and cold enough to make the night air look like a sauna.

 

I feinted at his face. He batted Tyrfing casually from my hands—I was barely even trying to hold onto the thing, at this point—but I used the time it bought to circle around him, giving myself room to maneuver. “Then why call the Hunt against me?” I asked, summoning Tyrfing once again. That was an excellent trick, and I had to admit that maybe I was actually grateful to Val for giving me the sword. Cursed or not, Tyrfing had served me admirably.

 

“She never loved me, of course,” Pier continued, taking no notice of my question. He lunged at me, holding the huge sword one-handed, but he was so far overextended I could deflect it easily enough, and even riposte. “But she never lied about it. And she was willing to play around.”

 

I shuddered and cut at his legs, mostly to interrupt that sentence. I so didn’t want to hear the details of what my mother got up to with the champion of Daylight. I mean, I knew enough sordid stories about her sexual exploits already to make me nauseous whenever I thought about it. I did not need another.

 

Pier stepped away from the attack easily, and cut down at my hands. I dropped Tyrfing and jerked back out of the way. His sword hit the ground and sank three feet into it, having as much difficulty cutting into the rocky earth as most blades have with the resistance of jelly. It wouldn’t last long, but for just a moment his sword was trapped, and I took advantage of it. Tyrfing came easily to my call, and I brought the cursed sword down in an attack on his hand. I didn’t cut it off—Pier was uncannily fast even by my standards—but I nicked one of his fingers. First blood to me—and, better yet, now I knew that Tyrfing would penetrate both the storm and the armor without difficulty.

 

Not surprising, really. There isn’t much that can resist Tyrfing’s edge. But it was good to be sure.

 

Pier snatched his sword back up before I could press the advantage any further, and danced away. “I suppose I feel like I owe her,” he said, circling around again. I moved with him, so that the distance between us remained constant.

 

I raised one eyebrow behind my helmet. “And yet you brought the Wild Hunt here to kill me.”

 

He snorted, moving the sword’s point through small patterns in the air. The cut to his finger didn’t seem to be bothering him at all, and in fact now that I thought about it I couldn’t smell blood anymore—or, at least, not more than the background magic of the Hunt. He’d healed already, healed a cut made by Tyrfing no less. Wonderful. “That’s why. I don’t know whether she’d want vengeance, but it’s the least I can do.”

 

I blinked, and almost lost a hand because of it when Pier attacked without warning. I barely dodged out of the way in time. “Vengeance? For what?” I was starting to run out of breath and it probably would have been smarter to conserve it for the fighting, but I’ve never been too smart where my curiosity is concerned.

 

That’s the source of a lot of my problems, actually, now that I think about it.

 

“Killing her, maybe?” he said.

 

“My mother was a suicide,” I spat, thrusting at his abdomen. He batted the attack aside with his hand, not even bothering with the sword.

 

“Suicide?” he said mockingly, stepping back out of range. “Yes, I suppose that’s what they would have told you. Wouldn’t do to hurt your feelings, after all.”

 

“What are you getting at?” I asked, falling back as well. I wanted to be sure that I heard what he had to say before the fight was over, either way.

 

“You never met her,” he said, voice dripping venom. “But I know you’ve heard stories. If you’ve any of her brains you must have thought that the story they told you doesn’t make a lot of sense.” He snorted again. “Suicide in slow-motion? Carmine Vilkas, dead of a broken heart for someone she spent one night with? I don’t think so.”

 

“What would you know?” I snarled. I was somewhat surprised at the depth of my own emotion; I’d always thought that her death didn’t bother me all that much—I’d never known her, after all—but apparently I’d been wrong. It occurred to me, somewhat belatedly, that neither of us was keeping his voice down.

 

“I don’t know what your father was,” Pier said, and his voice wasn’t calm either. “And I’ve no idea what sort of monster you are. But I know a parasite when I see one.” He started stalking closer to me.

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“Exactly what I said!” he roared, loud enough to hurt. “You’re a leech, and she died because of it! You took something from her, and the more you grew the more she lost. But it was never enough!”

 

“No,” I stammered. Glancing back, I saw that I was once again almost to the edge of the ring. I heard the hounds behind me growling, snarling. “No, you’re lying.”

 

Pier laughed. “Tell yourself whatever you please.” He was close enough, now, to attack, and he did.

 

It quickly became clear that he was done with talking, and ready for the fight to be over. If I’d thought he was fast before, now it became clear that he had been slacking off. Now he wasn’t, and he moved almost too fast to see.

 

In the first five seconds he attacked me twenty-three times. That included fifteen sword blows, five unarmed attacks—which, of course, would have been every bit as lethal had they connected, given how unimaginably strong he was—and three magical attacks. Of those last, two involved fire, and the last was a beam of light that I felt sure would have burned like a laser. I dodged it, fortunately, and it dissipated when it struck the wall of storm around us.

 

I have no idea how I survived that barrage. I was once again moving on instinct, not thinking at all, and while I know exactly what he tried to do to me I cannot for the life of me say what I did to avoid it. By the time we came apart, I’d lost Tyrfing—a few times, I think—and I was bleeding from several wounds, none of them life-threatening. He’d broken a couple ribs when he connected with a knee, even through the armor.

 

But I was alive. And not all the blood I could smell was mine, so I must have nicked him again in there somewhere.

 

Pier was finally starting to show some signs of wear—apparently even he was stressed by that flurry of attacks, because he was breathing heavily, and his guard wasn’t quite as perfect as it had been before.

 

That wasn’t quite as comforting as it might have been, because I was undoubtedly still the worse off by a wide margin. I was panting, and even with the full moon the cuts to my left shoulder and right shin would be moderately incapacitating, and of course the ribs had the potential to be a serious inconvenience.

 

In other words, things looked bad. I’d been playing Pier’s game, and now that he was playing seriously it was very clear that I would lose. I couldn’t survive another onslaught like that, and he looked plenty capable of launching one.

 

So. That meant I had to change the game.

 

I backpedaled fast, almost to the other edge of the ring. Pier looked at me, and even with the mask and the armor anger was writ large in every line of his body. He charged straight at me—no words now, no careful exchanges. This wasn’t a play fight anymore.

 

Perfect.

 

I concentrated. I would have to time this perfectly for it to have any chance of success. At a thought the wind picked up, blowing into my face. The air around me dropped a couple of degrees, and I felt my mouth spread into a cold smile. “Ten thousand years of winter,” I murmured, and wrapped the freshly forming frost around my fingers. Feathers of frost spread in seconds across my body, down Tyrfing’s length, onto the ground at my feet.

 

It was that last one I was concerned about. Pier was around ten feet away, his sword upraised, and moving fast. I concentrated on a thought I still barely understood, and the frost around me spread further, turned in places to ice.

 

Pier was fast, strong, and skilled, and I don’t doubt that he could have killed me. He was furious, too, enough to do it without a first thought, let alone a second. But, like some werewolves I’d known, he let that fury blind him. Being too angry to see straight can be an asset in a fight, occasionally, but it seldom helps a person think clearly.

 

It definitely wasn’t helping Pier right now.

 

I waited until he was only a few feet away, until the sword had already started the downswing, before I moved. I didn’t try and fight. I dove sideways to the ground instead, simultaneously throwing a surge of magic behind the wind, whipping it up into a gale. It was very localized, and it would only last a moment—I wasn’t strong enough to muster anything more.

 

It was enough. Pier tried to turn to face me, where he would have plenty of time to run me through on the ground, but his own supernatural speed worked against him. He had so much momentum, aided by the tailwind I’d so thoughtfully given him, that he couldn’t turn on a dime.

 

I was suddenly reminded of the demon-possessed werewolf, the only thing I’d ever fought that could possibly have matched Pier in terms of sheer strength. Like him, it hadn’t been able to perfectly control its own momentum once it really got going.

 

Of course, back then I hadn’t been able to produce patches of ice on the ground on an otherwise warm night.

 

Pier’s foot hit the ice slick just as he was turning his forward momentum into a turn. For those of you who haven’t had the joy of experiencing something similar, trying to turn at speed while on ice isn’t a very good idea. Predictably enough, his foot went out from under him.

 

Of course, he still had a lot of momentum. And the ground was quite slick, what with all the frost and ice on it. So, rather than bounce straight back to his feet, Pier slid.

 

Into the storm.

 

I couldn’t see what happened, then. But I could hear it. It didn’t sound nice. Not nice at all, in fact.

 

I moved back out to the center of the ring, and finally did what I should have done to begin with. That is to say, I used my brain.

 

Pier was vastly my superior in physical combat. That was obvious. I couldn’t continue to fight him like this and hope to survive—and he wouldn’t fall for that trick with the ice again. That was for sure. He might not be the sharpest tool in the shed, but he wouldn’t have lasted five minutes with the Sidhe without some kind of brain.

 

But he wasn’t omnipotent. And, as the sounds from the cloud bank started dying down, I realized something. Pier hadn’t, at any point, pulled the weird short-range teleportation he and Carraig had employed so extensively while fighting each other. Now, in the early stages, that made a certain amount of sense—he hadn’t wanted to kill me all that much, clearly. But now? He wasn’t playing softball. So why no teleportation?

 

I thought maybe it was because he couldn’t. I mean, the only way I could think of to work that sort of ability was to use the same mechanism as a portal to the Otherside. Oh, not exactly—but everything I’d ever learned about magic suggested that just flat-out manipulating the fabric of space was impossible. Or, if not outright impossible, nigh-impossibly difficult. Portals avoid that difficulty by exploiting the fluidity of the border between my world and the Otherside—but even on the Otherside, with its bizarre approach to geography, I’d never seen or heard of a portal from one place to another within the same domain.

 

So, if I was right, Carraig’s shadow walking trick had been essentially the same thing, in a different way—taking advantage of his role as an avatar of Midnight to walk from one shadow to another through the medium of Faerie.

 

Pier couldn’t do that, not now. Because to do so would, in some measure, be to leave the area set aside for our duel, even if he exited and reappeared within it.

 

I grinned and saw what I had been doing wrong. I tossed Tyrfing aside.

 

Just in time, too. Pier walked back out of the storm cloud at more-or-less the same time I had my realization. And he looked like hell.

 

In spite of everything, I had to admit a certain amount of pity for the big man. He was quite literally dripping—both normal, human blood, and something that looked like liquid shadow touched with lightning from the tears in the Wild Hunt’s mask. Parts of his armor, visible where the shroud of storm had faded, were missing. In most cases the gaps revealed burns, but I also saw a few puncture wounds, at least one of which was too big to have been made by teeth. Even werewolf teeth.

 

Note to self: don’t try to leave the ring. The Hunt wouldn’t take it kindly.

 

The injuries were terrible. They would have killed a human, no doubt about it. Even a werewolf, even tonight, would have likely been incapacitated. Even Pier noticed them. His sword was missing a chunk from the hilt, which appeared to have been bitten off, but he was still carrying it, and looking very angry. If he was moving slower now than before, it was clearly because he didn’t want to get burned again.

 

I didn’t waste time talking. Instead, as soon as I could see him clearly, I threw the object in my left hand at his feet.

 

Light is a very simple thing to produce with magic. I mean, magic is defined by thought, right? Well, pure light’s something very easy to think about. It’s easy to concentrate on, which makes it easy to work with. I’m not very good with it, just like I’m not good with almost everything else. Using it in a fight was probably a waste of time.

 

But that all changes when you’re talking about a stored spell instead of something cast spontaneously. With a stored spell, all the work is put in on the front end, meaning you have all the time you need. That takes a lot of the stress out.

 

The clear marble I’d just thrown was one of the simpler spells I’d made. It was designed to trigger on impact, and to do nothing fancy. It would just burst into light.

 

Very, very bright light.

 

I turned my face away and closed my eyes in time. It was still bright enough to see through my eyelids. Pier, who hadn’t had any such forewarning, was caught by the full brunt of the light. When I opened my eyes again, he was standing still, one hand outstretched. I didn’t think blindness would slow him down—heck, even I could function on other senses—but it had stunned him momentarily. It had stopped him, however briefly, in his tracks.

 

Which meant he wasn’t watching closely enough to stop me from throwing what was in my right hand. Namely, Tyrfing.

 

Throwing your sword in a fight is a bad idea. It’s a terrible idea. But Tyrfing isn’t a normal sword, and as such it isn’t subject to the same limitations as a normal sword. For one thing, the curse on it ensures that bad things happen to whosoever has the bad luck to be near it, which means that you don’t have to worry about a bad bounce or it twisting in the air—throw it at someone, and that someone will probably get stuck.

 

For another, I could always recall it to hand. That alone takes throwing it at the enemy from an insanely stupid tactic to a quite workable one.

 

I did not, of course, leave it at that. I also drew a knife in my left hand and threw that. And a rock.

 

As I watched, the giant fell. It was more akin to watching a tree fall than anything I associated with people. A few moments later, the shroud of the Wild Hunt flowed away, fading into the background storm. I walked over to inspect my handiwork.

 

As I’d expected, Tyrfing alone almost certainly would have been lethal—a yard of powerfully cursed steel through your lung can do that to a person. I cursed when I saw that—I would have preferred to ask him whether he was lying about my mother, but I wasn’t going to be asking Pier anything. Ever again. Or, more accurately, I wouldn’t be getting an answer—I could ask all I wanted, he was just too dead to reply. The knife, which had hit one of the large gaps the Hunt had left in his armor, had hit blade-first and slipped between his ribs—assisted, undoubtedly, by Tyrfing. A spinning knife is just random enough for an entropy curse to affect.

 

This is also, of course, why the stone had bounced off his breastplate straight up under his helmet and shattered his jaw. Even if he hadn’t died instantly, there was no way he could have spoken.

 

I collapsed to the ground next to him. I felt almost too exhausted to move. I’d been throwing around a lot of magic, tonight, and between that, the injuries, the exertion, and the fact that I still wasn’t totally recovered from being crucified, I was pretty much wiped out.

 

Around me, the hounds went from sullen growling to outright howling. A moment later, the Sidhe with the white horse rode out into the open space. “Excellent,” she murmured, looking down at Pier’s dead body with unmistakable satisfaction.

 

I looked up at her, although now that the adrenaline was fading even that much movement was an effort. “I take it you’re satisfied with how things turned out, then, Scáthach?”

 

“How did you guess?” she asked me, a laugh like the loveliest of bells playing a dirge underneath the surface of her voice.

 

“Pier couldn’t have called the Wild Hunt himself,” I said dully. “And they weren’t really trying to kill me, from the start.” I stared off into the night, still shrouded from view by the Hunt’s porta-storm. “You were happy to see him dead.” I shrugged listlessly. “Seemed like a reasonable guess.”

 

She laughed delightedly. “So! A fine mind, for one so young. Perhaps my sister was right about you.”

 

“Your sister?” I asked. I realized I sounded almost as monotone, in my exhaustion, as Bryan did all the time. If I hadn’t been so damned tired it would almost have been funny.

 

Scáthach did something which, in a being of less refinement, I might have called a shrug. “No matter. Congratulations on your victory, Master Wolf.”

 

“I didn’t win,” I said softly. “He lost.” I knew, without even a shadow of doubt, that Pier’s death was in large measure his own fault. If he’d taken things seriously from the start, or restrained his anger later on, I’d have been dead meat.

 

“Perhaps,” the goddess said, and I got the distinct impression that she knew exactly what I meant. “Even so, you are alive and he is dead. Is that not worth celebration?”

 

I sighed. “I used to think so. But every time I see someone die, I become less sure.”

 

“An unusual attitude for a werewolf.”

 

The saddest part, of course, was that it was true. I couldn’t work up the energy to reply, and I wasn’t sure what possible response I could have to something like that.

 

“We will hunt elsewhere, this night,” Scáthach promised me. And then, without fanfare of any kind (Loki could stand to profit by that example), the Wild Hunt was gone, taking Pier’s body with it.

 

I couldn’t seem to care enough to move, so I slept in the bloody dirt right there.

 

My dreams were, of course, of the nightmarish variety.

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She was wearing the same stormy shroud as the other members of the Wild Hunt. In spite of that, she was impossible to mistake. I mean, seriously, I’d spent how long around her now? Two years or so, maybe? I knew her pretty well, is what I’m saying. Well enough to see her identity in the lines of her body, the color and pattern of her fur where it was exposed by the shifting, swirling storm clouds.

 

Of course, the eyes helped. In particular the fact that where the right one should have been there was only a network of horrific scars and a hollow, staring pit filed with lightning. She wasn’t wearing an eyepatch now, and as a result looked more than slightly creepy, even to me.

 

Oddly enough, I could feel her presence in my mind just like always, though it was a heck of a lot more muddled and confusing than usual—that’s why I hadn’t noticed before, I expect. The Snowflake I knew and loved was there, and I could feel a horror from her that was nothing less than heartrending. But overwriting that was the wolf bound, on a very deep level, to her psyche. Usually he was a hardly-detectable presence even to me. He might converse with Snowflake—I don’t pry into that relationship, because it’s freaky even by my standards—but otherwise he was just an observer. Except for tonight, apparently; his presence, dominating Snowflake’s, was about an even mixture between the thrill of the hunt and, like Snowflake, a horror at the fact that I was the quarry of it. The wolf is, if anything, more dedicated to me than she is. He thinks of me as his savior.

 

Both of them, though, were subsumed by the film of the Hunt itself. It was what was directing her movements, clouding her mind with thoughts of blood and death until she was helpless to keep from attacking—in much the same way, I realized suddenly, as my own more remorselessly predatory nature had been directing me, until the sight of her shocked me out of it.

 

She charged at me where I crouched near the back of the pocket. I could hear a high, heartbroken keening in my mind, but her body just panted eagerly. I knew then that there was nothing, but nothing, she could do to stop herself from killing me.

 

That’s the horrible part about magical compulsion—which, I felt quite sure, was what I was looking at now. It isn’t a case of talking to the real person, who you know is buried in there somewhere, and them fighting their way free. I wished it was that pleasant, but it quite simply wasn’t. True, for-real compulsion was coming back to yourself after you’ve killed your best friend, and realizing that they not only made you do it, they made you enjoy it.

 

There’s nothing you can do when somebody vastly more powerful gets you in a lock like that. Nothing.

 

I had no choice. Running was out of the question—my planned escape route was still an option, but it would take far too long, and I knew perfectly well how high she could jump.

 

I tensed my muscles, my mouth dropping open, Snowflake’s voice rising inside my mind to a scream that exceeded auditory comparisons and dissolved into pure raw emotion as she got ready to leap and I got ready to intercept her and—

 

—and stopped, wrestling my psycho-killer-wolf aspect back into a subordinate position.

 

Because the truth is, whatever they might try and tell you, you always have a choice. Always. Oh, I suppose there are cases where you truly don’t, but let’s face it, if you find yourself in a situation where you literally don’t have even a single choice, you’re not you anymore. You’re a puppet without a mind—because, of course, even beliefs and emotions are a sort of a choice.

 

I could kill Snowflake—my dog, my best friend, who trusted me implicitly, who had sacrificed more for me than I could even imagine. I could do it. It would be easy. She was more than a husky, but I was more than a werewolf, and the full moon was in the sky. Besides, she wasn’t performing at her peak—someone who hates what they’re doing almost never does.

 

I could kill her, and save my life by doing so.

 

But in that moment, I finally realized something. There were no words attached, just a single concept coalescing all at once in an instant.

 

Caller had asked me what I wanted. And in that moment the answer wasn’t money, or fame, or power, or even survival. Not at that cost.

 

It had been half my life since I looked in the mirror and didn’t see a monster looking back. And in that time, what had I done? Fallen pretty damn far, hadn’t I? I mean, a while ago a man who used to be my friend straight up told me that I’d gone so far to the dark side that he thought the jury was still out on whether I was actually a monster that stole the original Winter’s face. More disturbingly yet, I couldn’t really argue all that much.

 

And now I was getting ready to do something that would relegate me to a whole new category of evil by betraying the one person who, out of all the world, trusted me without reservation.

 

That wasn’t what I wanted. I never wanted that.

 

I suppose that’s the simplest way to phrase it, really. I wanted to be able to look at my hands without seeing the blood on them. Just once, I wanted to be the person who did the right thing instead of the necessary one.

 

So no. I wasn’t going to kill Snowflake. Because you had to draw the line at some point.

 

I met her eyes with mine—one blue, one stormy. I let out my breath in a sigh. And, for maybe the first time in two years, I felt, not happy, but…at peace. It wasn’t how I’d wanted to go out—if nothing else, I hated how much it would hurt Snowflake to do it—but there are worse things than dying.

 

And right then is when some bastard seized me by the scruff of the neck and turned the world into a goddamn Tilt-a-Whirl. Because obviously that couldn’t have happened before the disturbing psychological revelations.

 

It was impossible to keep track of what happened. Perspective shifted and spun too fast—every time I blinked I seemed to be looking at something different, and no single view lasted long enough to make sense of. I was falling, running, jumping, and swimming all at once.

 

After maybe twenty repetitions, everything stopped and, naturally, my head started spinning instead. I took two steps before puking. It was pretty much exactly as unpleasant as I had anticipated.

 

“Hurry it up,” Carraig said, sounding tense and jittery. “They’ll be on us soon. Five minutes tops.”

 

I heaved myself to my feet and looked out over the valley. I’d never been here before, but I nevertheless had no difficulty figuring out where we were. I’d seen the broad, low, rock-strewn hilltop overlooking the valley from a reasonable distance a dozen times or so.

 

I stared. Five minutes? To bring thirty horses up game trails, with at least a thousand feet elevation gain in a few miles?

 

Carraig smiled thinly. “You’ve no idea how fast they can be when they want to.” He stared out over the expanse. “Start changing,” he said abruptly.

 

I wasn’t sure why he thought that would be a good idea—but, hey, my attempt hadn’t exactly gone to plan, and it wasn’t like I had a whole heck of a lot to lose. Besides, full moon or not, I didn’t think for a moment that I would live if he decided to kill me. It was hard—the wolf was fighting me for control, urging me to go out and resume the hunt, any hunt, encouraged by the moon—but I initiated the change back to my more normal form.

 

Carraig nodded approvingly. “The Hunt can draw you in,” he said by way of explanation. “You were getting pretty close towards the end there. Much further, you might not have made it out.”

 

I shivered slightly—not recommended in the middle of shifting, by the way—and pressured my body to change faster. It was hard, terribly hard beneath the staring eye of the full moon, but I had a lot of practice at focusing my will.

 

This was getting to be a little much, though. I mean, I could see the first one, that was a pretty obvious call, but the second? What, was he capable of reading my mind?

 

“Only a little,” he assured me, staring off into the middle distance. “And that’s more than usual.” He hissed softly. “We’re going to have to bolt for it. Sorry about that.” He grabbed me by the scruff of the neck again, paying no attention to my gurgled sound of pain, and there was another round of whirlwind transitions. It was, if anything, a lot less fun than the last. On the bright side, I didn’t throw up this time.

 

The dim side was, of course, that this was primarily because my esophagus wasn’t in working order. But hey, there was a silver lining involved.

 

After that, I had plenty of motivation to finish the change as fast as inhumanly possible. Strangely enough the prospect of being yanked around by the neck while in the middle of rearranging my bodily structures was enough to convince me. I guess I’m easy that way.

 

“I don’t understand,” I panted a minute or two later, blinking away tears. That had been a very unpleasant change. “I thought you wanted me dead.”

 

On the other hand, the instant I was human again the Second Sight cut off like a faucet. That was more than a minor relief. I was just glad that the universe had been merciful enough not to show me Carraig—or, even worse, Snowflake—through that particular lens. A primal force of the grim side of nature was one thing, but looking at people was infinitely more unsettling.

 

He gave me a perplexed look. “Dead? What gave you that idea?”

 

I stared. Then I held up one hand and pointed at the wrist—where, I might add, the crucifixion scars were still quite visible. Fenris had done me a real favor there, but they hadn’t healed significantly since that point, leaving an easily noticeable whitish indentation.

 

“That wouldn’t have killed you,” he said, sounding aggrieved. “It was just supposed to keep you out of the game for a while. Didn’t expect the dog to find you.” He squinted out at the valley—we were relatively high on the side of the hill looking out over it, by the way. “Guess she’s paying it back sooner than she expected.”

 

“Wait, what?”

 

He glanced at me. “You saw her. You didn’t think the Wild Hunt just took random dogs off the street, did you?”

 

Wow. I hadn’t even thought about it, but he was telling the truth. Practically the first lesson they teach you about the fae (right after “stay the hell away from the fae”) was that it’s always about bargains, giving one thing up in exchange for another. “Are you saying—” I began.

 

“Later,” he said, cutting me off effortlessly. “The Wild Hunt isn’t going to put up with this much longer. We need to get out of here.”

 

I stared. “What do you mean? You can’t just run away from the Wild Hunt.”

 

“No,” he said testily. “But you can put enough distance between you and them that they get bored and go after someone else.” He held his hand out toward me.

 

I stared for a moment, then sighed. I hate it when, right after you’ve made up your mind to do the noble self-sacrificing thing, after much agonizing, somebody comes along and offers you a fresh new deal with the devil. It’s like getting gut-punched at the end of an exhalation. “No,” I said, feeling very tired.

 

He stood, hand still outstretched, something that I suppose you could call a smile on his face. “No?”

 

“No,” I said. “I’m not leaving without Snowflake.”

 

“I can’t carry both of you through shadow,” he said testily.

 

I shrugged. “Get her, then.”

 

“That’s not a high-value move for me,” he said. “Especially considering the danger involved in snatching someone away from the Wild Hunt.”

 

I thought for a moment. “I’ll give you the Gáe Bolg in return,” I said.

 

“You have it?” he asked. I did not miss the sudden note of avarice in his voice.

 

“No,” I said, which was technically true in the immediate sense—I got the distinct impression that answering yes to that question could be highly hazardous to my health. “But I know just where it is, and no one else does. Get Snowflake out of here, without inflicting upon her physically or mentally anything that I or she would regard as harm, and it’s yours.”

 

“I get the spear first,” he said.

 

“Your word on it.”

 

“I give you my word,” he said, his voice more heavily accented than usual and quite serious, “that upon obtaining the Gáe Bolg I will find the being known as Snowflake, and will remove her from the sphere of the Wild Hunt, without harming her as per your conditions.”

 

“And return her,” I said, “to me, or in the event of my death or imprisonment, to the city of Colorado Springs.”

 

He nodded. “Aye, even so.”

 

“Swear it.”

 

His eyes glinted and I got the distinct impression that he was not happy about even that much of an aspersion, but he didn’t protest. “I swear,” he said in an even if somewhat hungry tone, “upon my honor, to rescue your companion as we have just outlined. May Scáthach strike me down if I lie.”

 

Well, that settled that. For anyone in the supernatural world to break a sworn oath was highly unusual. For someone associated with the fae to do so would be unprecedented. For Carraig to break an oath sworn on his patron goddess’s name would be…a highly entertaining way to commit suicide.

 

Entertaining for Scáthach, I mean. For Carraig, well, not so much. The Sidhe, like most divine and quasi-divine beings, are noted for both creativity and a total lack of proportion when it comes to the revenging, and they take their rep seriously.

 

I nodded and took his hand. “Fair enough,” I said.


 

Getting to where I’d hidden the spear was a bit of fun, given that I didn’t understand Carraig’s mode of transport well enough to give him really specific directions. It didn’t help that I hadn’t been there at night in several years. Shadow-walking was fast enough, though, that it still took only a few minutes to get there.

 

I felt a certain satisfaction when Carraig didn’t see the spear on his own. Granted my precautions hadn’t been as necessary as I anticipated, but it was good to know that they would have worked.

 

Fortunately, I’d memorized where to look. I fished around in the crack for a moment, then pulled my cloak out. Underneath, I saw something incredible.

 

The Gáe Bolg was…still there. I mean, I’d more than slightly expected that someone had already stolen it and left the cloak to mock me. I was even ready for Carraig to get seriously pissed at me for leading him on, kill me in a slow and unpleasant way, and leave Snowflake to her fate. But no, the long steel shaft was still there.

 

Carraig, moving faster than I’d thought possible for flesh-and-blood entities, darted over and snatched it up. A beatific smile spread across his face, and he cradled the ancient weapon to his chest. If he felt the same numbing effect I had, he didn’t show it at all. Not surprising, really; his was, if I understood things correctly, the role which traditionally used the damn thing.

 

“I’ll be going, then,” he said.

 

“Wait,” I said frantically.

 

Shockingly, he actually did. Wow, this was just my lucky night. “What is it?”

 

“I don’t suppose you could drop me off where I stashed my stuff on the way?” I asked. Now that my more rational, planning-oriented side was back in charge, I could actually remember what the original intent of said plan had been.

 

He shrugged. “Don’t see why not. Come on.”


 

Back where I’d dumped my stuff, I hurriedly started digging through my pack. I knew, on an instinctive level that I didn’t bother questioning, that the Wild Hunt was done playing cat-and-mouse—and they had been playing, I knew that too, or else I would have died in the first ten seconds of the hunt—and this was the final stretch of the chase.

 

It’s hard to put on and take off armor solo. They never seem to mention that in the stories, but it’s true. I mean, it’s bad enough under ordinary circumstances. In the middle of the night, when you’re in such a panicky rush that your fingers are shaking a little and you’re still struggling the whole time to keep mental and physical control because you’re a werewolf and it’s the full moon and all your instincts are screaming that this is the time to cast off your humanity and hunt, it’s significantly harder.

 

I managed, though. It helped a lot that, because whatever cousin Aiko had contracted the armor from put efficiency over tradition, all the fastenings were fiercely modern in nature. Stiff leather and medieval-style buckles would have been impossible.

 

By the time I had the breastplate, greaves, and associated parts on, I could hear the hounds again. I hurriedly tugged on the boots—not armored, exactly, but heavy-duty leather made to match the armor—and stuffed my hands into the gauntlets. Because wearing rings under gauntlets is not a fun experience, I was still wearing the bracelet with rings attached around my neck, although I ‘d had to wrap it around a couple of times so it was snug enough to not fall off.

 

I summoned Tyrfing and clipped it onto the belt I’d packed (and that was tons of fun, let me tell you; the armor was designed to stack together in the smallest possible space, but it still took up a lot of room in the pack), then swung my cloak over my shoulders, leaving it open in the front except for one spot at the neck to hold it in place. It looked scarier, having the armor exposed. I grabbed the helmet, artfully designed in the shape of a snarling wolf’s head, and jammed it onto my head. I’d seldom worn it, because it was extremely conspicuous and it got really hot inside what was essentially a glorified tin can lined with Kevlar (I suppose part of it is also because I just plain hate it that every single thing I own seems to contribute to the impression that I have an unhealthy obsession with wolves, when it’s really just a whole bunch of unfortunate coincidences). Tonight, though, I wanted both maximum intimidation factor and the most protection possible, and either of those was sufficient motivation for wearing the thing.

 

I took a deep breath, and tossed the pack aside. The hounds had fallen silent, and it wasn’t hard to guess why. I could see eyes, burning with the light of the storm, in a loose semicircle around me, though the shroud of darkness kept everything else hidden in the night. The rock was at my back, but everywhere else was filled with the sparks, lightning in miniature sparking and fading only to flash again. The riders wouldn’t be far behind them.

 

“Pier!” I shouted. “Are you coming? Or are you too much the coward to face me yourself?

 

There was a sudden, absolute stillness, as though the whole world were waiting with bated breath. A moment later, the glowing eyes began to fall back, a gap forming within the semicircle. Pier rode through it, huge and grim in the dark, wreathed in storm and lightning. His horse, which looked even bigger and scarier through human eyes, set each foot slowly, deliberately, with a sound somewhere between thunder and falling trees. Up close they smelled—in addition to everything that Pier himself smelled like—of ozone and storm winds and terror and fresh-spilled blood.

 

My blood, specifically. It was a rather distinct and depressingly familiar aroma.

 

“Coward?” he boomed mockingly. “You’re the one that ran.”

 

I grinned fiercely behind my helmet (incidentally, do you have any idea how hard it is to really project from inside a helmet? If I kept this up I might have to find, like, an opera coach or something). “That’s funny,” I said, carefully mocking. “I seem to remember there being a couple more of you a few minutes ago.” I waved cheerily to the Cu Sith with the fresh, livid scars across its face. It growled in response, sounding distinctly unfriendly.

 

But I saw, behind Pier’s back, that it also dipped its head in a sort of bow, and there was respect in its eerily intelligent eyes.

 

My heart lifted at the sight. Until then I hadn’t known, not really known, whether this would work, but when I saw how the hound reacted I was sure.

 

I first got the idea from what Fenris had said. He’d compared the Wild Hunt to a werewolf pack, and I’m sure that was no mistake—if nothing else, the presence of werewolves in the Hunt’s retinue suggested some relationship. And besides, it just makes sense. They were both primal magics, powers of the hunt and the hunter. It wouldn’t make sense for them to have nothing in common. And that brings us to my plan.

 

You see, a werewolf pack is an interesting dynamic, socially speaking. Dominance is a huge part of werewolf psychology, more so even than humans. But, as Ryan had implied, dominance—in the sense of the psychological traits that make a person unwilling to submit—was nothing without the authority and the respect to back it up. That was why, for example, Kyra was having discipline problems—part of it was that she wasn’t really Alpha-level dominant, just closer than anyone else nearby. But more was because her experiences with Roland had left her too psychologically scarred to instill that sense of authority in a way that werewolves could understand, subconsciously.

 

That, really, was the key I was counting on. The pack is implicitly loyal to the Alpha—right up until the moment the Alpha does something to suggest that he’s too weak to lead, in which case the best they can hope for is to be deposed. Worst case—and much more common—that deposition is lethal. In Kyra’s case, even though her wolves recognized that she was no coward (and that intelligent decision-making was more important in a leader than fondness of violence), her reluctance to physically keep them in line told their instincts that she was unfit.

 

By fighting back instead of running blindly—and, more importantly, by fighting successfully, at least in some small measure—I told the predators in the Wild Hunt that I was one of them, not prey. Prey you can hunt and kill at will, but a predator demands respect, especially from the literal embodiment of the hunt. If I could capitalize on that respect, well, this might not be quite over yet after all.

 

“The one you slew was the weakest of us,” Pier boomed, his own voice also mocking. “Hardly a feat to boast of.”

 

“Why’d you send him instead of coming yourself then?” I wondered aloud. “Surely a champion of the Daylight isn’t too cowardly to deal with little old me himself.” That, too, was a calculated tactic. The Wild Hunt might disdain such things as courts and politics, but the fact remained that it was a force of darkness, and not fond of the Seelie Court. By reminding them that Pier was a representative of Day, I hoped to drive just another spike between them.

 

“I don’t know, though,” I continued, voice disingenuously thoughtful. “I mean, you did feel the need for this whole Hunt so you didn’t have to face me alone. Maybe your balls really are that small.”

 

There was a reaction—just the barest indrawn breath, the slightest pause, but my senses were working overtime right now—at that. Good; I’d worried the insult wouldn’t carry the same meaning for the fae, but it looked to have done the job.

 

Between the cloud, the lightning, and the helmet, it was impossible to see Pier’s face. But I could feel his frustration, somehow, in his gaze on me. He was silent for a moment, and I got the distinct impression he was trying to think of a way out of it. Unfortunately for him, at this point there wasn’t one—even if he tried to turn this back into a regular hunt, the Wild Hunt following him would inevitably wonder if he really was afraid of me.

 

Showing fear in front of the biggest, baddest collection of hunters in the world is not a good way to go about securing a long and happy life.

 

He really shouldn’t have stopped to gloat.

 

And then I noticed something. The noise had stopped. Oh, it had been quiet before, but this was different. The wind, the gentle rustling of branches, even the barely-detectable sounds of breathing ceased. Silence was absolute. Stillness was absolute. The hounds were still watching me, eyes bright with lightning, but I could feel that their attention was elsewhere.

 

I didn’t shudder, but I wanted to. Something big was coming.

 

I was not disappointed. Through the clouds rode another Hunter, one I hadn’t seen before. I would have noticed, if I had.

 

She rode a pure white stallion, with lightning woven through his mane. (Don’t give me that line about no white horses, either. If you can say that with a straight face, I promise you it’s because you’ve never seen a faerie horse.) The horse itself was something majestic, shaming even the other Hunters’. But it paled in comparison to the rider.

 

I have trouble describing just what made her so remarkable. She was tall and slender and beautiful, but not so tall as other Sidhe I’d seen, nor any more beautiful. She carried in her right hand a spear that looked as though a beam of moonlight had fallen to the earth and been trapped in her grasp, but it was no more beautiful or terrifying than Tyrfing.

 

She was simply more than the other Sidhe. She was terribly awesome and awesomely terrible and to look at her was to see the beauty and the terror of the Night. The mantle of the Wild Hunt hung over her like a cloak, and in that moment I’d never seen anything quite so unearthly.

 

I bowed my head slightly, when she entered the ring, and I saw that Pier did as well. We had no choice. For all that I was a werewolf and born of Fenris’s line, for all that he was a champion of the Sidhe himself, we could not help but acknowledge that she was so much more. She took it as her due, not even looking at us.

 

“Master Pier,” she said in a voice like harps and thunder. “This one calls thee coward. He says thou art no hunter at all, but prey. How will thou answer?”

 

He raised his head, and though his face was hidden behind the helmet and the mask of shadow it was still quite clear he was looking straight at me. “In blood, lady, as is only fit.”

 

“Come then, brethren,” she said with the air of someone who’d already known what form the conversation would take. A ritual, then. No surprise there. “Let us witness this proving.”

 

Moving with slow deliberation, Pier dismounted and slapped his horse on the flank. It obligingly turned and cantered off. The shroud of the Hunt had drawn back to form a low, loose ring around us, and within seconds the beast had vanished into it. The others rode, although the specter on the white stallion was the only one I could see clearly.

 

I paced slowly, steadily out from the rocks. I didn’t want to start this with an obstacle at my back, after all. Pier moved with me, not turning his back to me. I noticed, with an idle part of my mind, that the Hunt’s magic had stopped smelling like my blood in particular and gone back to more generic hunting smells. I wasn’t the sole focus of this hunt anymore, although I had no doubt that if I lost—or worse, ran—they’d be on me faster than you could say “Psych!”

 

We moved out, pacing each other, through the ranks of hunters, all of which silently parted before us. Up close, I could see them much more closely, as the fog swirled around them—even without the moon, their own attendant storm would have provided enough light to see.

 

I wasn’t particularly happy about this fact. Some of the riders were Sidhe, and not unlike those of that race I’d seen before—which is to say unnaturally beautiful, slender figures that moved with inhuman grace. They tended to be the ones carrying the elegant, lovely weapons—intricately carved longbows, slender swords made of crystal or some metal that gleamed like silver in the moonlight, and long spears that were both beautiful and terrible in their simplicity.

 

Others were…equally terrifying, but less humanoid. I saw several short, musclebound figures that were hideously ugly, and couldn’t have been mistaken for men by a blind dog who’d never even encountered a human being. Their exact features varied a lot, but none of them were pleasant. Some had tusks, or jagged teeth that could have been transplanted from a shark’s mouth, or four-inch-long claws. Most of them seemed to disdain all but the most cursory of armor. They carried weapons, though, crude things that made no effort to look like anything other than brutal instruments of destruction—war axes, flanged maces, and short, heavy bows seemed to be the norm.

 

They did have one thing in common, to be fair. All of them were grinning wide, bloodthirsty grins below mad, wild eyes. I wasn’t sure whether they wanted me to win or die. I wasn’t entirely sure they cared, so long as blood was spilled.

 

There were other, stranger things among that terrible hunting party as well, many of which I fully expected to haunt my nightmares if I made it out of here. I saw something that vaguely resembled a wolf walking upright, which disdained the use of horse and weapon and armor—no wonder that I’d mistaken it for another of the hounds at a distance. Alone of all the Wild Hunt, it saluted me as I walked past. Smaller things rode several of the hounds, carrying appropriately scaled weaponry. I didn’t make the mistake of thinking that made them less dangerous than their human-sized counterparts.

 

After the first few seconds, I stopped looking. It wasn’t as severe without the Second Sight, but the Wild Hunt was still not comfortable to be around. I smelled a dozen kinds of magic as I passed through them, and most of those smells had blood in them.

 

After we’d moved out a ways, Pier and I were surrounded in a sea of storm, bright eyes and dimly seen figures moving in a loose ring around us. The hounds had started to make noise again, growls and snarls rather than the baying of the hunt, and I thought that I heard a sort of indecipherable susurrus from the storm cloud as well. It was just on the threshold of hearing, and I was tempted to stop for a moment to hear it more clearly. I resisted, of course. I’d heard the stories, and nothing good ever happened to people who made a mistake that glaring.

 

We were moving pretty slowly, so it was almost a minute of walking, although it felt much longer at the time. My nerves were getting seriously jittery, and I half-wished they’d just kill me and get it over with.

 

On the other hand, I didn’t see or hear or feel Snowflake in the Hunt anymore. Some victory, at least, and good to know that Carraig had kept his word.

 

Once we were out on flat, level ground, Pier stopped. I stopped as well, perhaps ten feet away. The rest of the Wild Hunt were invisible in the cloud, but I had no doubt that they were there.

 

It helped that the hounds and not-hounds, visible only in the form of lightning-eyes in the darkness, formed a distinct ring around us, perhaps thirty feet across. The implication was clear: the arena had been defined, and whosoever broke it could expect no mercy.

 

This was the Wild Hunt, after all, and mercy had no part in that.

 

The Sidhe on the white horse had faded into the cloud, but I had no doubt that it was her voice I heard. It had eerie overtones of thunder, and of baying hounds, which reminded me oddly of Fenris. “Let us see, brethren,” she said, the voice coming from everywhere and nowhere, lost in the storm, “which of those before us is the greater hunter, and the hounds feed upon the unworthy.” A stroke of lightning fell in the dead center of the circle, evenly between myself and Pier, and the boom of thunder following it seemed almost to hold the sound of hunting horns within it.

 

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As I’d expected, the Hunt made a beeline for my location, not turning aside at the decoys. Not terribly surprising; they had a very impressive reputation for being, in addition to relentless, extremely hard to fool. No, this wasn’t going to be as easy as dodging a normal hunt, or even a pack of werewolves.

 

I raced through the trees to a piece of open ground in the middle of the valley, on an old and long-since overgrown logging road, and watched. Behind me the trees closed in, but between me and the Hunt was a long clear stretch, and I could easily watch them coming.

 

Well, insomuch as I could see them coming, anyway. Each and every rider and hound was shrouded in what looked like dark, grim storm clouds, complete with flickering lightning, making it impossible to pick out individual figures, let alone identify them. That was a problem. I didn’t think I could pull this off if I couldn’t see what I was dealing with.

 

Under other circumstances, I probably would have agonized and wondered whether it was really worth the price of what I did next. With the impulsiveness of the wolf in control, there was no hesitation. In the same moment that I recognized what I was looking at, I called the Second Sight.

 

I’d never used the Sight much. Nobody in their right mind does. Just now, I was hoping that it would show me the reality of what I was looking at. That sort of thing was, certainly, a reasonable expectation of the Second Sight. It was a powerful tool—and, like most such tools, at least in the magical world, it was a highly dangerous one.

 

It showed the truth of what you were looking at—but it also showed The Truth, and there was a limit to how much of that a man could stand to see. Look at the wrong thing too closely, and there won’t be much of your mind left afterward. Even worse, you can’t necessarily guess ahead of time whether something is safe to see ahead of time, making any use of the Second Sight an ongoing process of Russian roulette.

 

I was pretty damn sure the Wild Hunt wasn’t something a sane person turned the Sight upon. But desperate times call for desperate measures.

 

It took only a moment. I closed my eyes, and when I opened them again the world had changed.

 

It’s called—among many other names—the Second Sight. But it isn’t sight, not really. It is usually conceived of as a sort of synesthesia, because that’s the only way a mortal brain has to interpret sensations that are so utterly foreign to its nature. But odors played a strong role, for me—no surprise there, given how important they were to my thinking anyway. This was even stronger in my current body, for obvious reasons. It can also manifest as taste, touch, music—anything you can imagine, really, which is to be expected given that it’s really your imagination that determines how you experience it.

 

There was once a philosopher called Rochefoucald. He lived in seventeenth-century France, as I recall. I’ve often found his writings, although somewhat bleak, to be fairly perceptive. One of my favorites was the claim that “Neither the sun nor death can be looked at steadily.”

 

That, right there, is the height of philosophical greatness. It’s clever, quotable, slightly obscure of meaning, and—best of all—short. I’d never had much reason to argue with that claim, either. It’s true that there are some things the humanish mind is not made to see, or even think about too much.

 

Tonight I got to add another entry to the list.

 

I couldn’t look at the Wild Hunt, not really. It was quite simply too much to take in. I could no more understand what the Wild Hunt was than I could define the difference between the way violence smells and the sound of violet to a lizard. For one heartbeat I saw, and Saw, entirely too much for comfort, before I jerked my head away, the image burned into my brain only too clearly.

 

I was too far away from the hunters to see them clearly. But the Second Sight has little respect for such concerns, and I could pick out each and every figure as easily as if they were a mere twenty feet away. I could still see the storm in which they rode—which, I realized abruptly, was a sort of entity in and of itself, although even considering that was almost enough to make me start shivering again—but I could see through it, as well, to the figures underneath.

 

There were, I thought, perhaps thirty humanoid figures on horseback, accompanied by a like number of hunting hounds. Or, at least, that was the illusion the shroud was maintaining; looking more closely showed another truth. Some of them were, indeed, the huge faerie hounds I’d fought once before, with fur of black and white and glowing eyes. Others, though, appeared to be normal dogs wreathed in storm, greyhounds and huskies running beside mongrels and mutts.

 

I saw a couple of werewolves, too, wearing fur and running beside the horses. The size and build were quite distinctive, and anyway when I looked at them I could smell werewolf on the wind. I winced slightly, even as my lip curled up in an instinctive snarl, and hoped there were none of them I knew.

 

The mounted figures were harder to identify. They all seemed to be wearing helmets, and there was too much to smell for me to sort anything out that way. They were all armed, though; bows and spears seemed to be the order of the day, although I saw plenty of long cavalry swords as well, and a handful carried maces or even axes. That, really, was all I needed to know.

 

I let the Sight fade, with a whimper of gratitude. I so did not want to see the Wild Hunt any closer up. Even a glimpse was almost more than I could take. As I did, one of the hounds (it was impossible to tell what variety, though I thought not werewolf) bayed, and was answered by another horn.

 

I howled back my answer, and did a very stupid thing. I charged straight at them.

 

I should clarify, I suppose, that this was very much a part of my plan. Fleeing was a waste of time, in any case. It would only prolong things, and not very much—it was hard to tell just how fast they were moving, but it was definitely faster than I could run, and I got the distinct impression that they were loafing around even so.

 

And besides. To flee was to mark myself as prey. That wasn’t good.

 

I don’t think the Wild Hunt has people charge them very often. In any case, they didn’t seem to expect it. They kept running pell-mell along the logging road, the baying of hounds an almost continual sound now. For myself, I was as nearly silent as I could be. This wasn’t too hard, because my mind was too dazed to really process vocal instructions anyway—damaged, I suppose, by exposure to the Hunt. In any case, the Second Sight seemed to be fading in and out every few moments, resulting in an incredibly disorienting, nerve-jangling experience. I could feel that every animal in the whole damned valley—every single one, from the ants on up—was running in either panic or glee. I could see the trees themselves swaying in the moonlight with the force of the pure, primal magic spinning through their boughs. The Wild Hunt’s horns sounded with thunder and the howling of wolves, rather than any more appropriate sound, and seemed to send a spike of adrenaline through my blood.

 

More unsettlingly, my own body seemed to morph slightly as I moved, fur fading through every shade from black to white and back again, claws glittering with ice, snow drifting in the air around me, visible only in my peripheral vision. I could feel a low, dull ache in my left thigh, though I knew for a fact I hadn’t been injured, and when I took a moment to glance at it I saw a deep, ugly puncture wound there, as though I’d been stabbed with a sword. Blood ran freely from it, and at a glance I would have said it had been inflicted only moments before.

 

And then I blinked, and the Sight faded, and my body was whole. I shook my head, dismissed the vision from my mind, and kept going.

 

In spite of all that, I got to within thirty feet of them without being spotted, and received the next of a great many unpleasant shocks.

 

It wasn’t Carraig at the head of the pack.

 

The leader was astride quite possible the largest and scariest-looking horse I had ever seen—imagine a horse the size of a Clydesdale but built like a courser, coal-black in color with eyes that burned like, well, live coals. He was well suited to it, too, being around seven feet tall and fully armored. A lesser beast couldn’t have stood up under his weight, let alone galloped. He was carrying an enormous sword, near as tall as he was, in his right hand, and holding the reins in his left.

 

I didn’t have time to freeze. They were moving at a breakneck pace, and that thirty feet disappeared fast.

 

I leapt out in front of them, snarling and growling for all I was worth. Like normal horses, the Hunt’s mounts reacted rather strongly to the sudden appearance of what was, for all practical purposes, an enormous snarling wolf right in front of them. Unlike normal horses, that reaction wasn’t fear or startlement, but eagerness and redoubled speed.

 

The good news is that I was expecting that.

 

I wasn’t as strong as the Wild Hunt. In all probability I wasn’t even close to as strong as one of those eldritch riders. But, end of the day, they were still predators, and there isn’t a predator in the world that anticipates the quarry voluntarily seeking them out for a confrontation. Which meant that, for a bare instant, I had the advantage of surprise. And I pressed it for all it was worth.

 

I slammed power through my foci as hard as I could, throwing out wind and forcing shadow into tangibility. And I focused all of it, everything I could, into a single purpose.

 

Namely, tripping the leading horse.

 

He hadn’t thought to ward against that, apparently. The horse looked, for a moment, as though it would simply push through my barrier with raw muscle—but I shoved more magic into the working, and it stumbled, then tripped.

 

Inertia is a powerful force. Horse and rider—counting in armor and such, it had to come to at least a half-ton between them—hit the ground and kept right on going, their own momentum propelling them forward. Behind them I saw at least one other horse trip and fall, while others pulled up short. This close, I could see that the mask of the Wild Hunt made their eyes look like hollow voids filled with lightning—but they were still quite capable of showing hate.

 

I bolted, laughing as I went, uphill into the forest. One hound—a true Cu Sith, rather than a mortal dog or werewolf—was quick-thinking enough to get in my way. I lashed out with one paw, slashing at its face, and kept going, not taking the time to see whether it were seriously injured or not. Its howls behind me sounded more furious than pained, in any case.

 

The chaos was just dying down as I made it into the forest. I could feel a new tension to the air, raising the hair on the back of my neck and making my heart pound even faster. Before, this had just been a hunt—but now the Wild Hunt really wanted to watch me bleed.

 

That was all to the good. This whole exercise was to get them to respect me, after all. Running wouldn’t do it—but now that I’d bloodied them, they had to take me seriously.

 

In among the trees, I would have the advantage. The trees were pretty tight together—enough so that I was navigating as much by smell and magic as sight, even with the full moon—which would prevent them from moving en masse the way they appeared to prefer. The confined spaces would prevent the horses from building up to their full speed, and I would be able to use my greater maneuverability to maximum advantage.

 

While I ran, I was thinking furiously. It wasn’t Carraig leading the Wild Hunt against me. In fact, it seemed like a pretty inescapable conclusion that it was Pier, his opposite number. (I reflected bitterly that the next time Fenris told me something about a Maiden’s champion, I’d bloody well make sure which one he was talking about.) That, in turn, implied some very strange things I hadn’t realized about the events of the previous several days.

 

That, of course, didn’t matter in the slightest. If I made it through the night alive, then maybe—just maybe—I would be able to do something about that.

 

Until then, all that mattered was figuring out how this changed my strategy. This wasn’t too hard, because as far as I could tell, it didn’t. In fact, Pier might be better for me than Carraig; it was distinctly nighttime, which meant that the Daylight champion would be weakened, after all. On top of that, he was less cunning, less unpredictable. Stronger, maybe—but then either one was so much stronger than me that that was a moot point.

 

Somewhere behind me, I heard the breaking of branches, announcing the entrance of the hunters into the wooded area. I was moving fast, as only a werewolf in his element under the full moon could, so I still had several seconds before the pursuit caught up to me.

 

I looked around, then my eyes fastened on a nearby pine tree a good bit larger than its neighbors. My jaws parted in a grin, and I trotted over to it.

 

Everybody knows that canines, including werewolves, can’t climb. And, like a lot of the things that everybody knows, especially about werewolves, it managed to be simultaneously accurate and highly misleading.

 

Everybody knows that werewolves can’t climb—including the werewolves. Think about that for a minute. We weren’t stupid—even with the wolf in ascendance, I could still think perfectly well, just…differently. Which meant, in turn, that I could compensate for that weakness, rather than just hurl myself at a tree over and over again.

 

I might not be able to climb, but I could certainly jump.

 

Again, the improved ratio of strength to weight came to the rescue. I was able, using my powerful hind legs, to launch myself high enough that the branch I was looking for hit me about chest height. A bit of scrabbling later, I was uncomfortably perched on one of the thicker branches, right next to the trunk where it could actually hold me. I’m not huge by werewolf standards, but that still comes to around a hundred and eighty pounds of wolf, and there weren’t very many trees around that could hold that much weight.

 

Once there, I sat and waited. And waited. As it turned out, it took almost seven seconds for the first of the Hunt to arrive. That might not sound like a long time, but trust me, it felt like forever. I could only tell how little time it actually was by listening to my heartbeats.

 

He was of a more ordinary size than Pier, and carried a shortbow rather than a sword. He was riding a more normal-looking horse as well, although the Hunt’s shroud concealed enough of the details of the both of them to make it a hard thing to say for sure. Aside from the pine I was sitting in, I couldn’t smell a thing over the reek of storm and magic.

 

In any case, he got very unlucky. He wandered directly past me, and never thought to look up. I took advantage of this opportunity immediately, dropping out of the tree to hit him from above.

 

The horse dodged at the last moment. Actually, that’s not quite true; I’d have sworn the last moment was already past, but it lunged forward with uncanny speed, leaving me to hit the forest floor with a grunt of disappointment.

 

The hunter wheeled to face me, bow coming up as he did. I surged forward, seizing the horse’s foreleg in my jaws and wrenching it sideways. It screamed and collapsed, spoiling his aim, and I danced back. My teeth had broken the skin, and the taste of fresh blood across my tongue was the strongest drug imaginable. It filled me with a sudden surge of hunger, too strong to describe, let alone contain.

 

The next thing I knew, the horse was on the ground and I was ripping at its abdomen, tearing off great bloody chunks of meat and gulping them down. It felt good, sating a hunger nothing else could ever quite satisfy. A moment later, I felt a hot stinging pain in my side, and turned to see a white-fletched arrow sticking out of my side, just behind the shoulder. Nice shot, although not exactly difficult from such short distance.

 

Pity for him that it hit at the wrong angle and skipped off my ribs. Oh, I don’t think that it would have been lethal if it hadn’t—werewolves are terribly hard to kill, especially on a full-moon night, and his arrowhead wasn’t silver—but it would have come a lot closer.

 

As it was, it didn’t even slow me down. I wasn’t sure how he’d managed to not be caught underneath the falling horse—actually, I had pretty much no idea what had happened between that first taste of blood and being shot—but he was standing about ten feet away aiming another arrow my way. I could smell his fear even from that distance, even through the shroud.

 

I rounded and launched myself at him, leaving the horse to finish dying behind me. Ten feet is not such a long distance to a werewolf. He panicked, an entirely reasonable reaction to seeing a bloodstained werewolf closing on you rapidly, and his first shot went wide. He never got another one, because I was leaping on him and bearing him to the ground. He fumbled at his belt for a knife, but I was biting at the join of his neck and shoulder between helmet and jacket and shortly after that he wasn’t doing anything at all.

 

It was at about that time that the taste of his blood finally managed to drive home what my nose had been trying to tell me, if only my head hadn’t been too clouded to see it. This wasn’t one of the Sidhe. That was human blood.

 

I pulled away in revulsion. A moment later I saw the Wild Hunt’s stormy mask fall away, revealing, as I’d known it would, a human being.

 

He was—maybe, at the most—seventeen years old.

 

I’d never seen someone die with the Second Sight before. It was…bad. Very nearly as terrible as the Wild Hunt, with an added dash of guilt for flavor.

 

I gagged, and nearly threw up. Then the other part of me, the one that didn’t care about such things, took over again. I turned and yanked the arrow roughly out of my side with my jaws, not worrying about keeping the wound from widening further. It didn’t matter in any case; the moonlight filled the hole, and mere moments later there wasn’t even a scar to show for it.

 

Behind me, I heard hoof beats rapidly approaching, although they sounded less like normal hooves than tiny cracks of thunder. Turning, I saw a group of perhaps ten riders coming at me from behind, their mounts moving with an entirely unnatural agility through the trees, Pier riding at their head. Apparently his mount hadn’t been seriously injured by the fall. As I watched, one of them raised his bow and sent an arrow flying my way. Considering the circumstances, I was amazed at how accurate he was—had I not moved, I would have eaten an arrow between the eyes. I did move, of course, taking a page from Snowflake’s book and catching it in my jaws instead, but still. No human could have made that shot under these circumstances.

 

Good. I didn’t feel so bad about killing Sidhe.

 

I turned and raced deeper into the woods, laughing all the way. Behind me I heard more and more horses converging on the group pursuing me. And, of course, the hounds.

 

I focused on speed, pouring every fiber of my being into running faster, harder than ever before. I leapt over and dove under fallen trees, ducked through gaps barely wide enough to admit me, took sudden turns, all the time moving far faster than any normal wolf could manage, let alone a human. The whole time the Sight danced behind my eyes, if anything more frequent now than before, dazzling and maddening and wonderful. Several times I glanced back with a mocking laugh and accidentally Saw the Wild Hunt again. Each time hit me the same way, and some part of me wondered what sorts of damage it was doing to me.

 

The rest didn’t care. This was what I was made for, my element. It was the greatest hunt in the world, and it was worth dying to feel this way. I’d never moved so fast, never felt myself to be so perfectly in harmony with the world. I wasn’t even trying to do magic and the forest around me turned against the Wild Hunt—rocks turned beneath their hooves, branches broke as they rode under, everything that could go wrong for them did.

 

And yet, in spite of that, in spite of everything I did, in spite of the terrain, the Wild Hunt was gaining. When I’d started they had been perhaps twenty feet away, but within moments that dropped to fifteen, then ten. I wove more barriers of air and shadow to cover my back, but they were alert to that trick now and it hardly even slowed them, while the effort distracted me enough from the running that I judged it actually cost me time. They started shooting at me again, forcing me to dodge, which cost more time.

 

Right then, I knew that if I didn’t change the game my life was measured in seconds, and not many at that. My ability to dodge was limited, and at some point one of them would get a lucky shot in and cripple me. After that, well, it was all over but the bleeding.

 

By now the entirety of the Wild Hunt was right on my trail.

 

Desperate times call for desperate measures. I turned hard uphill and kept running, panting now. I was starting to regret those bites of horse, as it felt like I was about to start puking them back up whole—not a fun prospect, especially given that I hadn’t taken the time to chew properly before I swallowed.

 

I know, I know, karma. Although, in my defense, I feel like I should point out that I wasn’t exactly in my right mind, and that I hadn’t let this side of myself control my actions for years. That’s gotta count for something, right? Right? Anybody?

 

Anyway, I was running, and they were chasing, when we came to another rock formation. I leapt lightly up onto the boulders, leaving them milling around behind me. Horses aren’t good at boulders. Oh, I don’t doubt that they could have jumped up to join me—this was the Wild Hunt we were talking about, for crying out loud, not a one of them had the limitations they should’ve—but horses don’t do so great on uneven ground, especially at high speeds. If they’d have followed me with their mounts I might well have been able to cripple one or more of them just with the terrain.

 

I kept running, moving uphill. Behind me I heard several of the hounds jumping up to join me, and I thought that at least one person was dismounting to come up on foot, while others rode around to block me at the other side.

 

Unfortunately, my luck had finally run out. I wound up in a small, rock-scattered pocket canyon. Two of the three sides were steep and thickly wooded hills, rather than sheer rock, but it wouldn’t matter. Climbing those slopes would slow me down way too much, and I’d be catching an arrow long before I was out to safety.

 

I turned back to the mouth of the canyon. I was planning, if at all possible, to kill the first one or two pursuers through to cause chaos and then try and bolt. The hills were undoable, but I was hoping that lycanthropic agility and air magic would let me make my way up the rock face, and then the Hunt would have a hell of a time finding their own way round.

 

It might have worked. It very well might—except for one teeny, tiny little detail.

 

Snowflake was the first hound through the opening.

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Colorado doesn’t have a long history—or, well, maybe it would be fairer to say that it doesn’t have a long history as Colorado. There’s plenty of history before that, in the form of various native tribes, but given that most of that’s been lost I feel okay discounting it.

 

Colorado doesn’t have a long history, but it has a lot of history, as though trying to make up for its relative youth by cramming stories into it like a kid who doesn’t quite get the “clean your room” concept and has a small closet. Some of that history is buried, now, bulldozed and paved over with a Wal-Mart sitting on top. But most of it’s just tucked away in a corner like an heirloom you don’t need but can’t quite bring yourself to get rid of.

 

Gold Camp Road is one of those. It’s terribly impractical for modern purposes, but it’s historic, so they haven’t just abandoned it quite yet. Mostly it’s unused these days except for four-wheeling enthusiasts, certain tourists who typically don’t quite understand what they’re getting into, and the rare occasion when the highway is closed. There are a few antisocial types with houses out thataway, and some people like me who use it for forest access, but mostly you don’t see many cars.

 

The story’s pretty simple. And, like a lot of the stories in Colorado, it starts with a gold rush. In this case, the gold rushers were rushing to Cripple Creek, just on the other side of the Peak from Colorado Springs. It’s fallen far since then, but back in the day it was big business, digging gold out of the mountains up there.

 

There’s always money to be made in gold, and lots of it. So naturally there was plenty of demand for shuttling ore from the mines in Cripple Creek to the mills in the Springs. Thus, Gold Camp. It’s a narrow, winding dirt road connecting the two cities, following the route of the old railroad.

 

The highway is less direct—astonishingly so; it’s around three times as long as the actual distance between the two cities—but it’s also much less twisty, and it’s paved, which makes it quite a bit faster. As a result, almost nobody uses Gold Camp for actually getting from A to B.

 

Fortunately, I learned to drive in Wyoming and North Dakota, often in places that make Colorado look positively tame. I didn’t have too much difficulty. I still had several hours yet to go before sunset, so I took it slow. A short while later, I turned off on an even narrower, windier, steeper road up into the hills. I followed that for around a mile or so, then stopped. My Jeep was better suited to this kind of driving than a highway, but there were limits. It would have taken a specialized rock-crawling vehicle to go much further.

 

Besides. I would enjoy the hike.

 

I’d taken off the armor back in town—I wasn’t particularly concerned about an attack coming before sunset—and now I was wearing a simple T-shirt and cargo shorts. To that I added a black backpack in which I had a number of things that might be helpful. It was hard to guess with certainty, knowing as little as I did about the Wild Hunt itself, but I made what guesses I could. It helped that it was a pretty large backpack. And it was heavy. Fortunately, lycanthropy does have its perks.

 

Then I put on a thick glove, set my teeth, and grabbed the Gáe Bolg. It stung, made my arm numb and set it to shaking, but it was necessary, and it wasn’t quite as bad with the glove, in any case.

 

I left the road shortly thereafter, not wanting anyone to see me. I mean, it wasn’t quite the picture of a normal hiker, right? I was a little slower through the woods, but not too much. This was probably my favorite hunting ground, and I’d spent a lot of time there. It was my turf, basically, more so than the city itself, even.

 

The spear slowed me down—both because of the numbness and because a six-foot-long metal pole is, intrinsically, not something you want to carry hiking. But, again, it was familiar ground and I was carrying a comparatively light pack, and moving quick. It didn’t take me more than about an hour to get to my destination, a ways north of the road.

 

The werewolf who showed me the place, long since dead now, had called the rock formations the Cathedrals, so I did the same. I don’t know if that’s the proper name, or even if they have a proper name, but it’s descriptive enough. The red granite certainly looks majestic enough, especially if you’re not used to it. There’s even one formation that looks like a building—sort of like a really tiny cave that’s open on both ends. Neither entrance is easily visible from a distance, especially in the dark.

 

That was where I went first. Inside it was pretty dark. The roof had a few holes, but aside from those patches of light the interior was lit only by the sunlight coming in the two open ends and a few cracks between different rocks in the walls. There were a few cracks in the floor, too, not wide or deep enough to justify calling them crevices. You couldn’t fall in them, most likely, but you might get your leg wedged if you worked hard enough.

 

I stopped next to one of those, where there was no light to speak of. I dropped the spear into the crack with a sigh of relief, and covered it with my cloak. The result was, in functional terms, invisible, and I figured it was pretty unlikely that anybody would notice it. Oh, sure, it was conceivably possible that they would orient on the magic—but I reckoned if it were that easy to find, the Gáe Bolg wouldn’t have gone as long as it did in hiding. And while my cloak didn’t have the same kind of protections, it was a relatively very small piece of magic.

 

I did not, of course, stop there. I’ve spent a lot of time and effort finding things, and people, that didn’t want to be found, and as a consequence gotten pretty good at finding them. This means, naturally, that I’m also quite good at hiding things—it’s just a matter of approaching the same line from the other side, after all. I couldn’t hide myself from the Hunt, given that they had my scent already, but that didn’t make me incompetent.

 

So I also brushed out all my tracks with a pine branch—one I cut a long ways off, with an ordinary pocketknife. That had the added advantage of covering my scent, an advantage I went one step further on by crushing pine needles and scattering them everywhere except in the cave. There they might have given away my presence.

 

It would have been more effective to use, say, black pepper as a scent bomb. But pine blended into the background smells of the forest, making it a lot less likely that it would be noticed.

 

Before that, though, I took out a bottle of water and a bottle of rubbing alcohol from the pack and sprinkled those liberally over my trail as well. Part of this was, again, to dilute and confuse my scent. But mostly it was because of the magics involved.

 

Every substance has an associated spectrum of magic, and acts as a sort of lens to focus ambient energy into that shape. Some of these are famous enough that anybody might know to use them—silver’s nature as a purifying agent, for example, which can be dangerous to inherently impure werewolves (I don’t mean that in any moral sense, more a matter of being a mixture of multiple things). Iron is good at grounding and stabilizing, which makes it hazardous for faeries.

 

What a lot of people don’t realize—I know I never did, until Alexander pointed it out to me—is that the magical properties of a substance often bear a close resemblance to the physical ones, especially the chemical properties. Silver can be used as an antibiotic. Iron grounds electricity (why copper or silver doesn’t work on the fae, though, is a mystery, at least to me).

 

As you may be aware, water and alcohol are both very effective solvents. They dissolve things, break them down, wash them away. I wasn’t sure that a dash of these liquids, both hastily charged with extra power right before use, would help to erase the energetic traces of my presence, but it seemed like a decent guess.

 

It couldn’t hurt, at any rate. Plus, the scent of water would attract no notice, and the alcohol would be long since evaporated by the time the Hunt was anywhere near the area.

 

So that was that. The spear was as well hidden as it was possible, under the circumstances, for me to hide it. It was time I got out of the area, making sure that nobody found it just because I was nearby.

 

I kept north. It was easy going, now that I was warmed up and I’d lost the spear, and I was going at a pretty good clip. I had about four hours before true dark, which I was guessing meant at least three and a half before I had to start worrying.

 

It took me about two of them to get to where I was going. My destination was a long, broad valley with a tiny stream at the bottom, along with a narrow half-marked path. It was mid-April, but I’d climbed in elevation rather a lot, and there was still a good amount of snow up here in the shade. There was a lot of shade to be had, too, given that it was basically a forest. Most of the trees were conifers, but there were a lot of aspens to be had. Gambel oak and similar bushes clustered around the water.

 

It’s probably ironic, that I had chosen the same valley to run to as, almost two years ago and an eternity away, Garret White had chosen for his last stand. It made sense, though; this was a good place for a werewolf, plenty of cover and plenty of game trails. Plus it was a location I knew quite well.

 

And, I must admit, the symmetry amused me.

 

I took a long, meandering path through the valley, dropping articles of clothing at irregular intervals, tossing it into the underbrush and covering it with forest detritus. I wouldn’t be needing it tonight anyway, and I hoped that scattering objects impregnated with my scent might slow the Wild Hunt down if they were relying on that to find me.

 

A rather anemic hope, if truth be told. But I’d take whatever I could get.

 

By the time that I made it to my destination, another rock outcropping, I was naked except for shoes, backpack, and my various magical foci. (I’d left the necklace of my mother with Snowflake, though. It had sentimental value.) I wasn’t too bothered by that. I’m not modest, really, especially when there aren’t any people around. Away from humans I revert to more animalistic patterns of thought and behavior, and the simple fact is that only humans really give a shit about that sort of thing.

 

Anyway. I ditched the sandals at the base of the rocks, tossing one toward the trees and the other over nearer the stream, and started climbing. It was easy going. The granite was rough and provided plenty of handholds, and the rocks here were shaped vaguely like a stack of pancakes. Within a handful of seconds I was dropping my pack, maybe fifteen feet up, at the base of another stack of rocks.

 

I kept climbing. It was a little harder, but I like rock climbing, and it isn’t difficult to be good at it when you’re a werewolf. The vastly increased strength:weight ratio makes things a lot easier. A few minutes later I was sitting comfortably on the highest rock around, maybe forty or fifty feet up. It was around ten feet square, making any worries about falling groundless, and in any case I could probably catch myself pretty well with air. Even if I couldn’t, that wasn’t a far enough fall to kill me. Oh, there were always outliers—you can die in the shower, after all—but the vast majority of the time I’d walk away with, at the most, a broken bone or two. Unpleasant, but not undoable.

 

I sat there and faced into the sun, which was beginning to wester noticeably, with my eyes closed. It was warm enough that the breeze felt quite nice against my skin. “Hello, Fenris,” I said a moment later, not opening my eyes.

 

“How’d you know I was here?” the wolf-god asked, moving up to sit beside me.

 

I shrugged. It didn’t seem terribly important—although, in all honesty, I also wasn’t quite sure myself. I just knew, and somehow at the moment it didn’t seem to matter how.

 

Fenris didn’t seem to think it was an inappropriate answer. I still hadn’t opened my eyes, but I could feel that he wasn’t upset. “It’s going to be a beautiful evening,” he said a long moment later.

 

I grunted. “Some consolation, anyway.”

 

“Maybe so. May I ask you a question?”

 

“I rather doubt I could stop you,” I pointed out.

 

“I suppose not. Why do you do it?”

 

“Do what?” I asked, opening my eyes. Fenris looked back to his “normal” self, casually dressed and without the ribbon and spike that he wore when he wanted people to recognize him. He was currently laying back on the rock a few feet to my side and staring into the sky.

 

He gestured, expansively if rather vaguely. “This. The fighting. Everything.”

 

I looked out over the valley. The sun was touching just the tips of the trees on the other side of the valley now, looking like a gentle waterfall of gold on green. I thought about it for a long moment. “Because of this,” I said eventually.

 

“What?”

 

I waved my hand, indicating the broad expanse of trees. “This,” I said. “It’s…look. This world is terrible. I don’t like it. I don’t want to die. I don’t want to kill. I hate this world for what it’s done to me. For what it’s made me do, and be.” I paused, struggling to frame my thoughts. “But then there are moments like this. Watching the sunset. Swimming in the river. Eating a good meal. Making something beautiful. The moments that make life worth living.”

 

“Is it worth it?” he asked quietly. His voice sounded more human than I’d ever heard it, sad and soft and lonely.

 

I closed my eyes again. “I don’t know. I guess I’ll never know. But it’s the best I’m likely to get.” All was silent for a long moment. “May I ask you a question?”

 

“Fair’s fair,” he said, sounding amused now.

 

“I once asked you whether you were my father,” I said. “And you said no.”

 

“I remember.” Of course he did. From his perspective, it was probably like yesterday.

 

“I believe you. But the more I’ve thought about it, the more I’ve started to wonder whether there might have been another question I should have asked.”

 

“Oh?”

 

I nodded. “Yeah. I think I should have asked, was my father you?”

 

There was a long moment of silence. Then Fenris started to laugh, a sound like wolves howling. “Oh, Winter. You never give up, do you?”

 

“Nope,” I agreed. “It’s gotten me into trouble a few times in the past.”

 

“I know,” he said, laughter still dancing beneath the surface of his voice. “You’re quite clever, you know. Remarkably so for your age.” He was silent for a moment. “The answer, I suppose, is yes and no.”

 

“That isn’t very helpful.”

 

He made a frustrated noise. “I know. I told you, words aren’t my gift.” After a pause, he continued, “Look, think of it like this. Is four two plus two? Yes. But it is also three plus one.”

 

“So…what? He was you, but he was also something else?”

 

He growled. “No. Not quite. Maybe….” He trailed off, then spoke again, sounding more confident this time. “I’ve got it. Think of your shadow. It isn’t you—it can’t be, right? But it looks like you, and it moves like you, and it couldn’t be if you were not.” I nodded along thoughtfully. “In the same way,” Fenris continued, “I was not your father. Your father was not me. He was his own wolf. But at the same time, he was like me, a reflection of me.”

 

“So what does that make me?” I asked.

 

He shrugged. “I don’t know. You, I suppose.”

 

All was silent for a long time. “How did he die?” I asked finally, maybe five minutes later. “My father, I mean.”

 

Fenris took his time answering. “Just how he would have wanted,” he said finally. “With extravagant violence. Killed three werewolves before they brought him down.”

 

“Wait a second, he was fighting werewolves?”

 

“They were in his territory,” Fenris said by way of explanation. “He was always…stubborn. Arrogant. Inflexible.” He laughed quietly. “He’d have liked you.” There was a brief, brooding silence. “I always wondered,” he said after a moment. “Once I knew about you, I wondered. Should I have kept him and Carmen apart? Would they have been happy together? Would you have been happier, if you grew up thinking you were a wolf? I thought it was the kindest thing, but now I just don’t know.”

 

“Don’t beat yourself up about it,” I said kindly, ignoring the wrench that went through me at his words. “You did the best you could.”

 

“It wasn’t good enough,” whispered a voice on the wind. “She died for my mistakes, and I didn’t even know for sixteen years. It wasn’t good enough.”

 

I looked sideways, feeling a strange sort of concern—absurd, really, given that it’s the Fenris Wolf we’re talking about here—but he was already gone.


 

I napped for around an hour after that. It wasn’t like there was much else I could do, after all. I’d already set my plans in motion, and there wasn’t a lot I could do to improve upon them at this point.

 

My sleep was, needless to say, fitful and restless. The prospect of imminent death can do that to a guy. Eventually I gave up even pretending that I was going to get any sleep and just watched the last of the sunset instead.

 

Finally, as the colors started to fade from the western sky, I moved into the last stages of preparation. I was going to do this in fur. That was pretty unusual, as I normally prefer fighting as a human, but I thought that it was probably the smarter choice tonight. My best chance was to turn this into a contest of speed and endurance rather than outright combat, and that meant that the wolf was distinctly superior.

 

Besides. It was the full moon, and I hadn’t shifted in more than a week. That didn’t leave me a lot of room for staying human, especially under stress. Might as well just go with it.

 

I was relying on using my magic to help even the odds, at least a little bit. That, in turn, meant I really needed my foci, since without them I wasn’t really capable of much. With the full moon I would be operating at peak power, but I needed absolutely everything I could get tonight, and that meant seizing what few advantages I had.

 

The bad news was that all of my magical foci were various pieces of jewelry—they stand out so much less than carrying a staff around—and they’d been designed with my humanish body in mind. The good news is, I think ahead.

 

I had three foci with me, the three that I could conceivably hope to use in a combat situation. The first, my focus for manipulating air and wind, was a simple bracelet, which I unknotted from around my left wrist. It was very simple, just a narrow leather braid wrapped several times around my wrist. It hung loosely around my neck, but I’d measured it quite carefully (a task that wasn’t nearly as simple as that makes it sound, trust me) and once I’d changed it would be a snug collar.

 

That left two rings, one attuned to predatory animals and the other designed to help me manipulate shadows. I put the bracelet through both of them as I wrapped it around my neck. It wouldn’t work quite as well as the collar solution—I’d designed them assuming there would be more skin contact than this, and believe it or not that can make a difference—but it would work.

 

Once that was done, I laid down, carefully keeping the collar in place, and brought the wolf over myself like a cloak.

 

It’s hard to describe the change. I’ve tried, before, and it never quite works. It’s just too far removed from human experience. It’s like…have you ever had a joint pop back into place—not from an actual dislocation, just popping your back or something? And you remember how it hurts, a little, but there’s also the feeling of something coming back to its proper alignment? Changing is like that, only different. The pain is a lot more severe, for one thing. And it lasts a long time. And it’s all over your body. And it involves actual damage to your body—quickly repaired damage, maybe, but still a lot of minor injuries.

 

Okay, maybe it isn’t all that similar after all.

 

But that feeling of rightness, of things coming back into alignment, is exactly the same. It hurts terribly, but somehow once I start I can never quite seem to remember why I don’t do it more often.

 

I felt it, when the moon rose. I was about halfway through the transition, at that unpleasant point where you’ve long since ceased to resemble a human but you’re not yet recognizably canine. My eyes were currently focused on the rock about six inches in front of my face and I couldn’t see clearly anyway, but still, I knew. I could feel the moon’s first light brush over my skin, whispering gently to me, helping to nudge my body into the proper configurations.

 

It was faster, with the moon to help. Perhaps five minutes after it rose I was standing on four legs, shaking my head to clear it.

 

There’s something very special about wearing fur under the full moon, something utterly indescribable. Most of the time I’m fairly humanlike, even when I don’t look it—not in terms of appearance, but as far as attitudes and opinions go? Yep, not all that exotic there.

 

The full moon changes that. It brings out the parts of my psyche that are less civilized, less constrained. At the time, I can’t help but revel in it. Afterwards, it’s usually rather more chilling. I know quite well what can happen if you let that part take control, after all.

 

Tonight, though, there shouldn’t be any innocents around to be endangered. So I let the moon in, and I let the wolf out.

 

And the world changed.

 

I stood, shakily, on unsteady legs. It hurt, as taking on my proper shape always hurt, but I welcomed the pain, gloried in it. I rolled my neck to either side, provoking more bright shocks of sensation, and looked out at the world.

 

It was oddly different than the way my normal, pathetic self saw things. Color was only fuzzily visible, easily dismissed, but differences in shading and texture became paramount. The dim light was soothing to my eyes, and the shadows welcomed my gaze.

 

Even more of a change, the importance of vision was itself dramatically lessened. I could smell my own recent pain—my lip curled up at the stink—and on the breeze I sorted out the smells of each and every conifer within a hundred yards without thinking. A moment later I caught the aroma of a deer to the northwest, and my legs tensed slightly. It was a good night, a hunting night, and deer would be an excellent start to the night’s events.

 

I heard as well as felt my breathing accelerate and deepen, my heart rate pick up in anticipation, and for a moment I almost launched myself out to chase the prey.

 

I think I should clarify something here. The wolf in me—because, make no mistake, this was a part of me, not an external force—wasn’t stupid. It wasn’t thoughtless, nor had I forgotten my purpose here tonight. It was just…immediate. The wolf was a creature of the here-and-now, and everything else was subsumed into the moment. Planning was forgotten in the moonlight, memory was washed away by a passing breeze, until all that left was the urges of the moment. Past and future lacked the visceral immediacy of what I could smell and hear and see right now.

 

A moment later, though, I heard hunting horns, long and low and hungry. Looking to the south, I could see a mounted figure lowering an enormous horn from its mouth. I couldn’t see any details—the figure was shrouded in a mask of shadow, with lightning crawling over it—but it wasn’t hard for me to put it together.

 

Impulsively, I threw my head back and howled an answering challenge to the sky. The man might be resigned to death, but the wolf never would, and it didn’t know how to back down from a challenge.

 

The Wild Hunt thought I was prey.

 

They were about to have a very fun surprise. This was my forest, my night, my hunt, and God have mercy on anyone who tried to take that from me, because I surely wouldn’t.

 

I had a plan, of course. That was in my nature; I always had a plan. This one was a little zanier than usual, but that was to be expected. This particular plan scared me rather a lot. On the bright side, it was quite possible that I would be killed before I could execute even the first step, so I wasn’t too terribly concerned about that.

 

Laughing, I leapt lightly down from the rock, not bothering to slow my fall. I hit the ground forty feet below hard, sending a wave of pain through my joints, but with the moonlight singing in my blood I hardly even felt it. I slipped into the underbrush with a smile on my face, thinking bloody thoughts.

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